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Sat, 07 Jan 2012 07:02:08 +0100

Hello, my name is Dante Alighieri Stone DuVall, and I'm sixteen years old.
I love cats, lighters, Gatorade, bearded guys, and Kaya Scodelario (amongst many other things).
I hate bullies, misogynists, gnats, bad grammar, and dogs that bark really loudly.
I take 300 mg of Wellbutrin every morning, and soon, I will also be taking 25 mg of Seroquel every night.
The first person I came out to was a girl who wanted to have sex with me.
I currently have two journals, a personal blog, and a diary app on my phone. I lie a little on all of them.
The music I listen to tends to sound either really depressing, really angry, really sinister, or really relaxing.

It's only going to make it worse.

Fri, 16 Dec 2011 08:28:06 +0100

He has had the same problems as me, he has a lot in common with me, he is nicer to me than just about everyone around me. Since we've had the same struggles, we can sympathize with each other. The problem is that he's too nice. I'm going to get attached, I just know it, I probably already am. I know that he cares now, and that's not a good thing. If he cares, then I'm going to care. I don't want to open up to anyone anymore, it's going to end up fucking me over.

But, it's too late. I'm attached now, and it's only going to lead to me getting fucked over. Why bother? Why bother caring about people? It will always lead to getting hurt, no exceptions.

That is fucking it.

Sun, 25 Sep 2011 23:46:02 +0200

Don't read this unless you actually give a shit about how I feel. Otherwise, just go the hell away.

Is the forum dead or is it just me?

Fri, 01 Jul 2011 00:33:05 +0200

I don't know, I just feel like this forum isn't alive. The members are too slow to respond :(

SOMEBODY POST SOMETHING

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 17:23:09 +0100

It's too dead at 12:23am, lol

You Should See My Scars

Thu, 13 Jan 2011 17:42:52 +0100

I wish I could be as good as people want me to be. They expect so fucking much from me and because of that, last year I had 3 breakdowns at different times (Obviously).

1. Test pressures. Teachers expected me to do as perfect as I was halfway through last year. I didn't. They got 'dissapointed'. I told them to take the test and do better. Then I ripped up the results sheet and slammed a door, catching someones finger.

2. Science meltdown. During science I had an uncontrollable burst of anger, hate, sadness, depression and hyperactivity at once. Had to be removed from the rest of my classes for a day or two.

Summer 2011!!!! :D

Sat, 08 Jan 2011 00:06:40 +0100

So yeah,I'm in vacation for 2 weeks at Punta del Este and having a fantastic time so far!! I've been here since 31 december, and its awesome! I've been going to surf lessons everyday,I love surfinG! Best sport in the whole world... and we also went to this really cool sea museum where I bought a SOUVENIR heeehee XD And we went to the water park, its small, but it has some cool slides! We went to a cool Euro Bungy and a mechanic bull with my cousin and Sofi we had a ton of fun! We also went to this cool beach with HUGE dunes and I did a lot of sandboarding in them but sometimes I felland it hurt a lot because the sand was full of wood or something but it was okay cause i love sandboarding. we also did morey and it was pretty fun!! theres a pool in the apartment im staying in so we go there and we have fun too! Today we went to this HUGE slide it was awesome and then to a thing you span around and it got me and my cousin all dizzy and i lay down in the back of the car but my cousin couldnt (she was on one of the front seeats) and she vomited...poor she!! :D now she feels better, shes watching TV :) and were ordering food right now so YAY!!!!

Would this be considered my second blog entry?

Sat, 11 Dec 2010 19:10:41 +0100

Can you comment on blog entries?

Has anyone seen my other one? I just read it, man I was ON something that day. LOL I dont even remember writing it.

Anyway, I dont know what I am writing about. I really dont, all I can think of is I'm hungry, and I havent gotten a call yet from my step mom. Which is weird cuz she wanted to meet up at 11 am, and its now 11:07 am. WELL IM NOT MOVING! Ha. I dont feel like going anywhere.

In my last blog entry, I was mentioning how it felt like christmas, how I was just lying on my ass, doing my own thing, staying at home and drinking hot chocolate. Its so true, I do that every year around christmas. Once snow hits the ground, I dont like leaving. I like staying home doing nothing. Its a Canadian thing I think. People tend to stay home much more in the winter and 'hibernate'. We hardly go outside.

