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Originally Posted by AdamantEsuna
I will start pacing around my room, and I will often have the need for extremely loud music. Which will then have my mom or stepdad start a fight w/ me, which will result in alot of screaming and will strangely actually calm me down. I'm totally frantic when suffering from a mania attack, and I will usually feel the need to destroy something, either cut myself or smash or throw something. I've had to stop myself multiple times from punching a whole in my wall/window.
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But let me explain, my Mom knows I'm depressed. I've told her multiple times that I want medication or some form of help. But she doesn't seem to take me seriously, she just says "oh ya, we will sometime" or "its not that important" and please dont tell me to try to talk with her, because I hate her, and she truly doesn't care about me.
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See now, from my personal perspective this sort of thing DOES fit the category of puberty/teenage-behaviour-problems, etc. And in my opinion, teenagers can control their attitudes much better than they let on, they just choose to act out instead. I mean, that whole bit I quoted specifically sounds like you're out to pick a fight or that you're at least just out for yourself and disrespecting the other people around you. Teenagers do that; they don't adapt to situations and are typically self-absorbed/involved.
This is why it's important to actually get a real diagnosis so you can start looking at the problem realistically; otherwise, there's no way for any of us to come at the situation and no what to recommend. You may have something more serious going on so that you need tools and advice to help you deal with certain situations; however, you may just be going through the throws of adolescence. But your first priority is to figure out whether or not there's something going on that you can't control, because you don't know that.