My words, read if you want, your choice...comments/constructive criticism are appreciated.

<3/Jamie


i'm lost without you
i have no light to guide my way...
...unless i'm with you
i can't look away,
i can only stare,
infectious emotion..
i'm in love with you.....
i'm yours until the day i die
i want to be your everything...
you complete me...
the odd puzzle piece i never could find.
you see me for me
not a piece here, a piece there
all of me...every last bit
i'm free, i'm happy, i'm....the way I want to be
when i'm with you
i miss you
you're right in front of me....
but so far away...
there's a giant wall...invisible wall, blocking me
a border...between me and you
i lose sleep...but not sanity
i'm not alone anymore
i have the one thing i was missing...you

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wow! I liked your poem alot! I felt like I was on a roller coaster being drug up and down... maybe I'm just weird like that! lol but I think it was very good. My props to you!

Christina

This is really great! I love this line "the odd puzzle piece i never could find." And the last line two lines are brilliant "i'm not alone anymore
i have the one thing i was missing...you"

Great job with this I really enjoyed reading it. I don't think I could criticise it in any way it was fantastic!~Silvermist~

great poem! i also loved that line about the odd piece of the puzzle could never find...and the ending is damn good...good stuff.

(this is randomness...i read a story about a rapist...pissed me off...and inspired this...just off the top of my head stuff)

you haven't earned the right to be great
all i see is a loser
you haven't seen anything yet
you're just a child with no common sense
you're stupid, you're a liar, you're a theif
ask before you steal someone's innocence
i hate you
you've ruined their lives...
i'd kill you if i could get away with it
rapist isn't how you impress the ladies...
sentimentalist bastard...keeping souls for pleasure
you're walking on a broken mirror,
careful where you step
they might catch you...
or you could get away...again...
say your prayers...
i'm coming for you...
i'll steal your soul...

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United States of America, looks like another silent night
As we're sung to sleep by philosophies that save the trees and kill the children

But You called me beautiful when you saw my shame
And You placed me on the wall...anyway...

just short stuff, haven't really been able to write lately.


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blame it on the innocent...
...they'll never know the truth
shame on you...
...can't you tell the truth?
liar, liar...
...you burn like peroxide
clever bastard...
...you can run, but you cannot hide
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EDIT: BLOCK HAS LIFTED.
"Cipher"

there's nothing left here at all..
nobody to tell me i'm wrong
nothing left to get in my way
i don't have to prove myself
no longer an unfair game

i showed them something they couldn't see
they couldn't understand..
i guess they were scared
scared of what they couldn't change
such cowards, they fled the land

-chorus-
i'm a sinner, not an outlaw..
i'm not perfect, i've got my flaws
i'm the different one, the one that got away
i'm the one they ignored, i had something to say
you'll listen to me now, you'll listen here today

i'm alone and i like it
i don't have to put up with their shit
nobody to push me too hard
i don't have to be set aside
i'm gonna hold on to my pride

i'm not dumb enough to hold back
i'm not afraid

-chorus-

there's nothing left here at all..


cipher means:

a person of no influence
a quantity of no importance

I feel so much better now

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it could be better, it could be worse
i like how it is, i don't like for things to change
it's a sentimental feeling, i hope this is how it stays
i have no fear, i confide in you, i trust you
hearts beat faster, time slows down, but it doesn't stand still
i don't want tomorrow, i want today
i see what isn't wrong, i see what's there...
the night sky blares with the bright stars, the tiny dots of splendor
i know it's the same sky you and i look at, so far away, but so close
miles are nothing but borders, walls to be walked over, lines to be crossed
i don't see you, but i feel you within me
nothing comes without struggle if it's worthwhile

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k, old old old poem.

Mirrored

I look in the mirror
Someone's staring back at me
A girl with a tear-stained face
Smeared with mascara
Tears of black running down her face
She's angry
She's been hurt
She doesn't want to be touched
She thinks she's a failure
She wasn't good enough
The girl with the tear stained face
Stares back at me with a tear in her eyes
She rares back and hits the mirror
Shiny pieces of her lay on the floor
Shards of her heart, broken into bits
A hundred pieces reflecting how useless she is
I am the girl with the tear-stained face
I'm angry
I don't want to be touched
I am a failure
I didn't want to bleed
I didn't want to be in pain
The tear in my eye falls to my cheek
And drops onto the glass
I see how pitiful I am
All I wanted was an apology
Two words, "I'm sorry."
I was ignored instead
I want you to leave
I can see you standing behind me
I want you to suffer
I want your blood on the floor
You can be the one in the mirror
Looking at how greedy and hateful you are
You'll hate yourself for who you've become
And what you've done to yourself...and me
I loved you too much to hit you back
I gave you all of me, all of what I am
It wasn't enough, it wasn't perfect
One day I'll break you
Like I broke the mirror
Revenge in the purest form

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Rawk, more Jamie writing..

Excellent.

That one rocks...in so many ways.

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"It is dreadful when something weighs on your mind, not to have a soul to unburden yourself to. You know what I mean. I tell my piano the things I used to tell you."

thank you.

Now, more older stuff. Warning...looong post.

