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Feelings for him or not?
How can I tell if it's right and if I'm in love? I've never been in love so I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I know that the guy in my life right now has feelings for me, and I definatly feel something for him but I can't put a name to it. I guess the best I can do is to say that he 'feels like home' so to speak - when I'm with him it feels like I can feel safe and be myself and nothing else matters.
Yet I often find myself getting really frustrated. We haven't been together long and I've been single for ages and I'm used to having my own space and freedom. However, he wants to hang out with me every second that we get a chance. Sometimes I have found myself making excuses so that I can go home and have my own space. I feel bad for not wanting to hang out with him as much as he wants to be with me.
Also, if I do have a genuine reason that I can't hang out with him, he gets upset. The most recent is that we were supposed to go to his place for the day tomorrow after an appointment we both have in the morning. Also, on sunday I have invited him to spend the day with my friends as he really wants to meet them. However, I am going away on tuesday and I have a heap of stuff that I still need to get and sort out so I can't go out both days. I haven't seen my friends for over two months and seeing as he is coming too I thought he wouldn't mind if I bailed on saturday. He is rather upset, however, and although I feel bad it is not my fault. It may sound mean but I would always put my friends first - especially at the beginning of a relationship. Guys come and go but my friends have been there for years and I am not about to lose them for a guy.
I just can't figure out how I feel about him, and what to do about feeling frustrated about not having my own space. I also feel bad about upsetting him. Any ideas?
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