Banned from Evthreads...

Sat, 27 Nov 2010 00:51:57 +0100

I am going to be unbanned tonight, but I'm not going back. And this time, I mean it.

Besides, there are better forums on Evanescence. Like this one ;)

Make me rich!

Sat, 13 Nov 2010 10:32:01 +0100

Just kidding, wealth begins with happiness but then it usually just spirals down.

You may not believe that but I do.

Speaking of things in which no one believes except me, I'm thinking about God and I seem to have... a bond or something with places to do with him or stuff to do with him. It makes me feel safer and gives me a feeling of peace...

I should probably make a post where someone can actually reply instead of just view.

What's up....?

Wed, 20 Oct 2010 18:00:03 +0200

Howdy do,all. Its been a while since i've done anything here...I did'nt even know you could blog here!! I guess you DO learn something new everyday!. ANYWAY...Im thinking of leaving 1 of my jobs right now. I know I could have picked a better time what with christmas just around the fucking corner AGAIN but sometimes you just have to do what is best for yourself and your state of mind then worry about stupid things like money and shit. Its just come to the point now where I dont want to go in anymore and deal with the shit that comes with it all,plus im getting extra pressure from "the powers that be" of the company because i've been....dare I say it!!!...doing a really fucking bad-arse job of keeping the whole site and building from crumbling all the way to hell!!! (im a maintenance guy/caretaker kind of thing...y'know).

Dying Again...

Sat, 09 Oct 2010 09:00:19 +0200

Don't you ever notice that there's something wrong with me?!
Just because I lied doesn't mean you should BELIEVE the lie.
But, hey, sometimes the lie becomes the truth.
Well, not THIS time.
I know you're using me.
But, you'll see that one day, you'll need me.
And I would like to see you suffer as much as I suffered.
Yeah, baby, it comes round.
Don't worry, you'll have your time.
And no, you don't know my 'Evil Little Brain' because if you did you'd know all the Top Secret stuff I never told you :3
Oh, YEAH!
I'm Evilz n_n
So...
Have a good day.
Bye.

P.S: And if you don't believe me then....:

O.o ... XD

Sat, 02 Oct 2010 02:56:19 +0200

Lots of blogging I see. Thats good. That makes me happy :).

I just wanted to say you guys are awesome. People come and go in my life like anyone's. But I can always come back here and find people I understand, can relate to, and honestly truely like. (That last one gets harder and harder.)

Life will get in my way. Its quite determined to. But so long as you stick around Evboard, I'll be around.

Teenage Relationships SUCK! (Bitching and ranting part two)

Sun, 26 Sep 2010 05:14:20 +0200

Okay, so I've finally realized that "love" should be left to grownups. Us little ones just don't have the patience/maturity/sanity to try to search for a 'significant other', nonetheless finding them and staying with them for more than a few weeks (months if we're really meant to be with that person). On that note, how in the hell can we fit in the TIME to talk/hang out with that person while we're busy texting, doing homework, arguing with our parents, and trying to get rid of those gnarly zits on our foreheads? Yes, unfortunately, it is THAT difficult.

I have been in three SERIOUS relationships the past two years, and each of them ended because we either didn't have the time to talk to each other a lot, or because we realized it was a teenage relationship instead of an actual connection. Now, on the other hand, I was in a great relationship several years ago that went on for three years, and we had to break up because she moved to another state. Even though that was a REALLY good relationship, and we did indeed care for each other, does that mean she was THE ONE?

I hate school, those bitches and my bed ladder...meh

Sat, 11 Sep 2010 23:54:58 +0200

School >:( Would never be so bad if it wasn't for childish bitches, but nevermind...I'll just listen to my iPod in lessons again to help me forget about the loneliness when Georgia isn't in..
Anyway, why I am I blogging this? Idk. My blog was empty before

My bed ladder. Oh that metal piece of shit..now I have a huge bruise on my forehead visible from 3 miles away, brusing by my eye that makes it look like really bad dark circles, and can't make any expression that uses my forehead without getting a sharp pain.....
My dad, stepmum and grandparents went to Majorca and left me behind. For the second time. I told them to go to Barcelona and get me a picture of the My Immortal fountain but they said it was too far away..damn them..