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Momentarily
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No speech can find its way to me;
weakness forbids that I should speak.
The only thing allowed to reach
this tongue, these lips
are constant flurries
of your love shown to me.

I can still taste the sweetness
burning
inside my mouth.

And if I somehow managed
to slip behind a sentence...
no words could ever satisfy,
no thoughts could form coherence.

I can pretty much surrender -
my strength lies in submission.
Momentarily
my guard goes down,
as I fall down
to drown inside your touch upon
my skin, inside
my soul.

All my troubles have been left outside -
their intrusions are forbidden.

You've hidden yourself,
Locked away your emotions,
Wasted my love for too long now.
I'm feeling the effects of your fobidden love.

My heart can't hurt anymore,
I can't let my soul die inside for much longer.
My emotions need to breathe once again.
Your forbidden love is haunting me.

I've tried to reason,
Communicate,
And change,
But your forbidden love has scared me away,

I'm ending this tonight,
Taking back the life you've stolen from me,
Wallowing in your pity no longer,
Your forbidden love has shown it's true form.

I can't go on with this lie anymore,
I don't want to waste away into nothingness.
I can't feel my heart bleed when I am around you,
Your forbidden love is killing me inside.

Why do you do this to me?
Try to make me yours forever,
When all you want is someone on your arms,
Your forbidden love has seeped through your facade.

I know the real you,
I've seen inside your heart,
And it's black, like death.
Your forbidden love is a plauge.

I'm walking away,
Leaving you to your empty pain,
Your bitterness no longer hurting me,
Your forbidden love can no longer taunt me.

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MY MYSPACE / My Poetry / MY Story

Stone Cold Mannequin

lying beside the love of her life,
as the breaths leave her bodice cold,
a never ending catastrophe of sins,
leave them both a sacrificial statue.

her now cold hands,
wrapped in the warm embracing hands of the sun,
as dawn approaches from the east,
and silence beckons never ending discomfort.

only love set them free,
from the never ending torment,
pushed towards them by the ones they trusted.
their forbidden love broken only by their hearts discontent.

now they watch and listen,
to the future that they promised existence,
as they come to tribute their worthless lives,
that they lived so joyfully.

the children of the stone,
as the people call them,
the ones who never knew,
their parents misfortune.

whom now hung to a wall,
together,
forever embraced in the light,
flowing through the broken windows.

forever forsaken to death,
but saved by each other,
life graced them with its tragic end,
and are now together forever.

come visit them again,
and listen to them whisper their story,
the tragedy and the glory,
they once knew.

I can hear you calling me from a distance
What once was faint is now desperate and determined
I wonder if you can hear me sobbing
We are lost, not to be found until we finally meet
I have been searching for years but now I draw closer
I run faster hoping to catch your shadow
I know you are near, just on the other side of hope
I falter, as I have done many times, but your cries lead me onward
And then, in an instant, you appear
I stare in awe at a face that mirrors my own
But I can't get to you from here
It is forbidden
For you are in Heaven and I must be in Hell
You are right there, just on the other side of hope, yet so far away
How do I find the means, where will I find the strength
Will I ever hold you, my child

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All that I have done is keeping me from you...

“We expect our lives to be happy, trouble free and victorious. We forget that victories come only after we fight battles.”

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

my entry for forbidden:

puppet in your hands,
pawn in your game,
without a heart,
without a soul,
mindless drone,
forbidden to live,
forbidden to love,
allowed nothing,,,,,,,

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amo-te para sempre carla
http://www.evboard.com/showthread.php?t=31607 please check my art

Star Crossed

From dust and ashes
Our love arose
Our hearts still burning
From the fires of yesterday
And embers of yearning

Now I breathe life
Into your weathered frame
You touch my tormented resolution
Of which our love flourishes
Under resplendent pollution

Saturn’s ice moons
Dance in our skies
I smear the colours with fingertips
And writhe in your flesh
Attempting to tighten the grips

Time is not of essence
Infact forever ceases to exist
We left it to suffocate
In timeless misery once endured
And beam upon all we desecrate


To perforate all what was
And sleep in a buried rosette
With you perfectly parallel
In a telepathic dream
I dare to never bid you farewell

Our tranquillity extinguishes
The wicked wildfire
Stolen from a loathsome heaven
Though we placed it in our hearts
To bear the marks of the unforgiven

To my dearest beloved
On the walls of our kingdoms
Our touch creates new scars
But I care not for those thoughts
As our love is pronounced in every fallen star

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My Space My Stuff

I remember sitting in my chair, looking outside the window. That was all I could do, sit down and stare. Rocking back and forth on my old rocking chair, watching the children playing marbles in the dirt and trading cards with each other.

I stroked the shackles on my arthritic wrists, my wrinkled skin hanging off my bones loosely. I shed a little tear, a salty drop seeping down my aged cheek, past all the sunspots and scars. I wanted so badly to move, to walk around and dance with the ghosts of my past, but I was trapped. My body would remind me that I was forbidden to do such things.

The cold bars around my windows kept me inside. A young lady came by each week to take care of me, and tell me that I was not allowed to leave the house. She would tell me I was in danger of hurting myself. I looked to Polly, my canary. She was old, and she never sang like she used to. She would sit in her cage, looking in the mirror in a forlorn manner. Oh, how she used to sing. She would fly around the house, singing her young heart out. Even when she broke her left wing, she would sing like there was no tomorrow.

It began to rain gently. The children ran back into their nests, cuddling up to their mothers and fathers. How I remembered that sense of security, that same love. Once I flew out of the nest, I used to sing, too. I used to fly around the fields in my old country house, and feel the air underneath my wings. I remember the days of being able to do, and not think. And now, look at me. I am forbidden to move physically. My mind has deteriorated, but my memories will always stay with me. But, they will only be memories. I am barred inside a cramped house, to which I can barely move around in.

I am forbidden to be who I was.

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They know no other life but this,
From the cradle they are claimed...

NOTE: This poem is about abuse. If you have a problem with such topics, or if you believe it might offend you, then do not read it. If you need any help with imagery, send me a PM.




Obedience

A naked soul
Dripping with tears
As angels look down
With fear in their hearts

Ebony pearls take in
the culety and anger,
From a misguided hand...
Before their prison of flesh
Conceals them again
To blind them from the sight
of what will come next

Rose petals melt,
Flowing forth before dripping
From where a lovers' touch resides
Onto improvised trenches
Dug by harnessed hate
As repentant hands
Clench into revengeful fists

Darkness walls out
The sight that haunts her heart,
But nothing can block out
The tugging of gold
That froces her
To show heaven her tears
Nor the wind passing her ear;
Pure venom in its touch
As it whispers

"...You are not to disobey me again, you bitch...
Are we clear?"

"...yes, father."

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another entry for forbidden (i like writing, lol):

dreaming of freedom,
dreaming of living,
denied all rights,
denied seeing the one i love,
lost forever,
cant you see what
you're doing,
you're deserting me,
leaving me to die,
forbidding me to love,
forbidding me to be free,
forbidden is all,
lost is all..............