AdamntEsuna, even though you like this bloke, and the feelings might be mutual, he has a girlfriend. The fact that she lives far away does not make the fact that you two did the naughty no-no okay, no matter how fast it happened and how confused you were. Hell, his girlfriend could be living in south-east Bumble fuck, but it still wouldn't be okay.

My mother has been cheating on my father for around 5-6 years or so, so believe me when I say that I have seen the devastating damage and hurt cheating can cause to everyone remotely involved in one way or another. Cheating is just a big noisy mess and I advice you to stop seeing (or whatever you choose to call it) this bloke, pronto!

Also, keep in mind you are only 14. From what I've seen, people our age are not emotionally mature enough to handle serious relationships, let alone the consequences of sex, IMHO. Sweetie, believe me when I say that in the future, there will be plenty of nice, single fish in the sea that won't use you. Just be patient.

/semi-long-post.

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