I don't know if this will sound strange or obsessive but hey here goes . . .
I was going out with my boyfriend for 18 months before we split up. It was just after halloween when he started to act like he didn't want to be around me when he was with his friends and my friends, although he was fine with me when we were alone.
I tried to talk to him about it but and he kept saying that i was over reacting and being silly.
We broke up about a month ago and he started going out with my best friend about a week after we broke up. I feel so worthless, it was like he didn't even feel anything when we broke up and hes not ashamed of my best friend i just want to know why he was ashamed of me.
I've also started to self harm, which i'm not proud of, and i count things like calories and steps n stuff, in a realy obsessive way.
I think i'm going mad. My head feels like its permanently being compressed and i don't know how i should feel.
If anyone has any ideas or anything really would be very grateful.

Well...

I assume you are young, right? Okay, so people break up all the time, and this is what has happened to you.
Your boyfriend and you broke up, and he has moved on. It would be hard seeing him with your best friend, but you know, shit happens, I guess. You just have to move on and forget about it.
Just because he started going out with your friend doesn't mean he is ashamed of you.

Self harm is not the way to go, and is pretty petty to do such a thing about something like a break up. Calarie counting is also not the way to go as you can't think that this guy dmped you because he didn't like the way you look. That's not the case, he broke up because he just didn't want to be with you.

Like I said, shit happens, people break up everyday and it's not something you should sit around and dwell on, and start cutting and dieting because that's just immature.
Just move on and get over it. There are plenty more fish in the sea.

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Wow, this is very typical for a guy to do.
No offence to anyone, but my friend just went through the same thing,
with her bf.
First off, 18 months is quite a while, and for him to just go out with someone
else, right after your break up, then he was never worth it in the first place.
Try to do as much as possible, to destract your self form thinking
about things.
Treat your self to things, and just do what you really love to do most.
IMO, I would Never goo out with my best friends ex.
But thats just me, everyone else has their own standards, but when it comes
to someone liking me, and that has gone out with a best friend of mine, thats
just where I draw the line, just cause of having that much respect for my
bf.
You need to think, that YOU are so much better then that.
I know how hard it is at first, and how heart broken you must be right now,
but try to think about, things will get better.
Always remember, your Not Alone, there are so many other people out there,
who is, or have gone through the exact same situation.
If you have someone you can talk to, that is really close to to, maybe
someone older, that maybe a good idea, just to talk about things, and let
out everything you feel.
Or even draw, or write out everything you are really feeling inside at the
moment.
That has always helped me, when I have gone through some hard times.

I really hope things work out, and I truly wish you all the very best!
Always remember, you are very special, and are a great person!
Keep your head held high.
You are in my thoughts!
<3

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He obviously wasn't as invested in the relationship as you were. 18 months is a good period of time, but there are also people that just stay in relationships until they find something better because it's comfortable.

Either way, to help you get over things, you should definitely spend time with your family and friends, surround yourself with people that care about you and support you. It'll help take your mind out of the gutter, and you'll feel better.

If that's still not enough to help, see if there's a counselor at school you can talk to. Just so you have someone that's able to listen to you and help you cope with your feelings in a healthy way. Sometimes the best ways of getting over a break-up is just to talk it over with someone; it usually helps to bring closure to the situation.

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I'm not quite sure how to say this without sounding like a snot, so I apologize if I come across as snide, but I really think it was rude of you to say that cutting and dieting are "immature". There is no right or wrong reason to start hurting yourself. You can't tell me you'd go up to someone who was cutting themselves because they are depressed over a death in their family and say, "That is a good reason to cut."

I'm really sorry, because this is a sensitive subject for me. I used to cut, for years, and I never told anyone about it until I got counseling. She is depressed and asking for our help, her self-esteem is already shot to pieces, and she doesn't need someone telling her that her problems and her depression are petty. Try to be a little less harsh next time you're writing a response, whether or not you agree or disagree with what she is saying, because people's feelings can get hurt very easily.

That being said, I agree with Jane. Doing things that will not remind you of him, or her, will help bring your mind off the matter. Maybe pick up a new hobby or read a good book? I'd reccommend the "Blue is for Nightmares" series, its a very engaging read. If you still feel like hurting yourself, or worried about your diet, after awhile I'd look into seeing a counselor. I had one when I was depressed and she helped me alot. Sometimes, just talking about it and getting it out will make you feel so much better.

Remember that you are beautiful, and as Princess Mary said, there are many fish in the sea. It might take awhile, but I promise that you will feel better in time. Best of luck, sweetie.

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In my opinion, you just need time to get over him and realize that he's not worth it. It is really insensitive of him to just break up with you like that without any explanation. Just give it time and you'll be able to get over him.

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Break ups happen all the time. Its going to be ok. really. and i don't know if you believe in God....but if you do, then maybe that guy wasn't meant for you. Maybe God has someone for you in your future and thats why yall didn't work out. If you hang out with friends and family, it will take your mind off of it.

For the cutting.....its not a good thing to get into. Ive been batteling it for 3 years and im ashamed of it and i wish i never started it. Im in counseling for it and its not helping. It becomse addicting and its habit forming, Thats not something you need. You're better than that. You can get through it without cutting. I know you can .

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