GirlWithAMic: Thank you! Both of these pieces are a lot more personal than I usually care to write, basically because they both pertain to a subject that's really close to me. I was in a car accident eleven months ago today, so I've been doing a lot of writing lately. Even though it's just a date, it always has a lot of meaning for me, when it goes by.
The first poem I wrote a few days ago, when I was grappling with the decision whether or not to have a second plastic surgery done on my face. When i was in the accident, my face went through the passenger window, and I had surgery in January of this year to remove the glass chips and sew up the scars. My face has improved dramatically since then, to the point where most of my friends are telling me that I shouldn't bother going through the trauma of a second operation. My parents, on the other hand, are telling me that it's now or never, so I have to make the decision by my birthday in September. But I think my mind is pretty much made up.
The second poem I wrote today, basically thinking about the accident. I really do have nobody to blame, because the person responsible for the crash was my own mother. And I know she feels guilty enough without me blaming her for it. Maybe if I had someone to feel angry with, I could vent a lot of feeling in anger. But there isn't anyone, and so I have a lot of untapped emotion to grapple with.
Thanks for the comments, though. It feels good just to get it all out.
