'I know its not a poem, its like a letter to someone who I loved so much and I wish you could help me with your thoughts, thank you'

I’m begging you to stay, can’t you see? Every night I wait for you, knowing how far you are from here.
I don’t even know how to tell you, since you’re gone, a huge wound has been left in my heart, where are you? , I feel so hollow inside...
Truly, I believed in myself, I thought that I was strong, not even you could make me fall, but I’ve been upset because you are gone, this feeling, its depressing cause when more I need you, you are missing, you don’t even know the truth, you choose another life, while I’m here and I cant get you out of my mind.

My regret to you its because you don’t even try, every word that you told me were just fantasies of something that it will never happen, I knew it from the beginning, I dropped away my pride just to ask you to stay with me, and you hear my voice crying but not even that could make you change, the truth is in all this time, its what I had right in front of my eyes and I never wanted to see, you loved her, you tried to show me, your words were so clear, and I refuse to believe the truth.

I must let you go, I must worry about me and make the suffering go away, I must care for you from this place, I must love you in silence, not even you can took my love away, I love you, I’m sorry I failed you, you changed my life in so many ways, I will be thankful for it everyday of my life.

I don’t know where are you, I don’t even know if you are alive, I don’t know anything about you, two weeks for me has been so long, I have hope maybe someday you can come into my life again, and let me love you like I have never showed you before, please let me hug you like I’ve never done before, let me kiss you with the passion of our love, and the warmth of your lips.

I want you to know how happy you made me, the good times we had, I’ll never erase the memories, you have never made me suffer, you’ve always take care of me, you have always heard me, even when it hurts, you gave me a smile.

I have always been confused, and I am still, but you know, its time to change my life and try to find my place, because I believe someday this pain will fade, but I want to suffer enough so I’ll let you go, and I should rebuild my life.
I just want to say finally, I wish I could describe to you, the way I have missed you, how it gets stronger every day, and the strange loneliness I’ve felt every night, I want you to know that I can live without you, I wouldn’t die without you, I’ve been in love with you since the first time I saw the truth in you eyes, I felt a new but beautiful emotion, and the most intense and deepest feeling passed through me, and that’s why I need you, because I can’t find that emotion in any one else but you.

I know you are not conscient to my absence, until now, but I hope someday, you could wake up and feel so empty, like something was missing in you, and then you’ll remember me.

Its not about what I want, its what it was meant to be, even if I miss you so much, it doesn’t matter how bad I feel, you made a smart decision, but I want you to remember that the only thing that I wanted was to be with you, make my life with you, but in the end we don’t even try, it was so beautiful, but the moment happened so fast.
Anyway I know I can’t forget you, and I’m not trying to, because the memories I have will help me to keep your picture in my heart forever.

It’s a shame the way people change, the moments are just forgotten and the time goes on, I can’t deny it I love you but you are not mine, and you were never mine, you were just in my life to make my soul delicate and fragile, when my life seemed lost forever, you showed me your love beyond the crumbled hopes.

Find your self, keep our secret, and when the darkness take control of you, remember there’s always a light, even if is to small to see, there it is, take it its yours, I know you’re going to make it! ! ! ! !