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Starting a thread on this forum to post ideas or songs that I write or stories. Maybe I'll just throw in a line that I have come up with. And maybe, if I'm really ambitious, I'll even add in some art that I have been working on.


Here's something that just came to mind. Maybe I'll use this in a song or something...

Things have me fucked up and confused. Holding head high and rising above the traps of yesterday's past. This I do for you. I've got nothing left. Keeping all that I strive but I'm losing my drive. We'll lie awake tonight and think back to the future back to you holding her. Back to when I could feel safe again. I'm back into your eyes again. Lost in the depths of your perception. And can't you see what you're doing to me? Made my paper heart weak and it can't bleed. I don't think I can bleed.

p.s.
Thank you so much, Melanie for all your help! You've been more than incredible. Thank you!

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Just bought All Time Low's new CD 'Nothing Personal'. I got inspired! Haha!


Yes, it's true...
I'm around. I'm more of a mess than what you've found. Do you think I could hold your hand? Do you think that this is enough to withstand? But baby, you mean more to me than what they're able to see. And I'm willing to let love dangle on a string. We could live it up. We could play it out without a fuckin doubt. Let all our senses fail. But never give it up. Just fuck it... HERE'S TO US.

It's a start, but... that's usually all that I get. =/

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I wrote part of just a random story that came to mind yesterday. It has nothing to do with anything. I just felt like writing. I appreciate any/all comments, critiques, and criticism. Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it. =)

All senses seemed to have failed and I tripped over words and feet as I fumbled to find the light-switch in the dark of lonely again. Another stagger over shadowed objects in the night. Fuck… think I broke something. I kept this up stuttering over every letter that I tried to speak. This was definitely a night that I will never forget… also one that might not quite be remembered. A slip and a slight stumble to the left sent my had sliding downwards, along with the rest of me. However my head didn’t quite follow. Mindset was in a completely different spiral of things, like a staircase that goes on forever. Which way is up again? Suddenly, piercing rays gleamed as I squinted instantly and shielded my eyes. Dazed and a little bit more than bewildered, I shakily got myself up off what seemed to be a cold, wooden floor. Where am I? What the hell is this place? Would have been the first of only a few questions I would have asked myself, had I have been in the right state of mind. But there was a slight problem with that… I wasn’t. Even if I were, I don’t think I’d have much of a problem with not remembering. Perhaps it was for the very best that I hadn’t even a glimpse of the on-goings of a very eventful evening of the night before. Once the room had finally come into vision, there were swirls of color surrounding me. Bright blues, orange, greys, hot pinks, lighter shades of purple, even more shades of so many different colors that I have never known even existed. Visions faded fast and shadows took their places. The room finally came into sight. But this wasn’t intoxication… this was pure bliss.

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I guess I returned just at the right moment, huh? Seemingly enough, Evanescence is reviving itself and I'm returning back onto the scene as well! Haha! I'm sorry I had been gone for SOOOO long. I just moved to Las Vegas two months ago. Everything has been quite hectic and my mind has just been a little more than a whirlwind. I was born and raised in New Jersey and left EVERYTHING that I once knew to live with my best friend. No doubt that was the scariest moment of my life, but something that needed to be done. I'm nearly alive now (since I had NO friends in Jersey). I've written a couple of more songs since the last time I had signed on here that I'll post in different posts in a few.

But for now... I think since I found that Amy and Terry are working on new stuff, I think I have more of a reason/purpose. Evanescence always has and always will be my main band. Though My Chemical Romance helped me out a lot as well, it was Evanescence that got me into the rock scene at all. I owe it to them for saving me and giving me a new life, if life at all. It is such an overwhelming joy that I have now that they're coming back. If only I could explain it in words. And I can't! Lol.

They're my number one band. I hope one day I can meet Amy and explain to her how much she had impacted my life so severely that without Evanescence, I don't think I would be alive. They are the blood that courses through my veins. They are what built me for the human being I am today. They took me in when I needed someone the most and someone that had morals. Someone who felt the same way I did-- didn't want to hear that "everything is going to be okay" and that it's okay to feel that everything won't be. I needed them and they have helped so so much.

