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Tammy · 12-26-2005, 08:35 PM

Hey, I just wanted to add, everyone has some kind of OCD. Every person in the universe has some kind of an obsession for something. But everyone has it in a different level - sure, sometimes it gets to the point when a person has to go through therapy but mainly those obsessions for perfection is a common thing. Not something you need to worry about, washing your hands 20 times a day is not that crazy and neither arranging your books by size order.
I think the big problems begin when you have OCD for something really negative, or when the OCD really interrupts your way of life, like, sleepless nights, or lack of concentration with the important activities like studying or working.
The ultimate solution is to talk about it. You might just realize it's not that bad as you think.
I haven't been diagnosed with OCD because I've never been to a psychologist (but I am willing to do that sometime in the future) or to any therapy, so no one actually oficially said "You have OCD" but I know I have it. Too bad I only recently realized it. I know it cause I've been obsessed with things all my life.
Between the ages 13-17, I was kind of miserable cause I was obsessed with this scary movie I saw one night, after I saw it, I just stopped sleeping like a normal human being. for 4 years, I couldn't watch any horror movie, I couldn't sleep, no matter what, I was afraid of being alone with myself or with anyone I cared about cause I was afraid I might hurt them or myself, I won't continue describing it any more than this, cause it might sound too bizarre. It was 4 years of misery. BUT I'm glad to say that I'm over it, I don't know exactly how, but concentrating things you like to do, trying to distract yourself from thinking about this issue, it took me 4 years, but I did it. Maybe if I would have talked about it with someone, I would have gotten rid of it a long time ago. I just couldn't tell anyone about it. It was my big bizarre secret, I actually thought I'll carry it myself for the rest of my life, cause I thought I was some kind of a maniac, but now when I realized it was a big obsessive cumpolsive disorder, I feel more sane, I think.
Now I have all kinds of OCD symptoms, but it seems so natural to me, having some obsessions for certain things, I won't even list them, cause I know every 2nd person has them.
I used to wash my hands every 5 minutes when I was a little younger, and when people told me it's a kind of OCD I would say "Are you serious? It seems I only worry about my health and cleanliness", it looked too obviously normal to me, I dunno... And I also cant go to pablic restrooms, I read this article which said that you can get infected with HIV if an HIV carrier peed there or something, never mind, I just don't go to pablic restrooms, no matter what.

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Tammy Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: Where the shadows take me... Age: 21 Posts: 76 Points: 362.00 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 362.00 Donate	Hey, I just wanted to add, everyone has some kind of OCD. Every person in the universe has some kind of an obsession for something. But everyone has it in a different level - sure, sometimes it gets to the point when a person has to go through therapy but mainly those obsessions for perfection is a common thing. Not something you need to worry about, washing your hands 20 times a day is not that crazy and neither arranging your books by size order. I think the big problems begin when you have OCD for something really negative, or when the OCD really interrupts your way of life, like, sleepless nights, or lack of concentration with the important activities like studying or working. The ultimate solution is to talk about it. You might just realize it's not that bad as you think. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD because I've never been to a psychologist (but I am willing to do that sometime in the future) or to any therapy, so no one actually oficially said "You have OCD" but I know I have it. Too bad I only recently realized it. I know it cause I've been obsessed with things all my life. Between the ages 13-17, I was kind of miserable cause I was obsessed with this scary movie I saw one night, after I saw it, I just stopped sleeping like a normal human being. for 4 years, I couldn't watch any horror movie, I couldn't sleep, no matter what, I was afraid of being alone with myself or with anyone I cared about cause I was afraid I might hurt them or myself, I won't continue describing it any more than this, cause it might sound too bizarre. It was 4 years of misery. BUT I'm glad to say that I'm over it, I don't know exactly how, but concentrating things you like to do, trying to distract yourself from thinking about this issue, it took me 4 years, but I did it. Maybe if I would have talked about it with someone, I would have gotten rid of it a long time ago. I just couldn't tell anyone about it. It was my big bizarre secret, I actually thought I'll carry it myself for the rest of my life, cause I thought I was some kind of a maniac, but now when I realized it was a big obsessive cumpolsive disorder, I feel more sane, I think. Now I have all kinds of OCD symptoms, but it seems so natural to me, having some obsessions for certain things, I won't even list them, cause I know every 2nd person has them. I used to wash my hands every 5 minutes when I was a little younger, and when people told me it's a kind of OCD I would say "Are you serious? It seems I only worry about my health and cleanliness", it looked too obviously normal to me, I dunno... And I also cant go to pablic restrooms, I read this article which said that you can get infected with HIV if an HIV carrier peed there or something, never mind, I just don't go to pablic restrooms, no matter what. __________________