J e n z

My emotions are all over the place
I cant help it
Just as tears fall down my face
I wish more than anything
that you didn't break my heart
i should have kept everything hidden
for i would be better off from the start

I gave myself to you
you make me feel special and cared
but was it really worth it
for the pain i was feeling right now
I still love you
i guess a part of me always will
But i feel like ive been made out to be a fool

You cant possibly understand
how im feeling or make it better
If you had let me take things in my own hands
Then maybe i wouldn't be here
that you would have to say your sorry

Sometimes Im ok
and then im not
I just dont know anymore what to think
I begin to cry
and further into depression i sink

You say it will be okay
but how can you know that
I hurt everyday
you say you care
But there aint any way.



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and also i did this:

I am too mean
I am too cruel
why are you even around me
When you would be better off
without me in your life dont you see

I am heartless liar
hurting people wherever i go
Its like i am fire
If you dont wana get burnt, get out of my way

Im not the person you seem to think i am
your delusional if you think im all good and nice
because im not
why cant you see
Im not good enough for you.. or anyone for that matter
always upsetting or getting people mad
i guess thats the way it'll be
so if i were you
stay away from me

Prove me wrong that im not like this
tell me
show me
That Im different from what i believe

so this is the end
this is where i desend
think you'll be sad if im not around?..
i doubt it
your better off without my presence in your life

Euge

Very good poems. I really liked the first one.
keep posting.


Eugenia Argentina!

Kaydee

excellent... Hey try and keep all your stuff in one thread... (generally they lock it if you dont) its just easier to keep up with things if you have a thread.. nobody will write in your thread Hope to hear more from ya!

J e n z

yeah, sorry about that!..i promise next time i will

Tazzy devil

very beautiful jenzy. and its sad. i hope u feel better soon

J e n z

aww thank you!

J e n z

this is not much but here



Ive come to a realization
which hopefully will help me
to make me better, to make me sane
Im not going to think of the bad things
and being sad and depressed
good things and times is what im all about

Thinking back to sept
just brings smiles on my face
so thats what im trying to do
bring the smiles and not the sadness


You still can make me smile
you can make me laugh
no matter what has happened
Im just still glad you dont hate me
and i have you in my life

J e n z

ok ive got more..like 10 of them..some are bad/angry..some are sad

I remember
That one day
when you first kissed me
you surprised me, what can i say

On the elevator
The first time we met
i was shy
even if you dont think thats true

They knew who i was really meeting
As i was told
"you dont do and re-do your hair and lipglose just for anyone"

I was so nervous when you came up to me
Im surprised, you couldn't see
I wanted to be
My cheery, talkative, hyper self
but everytime you looked at me and smiled
it gave me butterflys inside

I wish i could go back in time
back to that one weekend
to the one happy time i wanna find

There's nothing i would change
well ok thats not the case
a few bits but the majority
i would remain the same

Your lips were so soft and sweet
making my heart skip a beat
but i wonder
what made you kiss that day

did you see
Your the one i wanna be around
to be hugging, kissing, touching and having inside me

Thats a time i will cherish
for as long as im here
every memory
will always be with me
even if i cant have you
thats what i'll do

ImmortaLWounDs45

I love your poems.
They are full of emotion and it feels like
what it is like to be in someone elses shoes.

J e n z

awww thank u, it means alot... i was on a poem writing freak last night..i have more if u wanna hear?.