I wish I could be as good as people want me to be. They expect so fucking much from me and because of that, last year I had 3 breakdowns at different times (Obviously).
1. Test pressures. Teachers expected me to do as perfect as I was halfway through last year. I didn't. They got 'dissapointed'. I told them to take the test and do better. Then I ripped up the results sheet and slammed a door, catching someones finger.
2. Science meltdown. During science I had an uncontrollable burst of anger, hate, sadness, depression and hyperactivity at once. Had to be removed from the rest of my classes for a day or two.
3. Broke a door in the sports centre because my team was losing again and everyone was taunting me about it. One of the times my favorite teacher was nicest to me :)
I do NOT want all this to happen again. Teachers surely know I deteriorate rapidly by the end of the year by now right? They act so shocked when shit happens...
