what jane says is right-

and to that im going to add medication is not the only option and you cannot take a pill or 2 or 3 to make you feel better and control your depression. medication is only part of the way to control and manage your depression counselling and family support is another part to managing it. there is no miracle cure.
talk to you mum if you cant tell her what you originally typed print it out for her. the same applies to your doctor or find a new doctor who you will comfortable with.
take some small steps and the bigger ones will eventually seem easier

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