Anyway... enough mushy stuff! I'm going to post anything new that I may have. Though there isn't much, I'll try to push away any writer's block that may be in the way. I have, however, been working on a fan fic that I'm writing. It has nothing to do with Evanescence, though... but... if and when I finish, I'm going to put the site up to wherever I may post it. So look out for that. So now I leave you with this post and a new post of whatever songs I have written since the last post.

Much love to all Evanescence fans! You guys rule. And a note to Evanescence--
I love you dearly and I'm more than just excited to see you again! You're the bestest EVER! All my love is sent to you! Can't wait to hopefully see you again! (Come to Las Vegas!)

Okay! On the rillz here... peace!

xoxo
--Chrissy <3

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(I don't think this will ever be used. But I guess I wanted to have something to write.)

Now let the sun shine in
Don't be afraid to smile
To let the light flood the room
Look at the cob-webbed memories

We've forgotten what it's like
But now, we're longing for more
It gets harder each day
As time passes by us by

Isn't it horrible how we are the way we are
Isn't it funny how we can taste out old adventures
Isn't it sad that we're damned
But it's so great to know that we're just like them

You paint such a pretty picture
But you leave the eyes a little warped and fractured
It needs a little work
Just plaster a smile to her face
And this is how she lives everyday

(And another one...)

I was raised where "love" was a meaningless word. It meant broken promises and lies. He let her thorns wrap around his hear and stop anything beautiful from beating. Now it's a place where butterflies and rainbows die. The insecurity of her heart let the storm conquer all and now everyday is a constant struggle to feel even remotely alive.

(personally, this is the most honest thing I've ever written)

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I was raised where "love" was a meaningless word. It meant broken promises and lies. He let her thorns wrap around his hear and stop anything beautiful from beating. Now it's a place where butterflies and rainbows die. The insecurity of her heart let the storm conquer all and now everyday is a constant struggle to feel even remotely alive.

(personally, this is the most honest thing I've ever written)

She tattooed "LOVE" on her fingers so it'll never fade away

(I like that one... I want to use it, but I don't know what I can use it for...)

Sitting alone by candlelight
Can't get this song out of my head
Cuz you're all I think about
But love wasn't enough
To keep around... was it, babe?

Wax plays the game
Tears intertwined
They trickle down without a sound
But plays such a sad song

Don't you deny
That love wasn't enough
To keep you around
Was it... babe?

It thunders and pours
And we both watch it storm
There's no turning back
But I just can't seem...

To get this song out of my head
Cuz you're all I think about
But my love wasn't enough
To keep you around...
Was it, babe?

(Something I've written kind of by experience. Though there was no one to call "babe" I thought by adding that in it would give the 1st person character a little more personality)

Give me a pen
It can be any color
I'll write down every thought
Anything... it really doesn't matter

The tears you cry
Are just like blood pouring from the sky
Cuz the words just bleed
Down this empty page
But it doesn't matter anyway

(I was thinking of using this with the part written underneath

I ripped out every page
Of every diary ever owned
I took out the memories
And placed them where they belong

Cause they're all tragedies
Written and never told
All upon my fantasy
Thoughts that will never unfold

(Maybe even add this part in, but not really sure. I think I might want to use this for something else

Turn off the lights
And close the door
But don't leave me alone

(Before I came to live with my friend, we were best friends when she lived in Jersey. She moved last year and I realized that I couldn't live without her. She's my only friend and my mom... I couldn't stand her and there was no reason for me to leave my house because I didn't have friends or a job (that was very rare to come by). So, I wrote the part under this for her, mostly

From pine-needles to palm trees
You left this place
But buried your hear
At the bottom of the ocean
Now you're a treasure lost
And never found

(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx)

There's something wrong with all of us
Th hidden lies that I won't compromise
In your gorgeous, flickering eyes
Baby, you're beautiful tonight

(only a clip that has yet to be finished.)

