WTF is the point of a blog

No one uses this shit so Raskull will! Opinions are free and always avaliable.

Weather is crazy lately. In the last 10 years we have failed to recieve even an inch of snow. This winter we're almost already at two feet! And that's just central VA. DC and other cities up north have been taking a steady beating. Most were not remotly ready for anything like this. No one could imagin after so many dry years a blizzard would fall on us. Wtf is going on? I swear it's global warming...

Cheers!

Another cold december day on my own. Sounds pitiful but I'm enjoying the mysterious side of life. Living day by day, waiting for what will happen next, I depend on no one, I need no one, and I wait for no one. That's just the way I like it. Anyone is free to criticize. Because the only thing that matters anymore is what I think. And I think I don't give a fuck what anyone says.

>PeaceXLove<

Bored

Yeah, so today I just sat at home and be'd fat.
Not really. But all I've done today is eat, and sit and be on the internet.
I'm soooo bored! And when I'm bored, I eat which is a very bad habit. But I don't put on weight or anything.
Cuz I have that fast metabolism. but it will slow down one day and I'll be a fat blob wishing I didnt live on McDonalds.

Anyway...
Yeah. thats it >.

To The Mornings And The Days To Come...

I am fragile. I am scared. I am hurt. I feel nothing. But I cry because I do not belong. In a world filled with lies, how can one love? In a city that ignores you, how can one rise to the top? Put down your newspaper and do something to start something. Waiting around will never be any good for you. But when you can't do the things you love, you're pretty much fucked. That's where she is right now. Drowning in a pool outside her front window. Hidden by the snow that now never falls. Burning from the sun cause everything is just too much these days. Fall, and in the ground you will stay. Goodni

Here's To My First On EvBoard! Cheers!

Okay, well... I really want to try blogging on here. So... here it goes. My blogs are anything from emotions I feel to stories I may write. I don't usually say. I just let you figure it out. But tonight, I'll let you know that this is how I'm feeling. But tonight's the only night I'll let you in. ;)

This road was another dead end. I'm close to falling off the edge. I want to let go and destroy this organ that love can never amend. Broken promises and betrayal ever since ones demise. Can't stop my mind from racing. All these thoughts are leading up to something I feel this is what it comes down to.

Oh okay, I just figured this out!

Okay, so now I have finally figured this thing out. What is a blog anyways? LIke what am i blogging? Is it like a live journal? CUz I kinda use my thread thing as a live journal. BUt this is cool too. Except I dont think lots of people actually go here, and I like responses to my other thinger. But ya...

Sooooo today, I accomplished nothing, sat on my ass, slept in till 430 pm. And laid in bed sick for the majority of today, it is now 10:58 pm. And my rooommate is going to come home and complain to me about her boyfriend, and oh my fuck. I just hiccoughed and it hurt sooo much, like my ulcer, it hurt like a bitch, it was all like OI NO HICCOUGHING! OR I WILL RETALIATE! I am just ranting I suppose, once I get going, THE FUN DONT STOP.

Best friend

I don't even know how to start this off. I guess, by speaking the truth? But I don't want to hurt you.
I give up. I'm done with you. I can't take all of this, WAITING. We've been best friends for so long, and that's because you never had the guts to say anything. 10 years, and that one's on you. I DID love you, but I can't say that I do now. You always being gone, you showing up randomly and then disappearing, I HATE IT. F@&K IT. I don't NEED it. Up until last week I STILL thought I loved you. It was those few awkward moments that sealed the deal for me. If you love me, show me! Tell me. Don't make me guess for myself. You've said to me that you love me; but that was once. Keep telling me! I need to hear it from you. We get along SO WELL about everything, but I JUST don't have those feelings anymore because you keep playing games. I knew this would happen. I knew, we'd start dating and that eventually I'd fall out of love with you. I'm sorry I made you move here; for me. I'm sorry you thought it was forever and I knew it would never happen. Now I know what it feels like to be the 'asshole' in the relationship. The one who closes out and shuts off. I'm not in love with who you are now, but the person you were back then. You've changed so much, I can't even believe it. But I know I'm not a diamond either. I don't want to be the one to f$#k you over. I don't want to be the one who isn't right for you. My WHOLE LIFE I've wanted nothing more than to be with you again and now that I am, I don't want it. How selfish is that? I can't love you if you're going to be like this. I won't allow myself to love you if you're going to be stupid and childish. I've been alive long enough and have dated long enough to know what I want and that's NOT it. Grow up, just a little. I'm sorry I lead you on, but I was lying to myself too. Eventually I'll figure this all out. Eventually I'll have the guts to tell you everything. But until then I'll just go back to living a lie.

Death and the Evanescence community.

In the last blog, I mentioned how I've been a part of the community for six and a half years. We've been very lucky as a community not to have suffered more losses. That being said, it's always a shame when someone who's a part of this community loses their life.

This week, the community lost someone.

One thing that I've always loved about being in this community (meaning Evboard, Evthreads and other related boards) is that when bad stuff has happened, we come together.

Even in the smallest ways such as in the Weekly Whine threads when bad stuff happens to each member, there's always someone to pick them up.

Slowly Going Insane

I am going ever so slowly insane. My psyche is splitting as we speak. My brain is mush. Mush, I tell you!

Celebrating 6 1/2 years of fandom...

Six years ago this past Wednesday marked the first time I'd ever seen Evanescence in concert. Of course, six years and six months ago, I'd purchased their first album. I can't believe how long it's been.

It's crazy and funny how much things have changed in six years as far as Evanescence is concerned and as far as my own personal life is concerned.

I know there are times when I complain about the drama that exists within the Evanescence community but at that very same time, it's the music that has still brought us all together. I also think about what my life would be if I didn't have the Evanescence community to come back to. And that would be pretty boring.