Then PLEASE just call a suicide hotline. That's why they exist. No one on this message board can help you outside of listening to you, but we are in no position to help you truly get better and get past your depressive feelings. We can't do that, but there are professionals trained to help with that in situations like yours where you have no where to turn.

It's as simple as picking up a phone and asking for help.

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hi everyone i just turned 14 yesterday and i preety much know that i am gay but im not sure if i am bisexual aswell i get really horny over men and get a little horny over women but i dont really want to be bisexual because i think that you are either one or the other but i also want to have a family and settle down with a couple of kids and just be happy but if i am gay i can not do that i have been feeling this way for a couple of months now about 3 i would say also i have my bestfriend johnluke and he is totally against gays he hates them and thinks that they should all burnt at the stake so i cant tell him first and then tell my family because he would despise me the only friend that i could tell and not think im discusting is alex but alex would tell everyone and i also cant tell people becuase my brother billy is always in hatfield and he has a hardman reputation (but i think he wastes his money on designer clothes shoes etc) and then he would lose all of his friends so i cant tell people and also i cant tell my mum and dad because im not sure if my dad would accept me but i know my mum would but i know that if i tell my mum that she will tell my dad im 95% sure that i am gay and 5% sure that i am bisexual i just need to tell someone i feel trapped and i need to get out of this "box" also i want to be a builder and knowone would employ a gay builder would they builders arent suppose to be gay they are suppose to be rough tough men who fight in pubs and go to cafe on their lunch breaks and speak really bad english so that is why i feel trapped if someone could please help me it would be much appreciated also i know that you are going to skim through this because you are going to get bored but please dont and any help that you guys could give me it would be much appreciated mostly help about telling people that i am gay how to build up the conferdence because i am a very conferdent person but this is the worst thing i have ever come across please HELP ME!

OMG. Okay, here we go. First of all, don't think that because you are gay you can't have kids. There are ways, and I intend to take advantage of that asap.
Second of all, is this John Luke really a friend if he is someone who will hate you for being yourself? Think about that, and the fact that he may judge you based on your sexuality, and not on your friendship. That doesn't make someone a friend, it makes them a bias and ignorant fool.
You shouldn't tell anyone until you are ready. Don't tell someone because you think you have to, you don't. It sounds like you need to spend a little more time working out who you are as it doesn't sound like you are sure whether you are gay, although it does seem you are sure you are at the least bisexual.
Just remember there is no shame in being gay, no matter what anyone tells you, and those who will judge you and quit being a friend over something as trivial as sexual orientation are not friends at all.

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