I think that takes alot of courage, that you can addmit, you really do have
a problem.
That is the first step, a person takes in recovery.
And like it has been said above.....you really need to see your doctor.
There are alot of people, who have been to treatment, and felt it didn't
work, and or help them in anyway at all.
You have to realize, that NOT ALL are the same, and there are alot of
them, that will actually help you, and overcome this problem.
Another thing you should keep in mind, you are NOT alone, there are many
other people in the exact same position as you are.
You should be PROUD of yourself, that you had the courage to come
forward, and take the first step, that you need help.
I don't know you, but I am proud of you, and I wish you all the very best,
to overcome this disease!!
You will be in my thoughts!
<3

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