Right. My turn now. *clears throat*

When I was a senior in high school, my boyfriend and I were going through some rough times. He was in college and I had my own life and friends, I had moved to a new school. I ended up landing a lead role in the spring musical, and my costar was this completely ridiculous guy that I felt like strangling half the time. He was way too serious (unless he was in character) and every time I tried to joke with him about our awkward kissing scene, I was met with dead silence and a blank stare. He didn't seem too eager to be friends, so I ended up just ignoring him unless we were on the stage together. However, because I was having such awful trouble with my boyfriend (and you know how high school romances are...I mean, we'd been together for years, and still are together, but at times there are just way too many outside things interefering) I ended up, God knows why, developing a teensy crush on my costar. But the musical ended, and my boyfriend and I worked our issues out, and things went back to normal...or so I thought.

I found out much later that he was...well, crazy about me. And I felt really bad because even though I had thought his angsty moods were adorable and all, I would never ever ever in a million years date him. For one thing, I'd never leave my boyfriend. We're so great together, and every relationship has rough patches. I'm not going to lose a good thing (even if its at a bad time) for a side attraction to a random guy I barely know, and who drives me mad to boot. Secondly, I could never date him anyway because the angsty moods I thought were cute from the outside would drive me INSANE if I ever dated him. And when he sent his little brother to ask me if I liked him while we were on a trip together, and I denied it, he stopped talking to me.

Okay. Flash forward to the present date. This boy has acted like I don't exist for over a year. I wish we could be friends, I think, but I have no idea how to act around him. On top of that, he just never replied to any emails or anything I sent him, and I gave up about four or five months ago. I ended up deleting him from my facebook and myspace because I didn't want to deal with his angsty emo messages and his not-so-subtle hints that "SOMEONE" broke his heart and he was never going to be the same again. WE DIDN'T EVEN DATE. YOU BARELY KNOW ME.

So yeah. There's my rant. He's coming to my college next year, and I hate to admit it, but I'm going to spend half my time outside of my dorm ducking and avoiding him because at this point, I'm too chicken shit to even make eye contact. I have no idea how I feel about this. Part of me wants to be friends, but another part feels like he should just go away for good. Bah.

*sulk*

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