hey, keep writing ok...don't give up please...we care what happens to you ok, so don't go knocking yourself off just yet pls...btw, i this line is amazing: `can anyone not wake me i'm dyeing'. although it's seemingly simple, in the sense that it's conversation like, but it's not...it comes across as the way a polite request would come, but when you think about what is being said you realise the depth of what that person is asking, and the sorrow hits you like a tonne of bricks...it's like you'd rather be asleep, among the unconscious, than be alert and living because living = dyeing...great stuff.