-The One-

I can show you what you cannot see
Deep inside the depths of me
I shine beyond the sun
I am your refuge, I am the one
Slowly eating away at your soul
I can make you whole
Once again I prove you wrong
You will not wait long
Voices chant for you to join them above
Do not leave me, for you are the one I love
Do not depart, we will be as one
I shine beyond the sun
I am your refuge, I am the one

-Innocent Girl-

I can't go back to how it was
The times I was happy, the times you cared
I can't see why it went wrong
I can't see why it isn't still the same
No more pictures, no more lies
All the truth, brutal honesty
You can't see that I'm still her
The little girl you once loved
The innocent girl
The innocent mind
Your perfect little girl
That you once loved, but let fade away
I can't go back to how it was
The times I was happy, the times you cared
I can't see why it went wrong
I can't see why it isn't still the same
Can you clarify?
Or is it still such a secret?
Is it still the same old routine?
Where you lie, comfort and encourage me?
Or is it where you tell the truth, hurt, and punish me?

-Give to Me-

Give to me
Your thoughts, hopes, and dreams
Give to me
Your innocence
I'll guard you from all evil
Widdershins is the answer
Go back to before your loss
Give to me
Your sadness, anger, and torment
Give to me your pain
I'll guard you from all evil
Feed the fire with rage
Watch it burn to ashes
Give to me
Your mind, heart, and soul
Give to me
Your everything
I'll guard you from all evil
Bound by hate, set free by understanding
No honor until the work is done
Give to me
Your truth
Give to me
Your ending
I'll guard you from all evil
Ashes blown away, coals gone cold
A young woman weeps as her heart breaks
Her love lay in a casket by the sea
Years later, no flowers on his grave
Nothing left but bones and dust

-Go Away-

I am nothing to everyone but you
Can't we just go away?
Make everything go away?
I find peace in your presence
I find comfort when I'm with you
Can't we just go away?
Make everything go away?
Where it's all just fine for us
Nobody to stop us
Just me and you
Can't we just go away?
Make everything go away?
Where there's no regrets
No fears and no lies
Just us, me and you alone
Can't we just go away?
Make everything go away?

-Destroy Me-

I want you to destroy me,
Break me into tiny little bits.
Grind me into dust,
And throw me into the creek.
I'll float away and never be seen,
Just one with the creek bottom.
Burn me into ashes,
Hold me in your hands.
Bury the ashes by the cotton field,
Out by the back forty.
Cut me so i will bleed,
Let me drip into the water.
Watch the water turn red,
And see it flow towards the bridge.

-Untitled-

I spend so much time
Searching for what's never there.
I need help in so many ways
But who even cares?
Its like what I want is out of my reach
Unfair, but we're all even in a way.
Can you see me
Or are you blinded by the glamour of today?
Overlooking the greatness of us
Never telling me how you feel.
I feel alone without you
I'm supposed to be real.
I can't be real without you
It makes no difference
You cannot see.

-What I Know-

If you could see i'd show you what i know
Of the skies and all of the sea
Of the birds and the many flowers
Of the glistening waters and cotton fluff clouds
Of the sounds and the melodies
If you could hear i'd tell you all i know
Of the earth and the human race
Of the beauty inside of all of us
Of the burning flames that never extinguish
Of the glorious things that exist within
If you could feel i'd show you emotions
Of anger, the fury of mankind
Of love, what makes life worthwhile
Of hate, what fuels the fire
Of sorrow, sadness in those who have lost something dear

-Beautiful Nothing-

I've been accused
I've been thrown around
Just a rag doll that's been around too long
Waiting to be patched up and sewn back together
I'm just your beautiful nothing
Someone to use, abuse and lie to
Your beautiful nothing
Just someone to slowly kill
No regret, no shame for you
Your beautiful nothing
Someone to humilate so you feel powerful
You make me feel weak and useless
So low that I can't see anything anymore
Your beautiful nothing
Just here for your pleasure
So you can thrive on my pain
Your words bearing down on my head
Just a beautiful nothing
Here for you to destroy
Here for you to bring me down
Here just to be your beautiful nothing
I'm all I'll ever be
Just your beautiful nothing

-Untitled-

Just looking at you makes me want to scream
Maybe I'm crazy, or it may be a fucked up dream
Am I stupid? Am I sane? Am I supposed to know what's real and what's not?
I used to love you, you gave me strength to remain
I've given you all I have, what else do you have to gain?
My dignity? My pride? You have everything but my soul!
Should I feel bad that I have no more to give?
Without you it seems as if I have no reason to live
It's not easy anymore, everything seems like a ten-step plan
But I'm not even on the first step, I'm still too scared to leave my house
You don't call anymore, I don't know where you are
I'm stuck deciding whether to live like a sociopath running wild and destroying you...
Or living in a padded room where if I mess up I can slam myself against the wall and I won't feel a thing
I can't be free, my worst enemy is what lies inside my head
I can't unravel the cord of my emotion...
I can't fray to release what's yearning to come out

-Missing You-

It's 2 am and I'm alone again
Just here without you
Miles and miles away
But the only thing between us is air
The pain brought on is harsh
Just trying to breathe is hard
Just trying to speak is torture
It's hard to live like this
The blinds drawn shut
The candle blown out with a smile
The pictures thrown onto the lawn
Everything broken into bits
I'm here without you
Promise me you'll come home

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