How did you not like it? I know the beginning was a little gross.. but after I got into it, I had to know how it finished. I'm not done reading it yet tho, cuz I kinda lost the book in the lake at my cottage... I'm not sure how it happened, but I can't do anything about it now lol.. and he felt like committing suicide?? that's a little rash..I mean, I know some parts are really disturbing.. but a book will never make me consider killing myself....