Hmmm...Eugenia's is a great one. I can see that.

I kinda see the song as a few different things, something like Eugenia's being one of them. I'll just put two out there, though.

First Concept

The speaker is talking about how she has tried and tried to fit in with everyone else, and how all her efforts are turned against her in mockery. She tried to become one of them (I took their smiles and I made them mine/I sold my soul just to hide the light), burying her true self so deeply that she doesn't know who she is anymore. She has come to the point where she realizes that she doesn't know who she is and that she's lost her sense of self in taking from what others do and say and making it her own (And now I see what I really am/A thief, a whore, and a liar).

Because she's been trying so hard to get with the in crowd, she's ignored her friends for awhile (unintentionally). She turns to her best friend for help, but her best friend either can't or doesn't want to help her. She distances herself from the speaker, probably because she doesn't like what the speaker is trying to become. (I run to you/Call out your name/I see you there/Farther Away)

Her friends had tried to tell her that she was okay as she was, but she didn't listen to them. She is so used to the ruthlesness of those she aspires to be that she almost doesn't care anymore. She feels like something is wrong with her, that she just can't do anything right, and no one will tell her what she should do (I'm numb to you; numb, deaf and blind/You give me all but the reason why). She keeps trying to reach out to her old friends from within her prison of self-hatred and despair, but they just let her struggle on by herself, not offering any help. (I reach, but I feel only air and night/Not you, not love. Just nothing)

She realizes that her best friend, who she left behind, is the one who really matters. She realizes that her friend had always been there for her and tried to help her. She's terrified now, because she sees that her friend is giving up on her, and she's about to lose the only support and lifeline that she had. (Tried to forget you, but without you I feel nothing/Don't leave me here by myself/I can't breathe)

The last two choruses can show how she's falling faster and faster down this neverending spiral of self-destruction, and how she's crying for help but no one seems to answer.


Second Concept

The speaker is getting over a death. The death of her boyfriend/husband, who she loves very, very much.

She tried to get over his death by pretending that she was okay. (I took their smiles and I made them mine/I sold my soul just to hide the light) She hides her grief and anguish, only showing her former, happy self, which now seems like a fake, horrible mask. (And now I see what I really am/A thief, a whore, and a liar)

She wants to run back to her lover's arms, to the warmth and security and love she felt when she was with him. But whenever she wants to do that, she is reminded that he is gone, farther away than any distance across the world (chorus).

When she is by herself, she lets out her anguish, speaking aloud as if he could answer back. Why? she asks, Why did you leave? Why can't you come back? She cries so hard that she reaches that sense of numbness that you get after you've had a good, hysterical cry. (I'm numb to you, numb, deaf, and blind/You give me all but the reason why) She wants to be with him again, for without him, she can't feel anything good anymore (I reach but I feel only air and night/Not you, not love, just nothing)

(chorus again)

She can't get him out of her mind. She can't seem to feel anything positive without him there, and she feels suffocated by the grief and anxiety that she's feeling (Tried to forget you, but without you I feel nothing/Don't leave me here by myself/I can't breathe)

The last two choruses can portray how she falls deeper into the pit of sorrow, grief and despair, and how she still looks to him to help her, even though he can't.

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