i just don't know if i can get better anymore. ive tried so many times. i just want to give up. i told my counseler. she didn't do anything. just switched my medicine to lexapro and said eat. i don't know what to do...

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~PrOmIsEs ArE LiEs~[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]

it is hard but it is NOT impossible. It's very hard to get over those first few bumps to recovery. But I know many people that have done it. Whether it be by intervention, willpower, medication. It is possible. It's just coming to terms with the disease and moving forward overcoming the obstical of eating.

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It is incredibly difficult to overcome, but it is possible, and if you really want it and really try, you can do it. Melanie and Wildangel are both right. I have seen people overcome it. I will one day be one of them

You can do it.

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You have to believe us when we say that you CANNOT do this ALONE. You absolutely NEED to see an eating disorder specialist. EDs are not something cured by "eating"... if only it were that simple. Specialists are more versed in everything that goes into this problem. They can tell if you're lying, they can tell you what you need to do, and they are who you should be seeking out, NOT a counselor. A specialist is what you need to push you, because they are able to recognize what's wrong and know best how to help you.

PLEASE do not give up and PLEASE start seeing a specialist. We're all worrying about you.

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i can't eat. im so scared to. ive lost 7 pounds in a week. my parents won't get me anything more than a counseler. they said i don't need anyone to show me how to put food in my mouth and eat.

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~PrOmIsEs ArE LiEs~[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]

I really don't have much advice for recovery (and I'm not one to talk about recovery, I've had many failed attempts at recovery from bulimia/ED-NOS) but I just want you to know that you can PM me or something anytime you just want someone to talk to about this, or anything at all. I know what it's like to struggle with an ED, so my inbox is always open.

I had an eating disorder, but it wasn't bulimia or anorexia, actually if I tell you what it was you would probably just think I'm a nut. It was not easy to get through I promise you that. I actually ended up in the hospital for it and was not allowed to leave until I gained a certain amount of weight. It was horrible for me, but at that point I knew that I needed help. I actually got lucky and was brought in to see a leading specialist in eating disorders. Because mine was so unique he had to come up with ways for me to cope. I do not see him any more because I am pretty much all better. The thing is, it was very hard and I was seeing a therapist weekly over it and seeing him once a month. When I finally started eating again I went from looking completely emaciated to being the size I am now. It's really hard to explain the ED that I had but I needed help very badly, and I got it. The ED that I had isn't on your normal list of EDs but I know how you feel and I know it's not easy. You need to get help and support, I think that was the only thing that worked for me. If you have further questions I will answer them but I really need people to keep an open mind it's something that's hard for me to talk about.

~Monica

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[Me and My sister watching Final Destination 2 and the computer says "Freak accident"] My Sister: I thought that said "F*ck accident" Me: F*ck accident? My Sister: Yeah I hate those.

That's how mine is and that's also why it's very important to see a doctor that specializes in eating disorders. Sometimes the disorder can be very tricky and hard to manage and not all doctors are able to recognize the signs or know how to treat you properly.

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Because i don't want to gain weight. If i eat...then i will gain it. Thats the one thing im afraid of. and i don't want to let it happen.

i don't want to end up in the hospital. i need help and i know it, i just don't know where to start.

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~PrOmIsEs ArE LiEs~[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]

Yeah and eating also keeps you alive. I'll give you the key to losing weight, if you're so keen on it. All you need to do is make sure you burn more calories than you take in. Also, make sure you don't eat large meals, but eat smaller meals throughout the day because that will boost your metabolism and will help you burn more fat during the day. All you need to do is rationalize and moderate your eating. Don't go eating half of a pizza or an entire chocolate cake. You won't gain weight if you exercize a bit and don't pig out on junk.

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