Where Have You Gone?

Have those words escaped your
Lips, the ones I crave so
Desperately, longing to hear?
What will save me now? Oh,
Where have you flown away
To? What have you taken
From me? A part of me has died,
You left me forsaken.

My soul inside me is empty.
My heart is becoming cold.
Are my tears no good to you?
With your last breath do you mock me?
Oh, is this the plight of all your lovers,
To be lost inside their grief forever?

You rejected what I
Gave to you. Don't you see
The pain and grief you know you cause
When love ceases to be?
Life has no meaning for
Me now. Even the good
Times cease to make me thrive, to feel
So alive, like they should.

My soul inside me is empty.
My heart is becoming cold.
Are my tears no good to you?
With your last breath do you mock me?
Oh, is this the plight of all your lovers,
To be lost inside their grief forever?

Oh, You were my god, I could have been your Jesus,
But you have failed to save me, I'm afraid I am loveless.
I carried a rose in my hand, a crimson bud,
But it withered and rotted and dropped from me into mud.

My soul inside me is empty.
My heart is becoming cold.
Are my tears no good to you?
With your last breath do you mock me?
Oh, is this the plight of all your lovers,
To be lost inside their grief forever?

My soul inside me is empty.
My heart is becoming cold.
Are my tears no good to you?
With your last breath do you mock me?
Oh, is this the plight of all your lovers,
To be lost inside their grief forever?





okay, here's the crappy explanation: i actually put some halfway
decent effort into this, and i dont think it turned out so bad.
took me about 45 minutes, using a combination of different poetry
forms and rhyme schemes. they are the following (with meter and
rhyme in parantheses):

the first and second verses are 2 stanzas of short measure (6686,
abcb)
the chorus is 1 englyn penifyr (877, no rhyme), 1 line of 8, and 1
heroic couplet (10.10, aa)
the coda (the 5th stanza) are 2 poulter's measures (12.12, aa)


if any of the above explanations of the poetic forms is incorrect,
by all means, please correct them.


hekate la croix, the rogue poet

I love it...

especially the last stanza

so moving


p.s wooooooo my 100th post :P

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Love is a rose full in bloom,
The wilting is fortelling doom;
The death of what could never be,
A once-loved past is haunting me.

Red and alive, no hopes gone,
Your love I thought I won;
The petal of the red rose fell,
Without your love I'm just a shell.

In the night chaste kisses we shared,
I thought then the truth was bared;
You were so kind, so sweet, so tender,
My heart whispered to me "Sweet surrender!"

Now upon the hearth rests the rose,
Forever droooping in a bleak pose;
The petals no longer red but black,
I realize now the past can't come back.


Hekate LaCroix

Unadorned, unappreciated,
Rejected, unaccepted,
Naked in truth,
Plain to see:
I gave myself, my soul, to you.
You took my heart and exploited my submission.

The lustful leers--
If only they were mirrors,
Then I would break them,
But curious glances cannot be shattered.
One can only stare back.

I'm in fear constantly,
Having to watch my back,
For confidence I do lack.
I'm not ask strong as I used to be.
My soul is fragile and can break easily.
I them remember just what happened:

You did this to me!

But I am under your foot,
Subject to your every whim,
An object of pleasure.
You stripped me away
Until I had nothing left but my quivering spirit.
Against you I am powerless,
I can do nothing.
I can only endure this abuse,
Try to stay afloat in living death a while longer,
Try to will my wounds to heal
Until the Master opens the Seventh Seal.~



hekate lacroix

part 1 of a narrative i am attempting to write

What do you say to the one who has stolen your heart?
She wanted it for herself. She didn't want to give it away. The raven flew over the heavens and plucked her soul in the dark night. The serpent coveted the apple and enjoyed its succulent reward.
In the clutches of the Dark One. Caught in the grasp of Lilith's Child. Trapped in the claws of the Great Beast.
The girl was locked inside the macabre lair. The walls shone the hue of obsidian. The sheets of the canopy bed which she was afraid to leave mimicked the darkness of coal. Scream hung on the wall adjacent to her left. The agonized portrait was being swallowed up in a dark abyss, as the painting was alone on the wall, save for a print of Starry Night a few feet from the crimson frame. The wall opposite donned posters of various heavy metal, Goth, punk, and rock bands with Ville Valo featured in the center.
Maybe she will forget me and leave me to die here.
If only she was to be granted that wish...
The floor and walls shivered as the captor swung open the oak door. The life size statue of Kali with blood dripping from her mouth at the foot of the bed suddenly didn't seem so frightening.
She could not fight the Dark One. Kali's lifeless eyes stared in sympathy with knowledge of struggles in vain. One cannot fight the Devil and expect to win.
The woman leaped in one smooth bound upon the bed with the grace of a nymph and the agility of a leopard. Hip-length opal tresses surrounded that curvaceous goddess as an unholy aura. Slowly she crawled like a tiger until her face hovered over the girl's freckled countenance. Her prize smelled of vanilla and soap and strawberries.
"My Angel has not yet fallen from grace." The woman smiled as a mother would fawn over its child.; only, the eyes betrayed such an expression. Those sparkling green orbs claimed Angelique. "You no longer struggle to escape me. Perhaps you don't despise me as you claim you do."
Angelique shrank back into the mattress as much as possible to escape the temptress. She had learned that to attempt to flee was futile. Angels with clipped wings cannot fly.
Yet trying once more... I have nothing to lose...
She tried to buck the woman off with her hips and push her away with her arms. Rae, however, had sensed the girl's muscles tensing and trapped her arms in her hands. The Dark One smiled like a fox cornering its prey.
"I see I still have not tamed you properly. Yet I like the fire in your eyes. I want to bind you yet let you soar free. Why do you tear my desire apart?"
Black-painted lips suckled at the pulse point of the girl's neck. She could taste the salty and sweet flavor of the skin. Dramatically Angelique's heart increased its feverish beating. The scent of strawberry and cream conditioner threatened to seduce Rae into blissful oblivion.
"I promised myself," she murmured as she kissed the neck, "that I would not take your blood until I make you forever mine. Why do you tempt me?"
Angelique glared at the woman who now made eye contact with her. Her mind scolded her body for becoming aroused. Her mind screamed indignantly at Rae's declaration.
"I belong to no one!" the girl bravely proclaimed.
An animalistic growl echoed in the vampiress' throat. Eyes bore into eyes. Smooth, pale, cold hands gripped painfully at re hair. Savagely Rae punishingly assaulted Angelique's lips.
"You ARE mine!" she silently roared. "Now and forever."


more random prose

Her milky white navel cocked forward attracted all the males in the room. The girl stood in the center of the classroom, reading from a dry report. The girls in their desks either applied lipstick or yawned in fiegned boredom, trying vainly to escape their jealously. The girl's hips never were parallel to her shoulders or the floor but leaned at an angle, forward or backwared and to one side, changing positions every few minutes. With every movement of her torso, her cinching tank rolled up, showing more of her anatomy than models in a teen magazine might dare.



more random prose 2

I listen to an old song on the radio. In an instant I am young again. Don't want to go back there. Touching an old wound, carressing it with salt. Yet can't remember what inflicted this in my early forgotten conscious. I turn off the radio and weep.



random prose 3

She was so pale [that] one could clearly see the capillaries in the [edges] of her ears. Circles had flrmed under her eyes, making otherwise vibrant cerulean orbs dead and vacant. The corners of her mouth sagged. Cheeks had begun to thin. Usually thick, lucious, flowing tresses laid lifeless and thin, despite the gusts that blew fallen leaves about. A normally formfitting tee and tight black jeans draped about her form like a cat entangled in a large sheet.
Something wasn't right


Sinful Desire

Sinful desire,
Heart plagued with ire,
Lust not contained,
Affectioned never obtained.
Save me from the mirror
Of my doppelganger's leer.
Drowning in my fears
Inside my tears.
Remove my heart
So sin can't start.
Pluck out my eyes,
Don't want to see more lies.
Cut out my tongue,
Take out my lung,
So no more can I speak
Anything that's bleak.
When I see my reflection
She looks at me in contemplation,
Utter loathing in her eyes,
Salty brooks from her cries.
If hate and love are one,
Then who has truly won?~

Yesterday Still Lingers Here

As I travel into tomorrow,
Yesterday still lingers here,
As this moment plagues me,
What have I to look forward to?
The past haunts me,
And my future looks grim.
Chromos holds my soul in a limbo.
I'm imprisoned by my fear,
Held down by my fate,
Bound by the blood of the One.
I cry to Christ to free me,
But those nails seal what's to be.
I look up to the Cross and plead with my eyes,
But I am damned in Satan's lies.
I realized then I could have moved forward,
But I refused to believe in myself.
I was afraid to walk away from what was.
Time is my Achille's tendon,
And I am now lame.~


Crystal Tears

I hold a rose for you
Crystal tears I shed
I look down to the earth
Hoping, in vain, that Mother would give you back to me
A selfish wish in my heart
Such can never be granted
I hold the stem tighter
A thorn pierces my skin
A drop falls to the ground on your tombstone
My blood prays that you will rise
But the dead return to dust
I know you will never again walk
Never feel the sun on your face
You were stolen from me
You were my one true solace
My saviour from malice
A petal flutters downward gracefully in an unfelt breeze
Landing on the surface of your grave
I picked for you the brightest crimson rose
Because even though you have died
My love for you still burns
Our passion charred my soul away
All I have left is you
In this flower is me
As I place it upon the fresh mound
Know that in my darkest moment I give myself to you~

Wishes

I wish I cold join you
I tried to take my own life
But my soul refused to leave mortality
You were all I had left
Every waking moment, you consumed
My first kiss, you stole
My first, you were
I keep telling myself you're gone
It echoes inside my desolate body
Driving me insane
I know I'm alone
That's what scares me
And when I die, will I join you,
Or will I be forced to another realm?
I wish I'd never known you
You were my love
Now you're my one true hate
The above now innate~


Boundaries

Two souls each from different realms,
One's senses does overwhelm--
One reaches for another,
But a boundary separates them.

How I long to hold you in my arms,
You only for me to hold,
I want your lips to belong to me,
To belong to me in one love's kiss.

I reach out to touch your face,
But that's only a fantasy.
I will not reach for you,
But I'll stay a distance.

It is hard,
To stand behind this mask...
A friendship between us,
That's all it can be.

I stare at your back,
But when you glance, I look away.
I won't be hurt once more.
This is the secret I keep.~


Ashes

A voice beckons me from the dark,
Calling me to my new fate--
Someone cannot do their part,
I have a new destiny.

Death has grasped another soul,
Her part needed for harmony;
Here I am to gather the ashes,
And start with them another flame.

When she died, her love grieved so,
He gave up the ghost,
He waited to die to chase after her,
I am sweeping away the ashes.

I am rekindling the gone flame,
I did not lose hope.
I gave my grief to fate,
And I am waiting to live.~


The Night

Come has the night,
The stars quiver with the cool gust,
Shines the silver moon above,
The light heals not my soul.
I am now a creature, greeting the dusk,
I find solace here in the silence
The darkness hides my tormented spirit
Curelty reigns in every soul
For light attracts the darkness within.
Welcome the pure and innocent light
But don't dismiss the comforting eve
For I now dwell there
Basking in the twilight's serenity.~


Am I Evil Now?

What is to be dubbed evil--
That which lives in darkness,
Hiding from the light that blinds?
Can you be called evil?
For there you stand proudly,
In those intensely white robes you have donned.
The glow you radiate blinds the nocturnal imps.
You call me a demon,
Inherently wicked, you say.
Am I a sinful being,
Just because I fell from heaven?
I cannot help what I am,
This way for eternity shall I be,
Always in darkness am I damned.
The angelic chorus has withdrawn from me,
And my laments of despair have drowned with those noisy trumpets,
So I am never heard.
Come join me in obscurity for a millenium,
And be my companion in the shadows.
Maybe you will see
How bleak the demons' lair can be.
Am I evil now?~


Broken Trust

I thought she was something special,
I trusted her, she was a good friend.
We told each other lots of stuff
And promised to the other to not kiss and tell.
But trust is a fragile thing,
It breaks usually when it is dropped.
She held my confidence in her,
But yes, she was careless, and it tumbled,
Tumbled to the floor, and it broke into lots of little pieces.
I'm still holding hers,
I am holding it in my palm,
My fingers curl around it as if it were a fragile vase.
I'm tired of promises never kept, a word always broken,
Being stabbed in the back when I'm not looking.
I could almost say, "Et tu Brute."~


Etiolate

Do I exist in this realm on earth?
Mine is this divinely subservient body from birth?
What cherub have the Heavens placed over me,
Or have guardian angels ceased to be?

My spirit brews a storm waiting in vain,,
All hopes of answers evanesce while internally falls the rain.
I escape to a secret place and shamelessly try to fade away,
But something holds me back to stay.

Is there someone above who wants me here?
Does someone from above down on me peer,
Protect me, hold me, think me dear?
Maybe I do exist, maybe I do have a purpose here.~



Tears

Tears now falling from one eye,
Black is now the azure sky,
Salty trails from one cheek,
What was lost, I now seek.

My heart in shreds and tears,
My happiness no longer fairs,
The rose, withered and dried,
My spirit within me sighed.~



The Phantom

I'm obsessed with a phantom.
Try to kiss those cold lips,
Like trying to touch a star;.
Can never reach my intended
I want to wrap my arms around that form,
But ghosts always flee at the presence of the flesh.
My hands pass through,
So who's the ghost now,
If I can't touch or feel what I desire
Just like a real ghost?~



Retreating

Am I just a fool to you?
Am I the source of your amusement?
Don't say that you aren't mocking me.
I can hear your laughs inside my head.
You ask me why I'm so crazy,
Why I'm dancing to nothing,
Singing an unknown song,
Why I am so inside myself that I can't see the light of day.
I did retreat inside my soul,
But it was you who led me there.
You are the source of my evil.
You are my devil.
You are the shadow that plays with my fears,
The one that shatters my mirrors
When I long to escape these years.
You are my tormentor.
You are my scourge.
I am Egypt,
You are God,
So now I know who plagues me.
You are my Satan,
And those are your four horses.~



The Demon

If only I could see inside myself;
Would it frighten you,
The image that would be conjured?
Sometimes the demon in me rages,
Begging to be satiated.
If only I knew how to stop it,
So I run into your arms
And ask you how,
But then I realize you don't have any answers.
It hits me: I am all alone.~


Purgatory

Slowly dying,
Life is lying.
To me it seems
It's all just dreams,
But we all know
That comes the crow.
The Reaper's here,
Can sense him near,
But rejects me.
Where I'm to be
Has me exiled.
My blood's defiled.
My life's not won,
But death has won


Broken Wings

On broken wings can I fly
Where there is no more a lie?
All my troubles gone aflight,
All my worries went alight.
Truth now my regality--
Lies, your speciality.
"Wake up, please," you plead to me,
But you don't know where dreams be.
You wish me to be with you,
But in this I can't be true.



F$ck You!

My hate for you is exceded only by my despair,
The desolation you have caused me.
Do you see these scars that I have on my arms,
Seared into me by hot brands,
Ones of sadism you forged in the fires of Hell?
I peeled away so everyone could see the real me.
You should've seen their faces:
Mouths pursed in horror as I was exposed.
I will see to it that you suffer as I have.
Don't want your sorries,
Your cries and alligator tears are no good,
Your begs are in vain.
As you mocked me and sneered at me
When I was made helpless and vulnerable by you,
So will I laugh at your cowardice.
No, I won't send you to Hell.
I won't send you to an early death.
Such things are not in my power,
Nor do I desire to taint myself with such deeds.
Instead I will hear you scream,
And I will delight in your pain.
What you do comes back to you.


The Burning

Inside me burns a roaring fire;
It will also consume you
Because to me you're just a worthless corpse,
Not worthy of any special treatment.
I want to burn you to ashes,
Pour you in the desert and
Watch your essence be gone with the wind.
I want to see you soul writhe in agony,
As the Devil himself sees to your torture.
As you perish, yet live, in the flames,
Until nothing of you remains
But a faint whisper of forgotten horror


Lie to Me

Tell me I'm beautiful,
Tell me you love me,
Say you want to be with me,
That you can't live without me,
I'm yours and yours alone,
And you know you belong to me too.
I want you to hold me tight,
Tell me all will be right.
We share one soul,
Each without the other not whole.
When one weeps, the other hears,
And to that one does draw near.
The sun longs for the moon
As the night follows after the eve,
As corruption lusts after innocence,
As hunger desires satisfaction,
As need requires itself to be fulfilled,
As the cold wind seeks shelter in warmth,
As evil finds refuge in an angel's arms.



Obsession

I began to fall in love with you,
But I know you don't feel the same way.
How can I be content just to think of you?
How can I be satisfied just with a glimpse of you?
You're everywhere in my mind.
I breathe of you and cry of you,
But my tears--are they drowning me,
Obscuring my view of the bigger picture?
You are my safe haven, my damnation,
My one true heaven, maybe salvation?
You are lost, and you're looking for someone to love.
I call your name, but you're too lost in your loneliness to hear me.
With eyes open, you truly are blind.
What you've been searching for,
It's been right under your nose the whole time.
The one who can fill your heart's void,
You've gone to lengths to avoid.
You wonder why you're all alone.
You did this to yourself.
Perhaps I should extend a hand
And save you from the ocean of your misery,
Where sharks of despair wish to consume you,
But I don't have the heart to tell you;
I can't bear the look of agonizing understanding on your face.
With you I have learned:
There is nothing to be had,
There is nothing to be won.



Resist

Sleep calls for me.
"My sister," it calls me.
But I resist her seductions.
Sleep, I won't let her take over.
I love to dream, but I loathe being trapped in fantasy.

Death calls for me.
"My lover," it calls me.
But I resist the seductions.
Death, I won't let it take over.
I love heaven, but I loathe being buried in a grave.

Reality calls for me.
"My child," it calls me.
And I don't resist her seductions.
Reality, I have let it take over.
Sleep and death have me not.~




Ecstasy

This fire flowing through my core,
Bringing me to the point of ecstasy,
But my heart freezes in me,
My soul quivering for warmth.

I don't quite know what happened here,
But it feels like a part of me died.
I can't say that it hurts--
Rather, it's more like becoming numb.

Now it seems I've been without sensation for so long,
It's driving me to the point of insanity.
I know I've been unfeeling for so long
That I am beginning to lust after pain.

I want something, anything, to stop my inner purgatory.~



Chase

Being chased by a demon who lusts after my blood.
Won't leave me be.
I am helpless as I try to escape the clutches.
No one is here to hear me scream,
My shrieks, as I succomb to the darkness.

I can smell your fear,
Sharp in the air, so delightful.
I'm falling in love with your fright.
I lust after your blood.
I long for so much more.

I know you can hear me.
I beg you to leave me alone.
I don't want the evil to consume me.
I want to evade you, intact.
Don't think I won't fight you!

Yes, child, I hear you.
Your pleads only make me want you more.
You may fight me,
But if you think you will triumph...
No, I will laugh at your efforts!

The fox caught the scent of the rabbit;
Hunger unsatiated, lust unfulfilled,
Wanting to catch the prize,
But once the hare is snared,
Caught in the fox's clutches,
Has the fox really won,
Or has the rabbit deceived him?~



Limbo

Oh god, it hurts so much,
The hunter took too much.
I feel myself becoming weak:
Fire ravaging my veins,
Ice forming around my heart;
I try to breathe,
I feel like I'm drowning,
That no one will come for me;
I feel like I'm dying,
But my soul is staying.

Heaven rejected me,
The Devil hates me,
Purgatory spat me out,
The Angel with the scythe does not wish to harvest me,
Helios shuns me,
Nyx fears me.

I am not damned,
I am not saved,
I am not dead,
I am not alive,
I am not good,
I am not evil.

Is this what it feels like to fade away,
Evanescing into nothing?
Will anyone remember me,
Or have I disappated from their hearts?

