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That is sort of part of the reason why I am still so upset by this. I mean, you’d have to know my mom… things aren’t exactly a walk in the park, but I love her and I respect her. I feel tied to him… and she thinks that I can eventually get over this, because she is still going to continue seeing him. I have tried writing her a letter on why I feel the way I do about him, and why I am so upset. And I thought that maybe she would figure it out (which was dumb, because she disregards any feelings I have about that side of the family…) Because I don’t like her boyfriend…. Or his family really…
Anyway, I thought she would get the hint, but she didn’t. And I really don’t feel like a child should tell their mother whom to date. Isn’t that kind of backwards? She has put my ex, and his family’s feelings before mine… even before I finally told her about what happened. She treats them more like her son’s than her own flesh and blood.
I thought I was over this, and I didn’t need to go talk to someone…. And I’d rather not considering I have a hard time talking to people. Its always easier talking, say here.. because you don’t know the person…. So, because our insurance didn’t except the people we could find… or whatever other problem we ran into… we quit looking, because in time, my dad and stepmom think I have done a lot better… So if I told them that I think I need to talk about it… they’d wonder why again. They can’t see why I have been stuck in it for so long…. When her or my stepsister got over there situations pretty fast. Is it because I will always be tied to him…..they aren’t? I took your advice and started to write another letter to her, maybe I could post it later. I wont use names on here….
Thank you for your advice, everyone has been so helpful. Its hard to sit here and think about all of it, knowing that know one believes me, or completely disregards anything I have ever said.
Everyone in here has been sooo helpful. And if I ever get the time again, I will rep every single one of you… I SWEAR IT. Thank you for being here. Somehow it’s so much easier talking to someone I don’t know… but still have common interests to.
-Christy
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