I would beg for forgiveness from ben and all the other band members not to mention let them kick my ass for the way I abused them
Give Terry the money I screwed him out of
Donate to evboard and apolgize for the POS called evthreads
Spend time with out of the shadows and donate to the epilepsy foundation
Cancel my lawsuits aganist dennis ryder and others
Work on my alcohol and drug use, because it is bad for her
Reunite the original band and make them ALL members

most importanly pray to God to forgive me and repent whole heartedly for what I have done and what I had failed to do

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