my life hasnt stopped moving since my attempt, i constantly find myself crying for no reason other than to cry. blood seems more attractive than ever, especially when falling from my wrist. the small things in life are no more, its all HUGE. my friends are the only ones who try to understand, therapists and adults just look at me like a freak. my parents hate me, and thats definently for sure. after coming out people are just hatin on me and its driving me crazy. a peaceful day seems impossible, a shitty one almost never fails to come. i find myself in random chat lines acting as tho everythings ok, i talk to random strangers as a way to escape because they dont know the real me, hell, i dont know the real me. my favorite music doesnt excite me anymore, and im falling constantly. i need a hand to help pick me up, i need a lover to hug when im down. but my parents cut off my communication, which means no friends, no lovers, not even a hand. im scared to death, and to be quite frank, im dying.
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