Destroyer of your dreams and the beginning of your nightmare

(could be for a shirt or something. lol)

Turn off the light
And shut my door
I'll be dangerous
Just for the night

Harming myself
With my own words
It's tough to say
That I loved you anyway

Written scripts of broken hearts
And dissipated dreams

(Yup... that's all I got so far...)

"Journal"

The shadows of my nightmare
Creeping up on me
The past devouring All that I'be gained

Alone again with these thoughts
Designed perfectly
In a wrist I used
As a notebook

Memories never forgotten
I set them all
In stone with
The sharpest tool
That I can find

(That one actually has a name! That's a start! Haha! Around now is the time I need a chorus. Those are the worst. I'm terrible when it comes to those!)

"A Simple Sorry Won't Cut It"

Can you see me now
Am I now who I was
Love, lust, and terrified eyes
Guilt perceived these lies

Broken hearts
Making us fall apart
And you sing the songs
Of love prolonged

Look at who we are
Look at what we've become
I'd take it all back
If only I could
If only I can

These days have never been so cold
Hearts frozen in time and place
You'll always be the one
I could never ask for better

I'd take this all back
If only I could
I'd take this all back
If only I can
I would take this back

(This one has a name, is done, and I want to throw it out. But something tells me to hang on to it... I'm a pack rat. =/)

"Broken Wings And Miserable Things"

Put me on an operating table
Cut me up
I don't think
It would be enough

If I could
Make you laugh
If I could
Make you smile

Insides sewed tightly together
Can a silenced drum
Beat like it once had

Cuz this flight
Has our air cut out to
A lesser degree

And it's killing me
With every word
That we spoke
With any ounce
Of energy we had

We cried ourselves to sleep
Let the end begin
With hearts not capable to beat
And the truth your eyes
Gave to me tonight

You lost your trust
I lost my guts
To try to call again
For the night to come again

(This is not from my perspective. I like to write from someone else's perspective to see maybe what things are like for them)

I never wanted to fall in love
Cuz it never sounded like any fun
Too many tories of broken heart
And I've got enough of those

Just give me a rose
To pick off all the petals
And get it right down to its heart
Just so you can tip it all apart
That's what it sounds like

Or give me a loaded gun
Believe me, I'll show you
All the wrong ways
To use it

(That one is from my perspective, however.)

"If We Try It, We Might Wanna Die"

This is it
This is the end
It was a drunken night
With a happy stretch of light
At the end of the tunnel

In high hopes
Of more to come
Let's give it three cheers
A smile and a nod
And the lights all fade out

One last time
All of us sing
Songs of our pain and glory
Fucked up minds in good company

We'll learn to bleed
This one all out
Spilling out guts
For the very first time

Used a heart
For bullet practice
Shot a hole right through
And you watched it bleed
Thanks for the misery

Temptation got the best of me tonight
So I'll shut my eyes
Fuck the goodbyes
I'll be all yours by morning's light

(Also in my perspective. I don't know really what to make of this one. Not really sure if it's even finished... at least it has a name this time! Lol.)

Baby, you should be an actor... cause all of this pretending you've been doing lately has gone to your head.

(That's just something I made up. I thought it was cool.)

Scorching water burns away
The sin of this tainted skin
I'm not me in your eyes
I'm the lie coming alive
I'm the moon over a burnt out sun
And you've always been my guiding star

A glance away and you evaporate
And I'm alone again
Love isn't something of the essence
But a story to unfold
They all end the same...

Secrets that go untold
Lies we hide behind
But you're someone hard to find
You're the one I long to hold
Things shouldn't have been told

But spilling guts
Is like melting rust
And the sun can shine here
But it's not welcome

Somethings change
But you're in your right mind
And it's perfect. I'd never ask for more
But I dropped it on a dime and hit the floor

You're too sweet
And your indulgence is just too much
Just a glance away
And you're far from home...
It's fair to say, that we gave up hope
Here's to me...

(Something else that is not in my perspective.)

