The best revenge is living a good life.

Um no, the best revenge is living a good life and rubbing it in said person's face. When I get a novel published or I sell a screenplay, you bet your ASS I'm going to said person and rub it in her damn face. Hopefully I'll get something published before her and can really rub it in. If this chick was in your life you'd understand why it's nearly impossible to forgive her for what she's done. She's a thief and a whore and a liar. She deserves nothing more then to suffer for her stupid little games and I will see that it happens!

~Monica

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[Me and My sister watching Final Destination 2 and the computer says "Freak accident"] My Sister: I thought that said "F*ck accident" Me: F*ck accident? My Sister: Yeah I hate those.

There's no such thing.

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In all honesty, I would rather just let things go, and just walk away.
As well, just ignore the person....but I wish it wasn't so hard to do so.
One thing I learned, is if you just walk aways, your not giving them the
satisfaction of getting to you, and they won't win.

* Has lots to learn still *

But I am very glad, that I live here, and she lives two provinces away.
Makes things a whole lot easyer!

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I've spent quite a few years wishing on being able to deliver horrible revenge towards the person who borderline ruined my life after literally torturing me for years as a child.

I realized that holding onto this was making me hate myself as a person even more and definitely inhibiting any healing I was doing. Grudges tend to do that - you hold onto them, and hold onto them, and they grow and eat into your very own soul. This person had already hurt me so much, and I was going to let him do this to me also?

No...forgiving for such horrid things is definitely not the easiest thing in the world, and I still haven't fully done it, but I'm trying. But forgiving does not have to mean forgetting. And I do believe in karma; I don't have to be the one to inflict harsh things on someone else for a simple revenge. How will that make my own life better?

This isn't for his benefit, but a benefit for myself and my growth as a person. Thinking of all he's done and tried to do to me, well if there's any revenge that actually sounds sweet to me, it's overcoming it and the dark bitterness my soul was turned into for the longest time.

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@The second one
speechless. I hope you'll never look like this. You don't know how much problems these girls have.

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^^^Thank you for sharing that Steph,
That has tought me alot.
And that is the one thing I have to get myself to do.
It is harder then hell, because of being emotional, and the soul being damaged.
I am learning to change my thoughts towards things, but god, it takes
so much out of you, and a really long time to do it.
I have already been in therapy for at least a few months, with this
new therapist, she is working more with all the damage, and helping me
learn there is a way to for give, but I'm not there at all yet.
I don't want all these feeling, its like almost eats right at you.
But I also believe in the term, what go's around, comes around.
It also feels better, that I can actually learn from someone else,
who has been through the same thing, if not having the same kind of
feeling their dealing with as well.
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EDIT:
That is just absolutely Heart breaking Sadness.
Reading and looking at that, literly brought me tears.

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Don't assume you're aware of what other people know.

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Not to sound harsh but do you think seeing every bone in your body is beautiful? I mean I understand illnesses like anorexia and bulemia (only because both of my sisters have had those problems, one of them is still dealing with it today, the other is A LOT better and hasn't binged and purged in years) When I see a girl who looks like that it makes me want to puke. Hell I used to look like that back in the day, it wasn't sexy it wasn't beautiful it was just sickly.

I much prefer to date girls with some meat on them. The girl I'm dating now has pleanty of meat on her and I wouldn't even call her fat. I think that it's bullshit that if I went on America's Next Top Model looking the way I do now, they would call me a plus size model. I am in the average weight bracket for my height, I am not overweight and I am not underweight I am perfectly healthy, and yet I would still be seen as "Plus-Sized" in the model industry.

It's total bullshit, completely and utterly. I wish I didn't have to watch my one sister deal with her anorexia, it's hard on me and I can't even begin to imagine how hard it is on her! Beauty is NOT looking like a twig, beauty is in who you are, not what you look like.

~Monica

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[Me and My sister watching Final Destination 2 and the computer says "Freak accident"] My Sister: I thought that said "F*ck accident" Me: F*ck accident? My Sister: Yeah I hate those.

QFT!! Thank you Steph you couldn't have said it better. After having dealt with issues such as this in my own life, I discovered that holding on to things that you can't change only hurts you.

As far as battling eating disorders, they have much more to do with control than self-image. And unless you have lived it, you may never understand. I urge whoever posted this to please get help, and feel free to PM me, your secret is safe with me. I have lived it and come out the other side.

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“We expect our lives to be happy, trouble free and victorious. We forget that victories come only after we fight battles.”

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe