I will not disturb her
I will not contact her until she has contacted me
Not to instant message
Not to Call
Not to go over to her house, and wake her up when she’s sick, cause I’m bored and sad
Not to hope desperately for some trauma to enter her life, with my shoulder being there for her to cry on, and my hand there, to wipe away her tears
Not to close my eyes every night and dream of all the mundane and wonderful things we could do together that will never happen
Not to want to see her every single fucking day
Not to sit here, waiting here, for that contact that will never come
Not to believe she’ll ever love me
But Still
I will not disturb her
I will not

Alright. Well first of all, this is obviously written based on some things you're going through in life right now. Which is cool, and understandable if you're writing it for yourself as a sort of release, but lines like:

Really lower the poetic aspect just a little. The entire thing sounds more like a list than an actually piece of literature. Is that what you were going for?

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I don't know I don't really write poetry, it is just I sort of had to get it out there. It's just a list of things I guess of things I'm telling myself not to do because I've been doing them for so long, and the last two lines I'm still trying to convice myself. It is a sort of release as you said, I don't know much about poetry, but I felt better after I wrote it, and better after I posted it too.