"Plane Ride"

From plane rides
To limo drives
It's a bittersweet night
In your arms tonight
And it starts...

Your crashing lips
From your sweet kiss
And an unforgettable touch
With me in your clutch
The evening can't progress

From airport to airport
To something cut too short
And the tears in your eyes
Made out to be for the worst good byes

But somethings have got to give
We kiss and they forgive
And we won't forget
The time we spent
You were someone I could hold on to
"Baby, I'll never let you go"
Let's take this one step
At a time
Cuz just for this time
I am yours... and you are mine

Come back home
And all alone
To a lover's eyes
And realized
It was you in which I love

He left me, cuz he fell out
You told yours
That this is how
It was meant to be

How blindly miserable
We both were
Their hearts now so empty
As ours run on full

But somethings have got to give
We kiss with no need to forgive
And we'll never forget
The time we'll spend

Since you're someone I can hold onto
Then baby, I'll never let you go
We'll take this one step
At a time
Cuz now all the time
I am yours... and you are mine

Reunited at last
With one more chance
To hear your heartbeat
Sing me to sleep
Forever is ours now...

After all this time
We can love at last
Have our chance to shine
And we'll make this last
You are mine forever and for always...

(This is the last in which I post now... but this one, also not in my perspective, is probably one of my favorites)
So bye for now! =)

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Just in time for Christmas, I have decided to write some more remnants of songs. Hope you enjoy...

(This was the only one finished)

"Leaves In The Middle Of Spring"

Maybe one day
I can be happy too
Across the skyO
Around the universe
365 days is a long time
But I'd smile
If only I were with you

No more long nights
A hand free by my side
The space next to me
Open and cold like winter
Jack Frost got the best of me
Of all that was good tonight
Said "I love you" just to know you lied

Sweet dreams angel
Let your clouded thoughts
Sweep you off the ground
Be somewhere beautiful
Just like you, it is, I bet
Dreams can be possibilities too
If only we could call all the shots

But it's game over
We lost the race
5-second beating heart pace
Wings that took you away from me
And love doused itself with misery
I hate the things said
But hating you is never the case

You eyes gleam
The most shimmering diamond color
Believe me, if I could, I would
But I watched you slip away
Right through my bedroom window
Is there no reason with rhyme?
It's everything that keeps me a stir

Sweet dreams angel
Let your clouded thoughts
Take you away from here
Go where you want to
Beautiful just like you, I bet
But when you leave me
Go before you get caught

I can't stand
To see the sight of "broken"
In your golden-platted eyes
It's filling me with madness
And every word spoken is like a knife
Pain and pleasure always invited
It's an end of the world party
And you'll never be forgotten

But let's just take
These couple of strained moments
To realize what we've done
You were right and set me down
Kick me to the side somehow
Get it over with, do it now
I was covered in a crimson-red tint

Sweet dreams angel
Never let them take you down
Never cry the way that you do
Smile knowing everything's okay
And continue to do
Whatever keeps you happy, but remember
Without you, I'm nowhere-bound

(And this one is just a remnant... as always...)

"From Glass To Crystal"

You always built me up
And fuckin tore me down
Destroyed my broken dreams
And drowned me with soundless eyes

If I could, though... I would
Steal every lonely star
From the heavens to your hands
I'd give them all to you

Dust off cob-webbed memories
Paint them over with
Crimson unrequited love
With all the sweat and tears made as the canvas

Let's made this something beautiful
Like the diamonds in your eyes
And let's have it sparkle
The same way that you shine

A smile played upon
Your lovely lips
Soundless heartbeats made
Both worlds overturn

(And here's to the last one)

"Spend Your Time Alone"

I think I'll douse myself
In all these thoughts tonight
I'll never let myself
Sleep ever again

Take my mind away
From the very things
That came creeping up
And haunting me

The words that were exchanged
The sudden silence that made us pained
Shook myself and the world
As one, we are broken

There's no shadows on my wall
Reliant on that alcohol
The bottle's empty
And I waste away on you