Please don't forget me,
Remember me, even a repressed memory.
Remember my name;
It's the only way I can stay.~


Illusion

I'm not really here, though you can see me--
Just an illusion, a spectre from your dreams.
I know where your nightmares lie, and what they contain:
I'm privy to the contents of your fears
The doubts you've been hiding all these years,
In the dark you can see them in the mirrors.
Concealed behind the thin glass of your facade,
I lie in wait for your glance.
You see only what you want to see,
Yourself distorted in the pane.
You shatter the glass,
And the shards make you bleed.
Do you feel the pain that you have caused yourself?
This imaginary world where fish soar like eagles and unicorns abound,
The realm where you withdraw to when your heart is in pain;
When you go there, how do you get out?
Or do you dwell there forever until the world that betrayed your
conceptions has passed?
You breathed life into me, your Creation,
So that you might be consoled and comforted
For you lack a mother's kiss and a father's bliss,
But then you blink, and I fade away, evanescing,
And as I came I went away~~



Wind

The wind blows through me, I feel it,
The kiss of the memories once with me,
But now so far away, the gust only a reminder of things that have
already come to pass.
This stirs an emotion in me, ambiguity;
I can't say if it's good or bad, it's just there
Without explanation or reason for its being.
It makes me smile and weep and beg in need--
Of what I don't know.
Even though I cry for a mystery
I find myself not wanting this invasion to escape,
I lose myself in its ecstasy,
Drunk from rapture,
But then the feeling leaves and in its place nothing.
Now I'm a dark abyss, a void.
I plead to forces above me in heaven and below me in the earth to
return to me what's rightfully mine
(Or so I believe),
But my prayers are sent in vain,
And I once again long to feel the breath of god so that
I might be whole once more~~


Nightwalker

I scream but can you hear me
Call out your name?
See you walking in the sun--
Oh how I envy you!
I'm just the nightwalker
Too languished to stand Helios' fire,
So instead--Helios gone--"Diana, hello,
Welcome your child of the night,
Embrace me with open arms."
If things were only that easy...
I live in a fantasy world drugged by denial and fueled by grief.
Is this my true destiny
To never let myself be
And tormenting my soul for eternity?
Say it isn't so,
Say that I'm crazy and need my meds.
Tell me that I'm still asleep
Waiting for the alarm clock to ring,
For the thunder to cease,
And for the rain to stop.



The Definition of Love

Don't you know that nothing else can possibly compare to this?
This... feeling... that my heart loves...
What is this I feel?
I shall not ask aloud but instead lust after this carnal deliverance
Something that transcends everything mortal
And makes the angels sing a song so sweet
That it makes all the demons weep
A thing so wonderful that it makes the gods shiver, longing for more
A thing so horrible that many die without having touched it even once
A thing so strong that iron chains cannot bind it down
A thing so everlasting that God himself embraced it
And sent his child to deliver it with blood
A thing so powerful that many think it to be rapture, or even Heaven
I never thought I was whole until it crashed upon my soul, killing
everything else
Is this love?



Questions

What makes me human?
What makes me whole?
What is the makeup of my soul?
Does life even have a goal?
I was happy, but you took that away from me
Now I'm, just a fragment of my former
I have nothing, no one, nothing at all
I don't even know what pushes me forward
Or who keeps me from falling back
Maybe it's the man on the moon
Or the spirits of the trees
Or the gods of the seas--



Dreaming

In my sleep there you are
My sanity away so far
When I wake you haunt my sight
And all that is beautiful turns to blight
Naked and ashamed become I
Until all there be my mind's eye
Try to get away from your breath
Since for me such means death
Like the plight of Macbeth--


Emptiness

My heart feels empty right now,
And you might not just see how
The seat forms upon my brow

When I think of my sad plight,
When truth comes into the light,
And shakes my soul with gods' might.

Your writing is very dark, and different, it's really good, Well done, I pulled out a few of the parts I really like....
Excellent. x x

thanks! glad to see that someone likes it! and sorry thats it all in one post like that. i messed up on multiple posts, heh heh

i really like the way you write......i read all of the prose and loved it, havent had time to read all of the poetry just now, but will return later to do so. keep posting i enjoy your works

well thank you! i am glad to see that my poetry is enjoyed by someone!
do you have a "your stuff" thread? i'd love to see what you do!

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