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Maybe your stomach has physically shrunk. If you had eating disorders then it was probably caused by that.

I had a fever last year and I couldn't eat for a week, but when I recovered I tried to go back to my old eating habits, but I couldn't eat very much at all, and when I did I felt sick. It was because my stomach had shrunk.

If you build it up slowly, eat small amounts and gradually increase them it might help. It worked for me anyway.

I hope I could help.

Same here, well, sorta.
I haven't been eating much lately either, nothing looks appealing to me neither. This has been since I took heavy antiobotics for some diseases. But you said you haven't taken drugs in a while, depends on what kind of drugs you mean. If it contains the other ones only, have you taken antibiotics lately?

I recall a period in my life where any food would disgust me, only by seeing it. Eating it was hell. I think I had fever etc then, but you don't seem to have that.

About the being tired part, try to get your blood checked. It might be anemia. I have it, and I am devestated. Or Pfeiffer. Very tiring too.

Hmm I think the fact you can't eat is related to a certain illness you may not be aware of now, yet. It may only be in development.

I'd get your blood checked, helps a bunch to find out what's going on.

if you give someone food after they have not eaten for a long time, the body can get sick. the stomach is not sued to it. what kinds of food are you eating? heavier things will make you feel nauseous.

I suggest going to a doctor. Perhaps it is IBS, or some other muscle-related illness. tell your doctor that everything you eat makes you nauseous, and you really have not experience hunger or a desire to eat. loss of appetite is a side effect of many drugs (legal prescriptions and illegal), as well as many different disorders, such as depression, anxiety, etc.

You mentioned you have not taken any serious drugs. Was drug use a regular thing for you? If so, perhaps this is your body's wway of adjusting to the changes in your system.

About being tired, take some vitamin. perhaps add some exercise to your routine. Being skinny and being healthy are 2 different things. If you have no appetite and are tired all the time, that is not healthy.

So, try eating different types of food separately, and see if they make you less ill. perhaps fruit upsets you, but bread won't. raw food, like fruit and uncooked vegetables, are harder on the stomach. After that comes cooked veggies. Meats are hard to digest. most people find bread the easiest, but there is little nutritional value in bread. So, see if certain foods are upsetting you first. If you find it is all food, please get to a doctor or a nurionist for more answers.

Well im no medicial student.But the it sound's that the problem is stress related.There could be a lot of reason's why it happened.Stress as I just said,Drugs (Even tough you only took them like a month ago that still could be the problem.So you shoud just eat small portion's of food to ease yourself into eating again ,AND LAY OF THE DRUGS,also take it easy and dont stress yourself out.That's my 2 cent's on the matter.Also if all of the above fail's go to you GP.
Well hope everything goes well for you April:D .

You've been having these problems for several months, yet you claim the last time you did a major drug was a month ago. Not to mention I'm certain it's much more recent than you're letting on, given our discussions. You're on a message board, asking people who have either no medical knowledge, or a limited means to diagnose you. The only one who can help you is a professional, so while you're meandering about, pick up your phone and make an appointment. If you don't fear for your health and honestly tell yourself you don't need a doctor, then stop wasting everyone's time with questions you yourself don't seem to care about. But, you obviously do care, so do yourself a favor, and figure this out before it gets more serious. It might be drugs, it might be an ulcer from stress, might be stomach cancer...I'm sure you don't want these issues to linger in your system.

I honestly believe its stress. If you're sure its not from an eating disorder,then your best bet is stress. Stress can always do this to you.
I know how it feels to have to force food down,it hurts like hell. You get the feeling of wanting to throw up every single time and your favourite foods become just kind of..sick.
April,you're incredibly strong,its amazing. I know you're going to make it past this in no time. It'll take some time,but things always look up. Remember,in our lowest points,things can only look up. <3
-Jessica

it could be depression my mom is depressed and she cant eat and shes pretty tired alot you said you were stressed that also might be it or it could be part of depression?

Wow, I am feeling the same way! I'm not stressed (it's summer time!), I have been upset about some things but not enough to make me not freakin eat. Normally when I think about eating (even now) I feel nauseous. I don't know why! I have never done drugs, and I don't drink alchohal that often. I think perhaps my body is changing or something, but really I have no idea.

i'm pretty much going through the same thing right now April. it has been going on for the past 2 months or so and i have no idea what it could be. i'm not sick or anything, i just feel full after a few bites of something. i'm really cluleless, but i guess it's nothing really serious because i do manage to eat some, just not as much as i used to.

best bet is to go see a doctor. as much as you may not want to, they can narrow it down to what is causing it.

i think it is stress, too. do you have any problems with friends, family, school? you have already said that it is not an eating disorder...
it's good that you want to talk about it. and i really hope that you will manage this problem.

best wishes, nadine

dude the exact same thing happens to me. sometimes i only eat like half a meal a day for a week or so because i'm just not hungry :\ it's lame, but goes away [at least for me]. i have no idea what it's all about.. i wish i could help you. i'd be helping myself too! haha.

That is the same way I am feeling.^^ After a couple bites i am full and then after my stomach hurts. It's weird. I think I should probably see a doctor or something but it didn't seem so serious. I wish I could help you too but I'm not a doctor, so I can't. I try to eat at least 3 meals a day but I can't because I feel like im going to throw up. I have never had an eating disorder and I am skinny as well. I haven't done any drugs or anything so this is kinda strange. Anyway, hope all goes well for you.

well i have the same problem...i am 18 and i am only 43 kg...which ofcourse causes me a lot more other problems....when i am hungry i may see or even smell the cooked food and then i stop from being hungry or i dont feel like being hungry..i may eat and then i want to throw up...i had a lot of fights with my dad cause he wanted me to eat but i couldnt...

anw i found out that because i am very stressful and i have a lot of things in my mind i dont eat! This may be a reason for you also or you may feel down and not being in the mode to eat...how you feel play a big role to that... i think nothing is going to change UNTIL you and only you deside to start eating..and eat what you like...eat small meals...everything is in your mind..if you could make your mind think that you are hungry then you will be hungry...But seeing a doctor a dietitian for example will be great!!!

* I have a trick....when you eat put someone to talk to you so you dont think that you are eatting...I do that ...i try to talk when we have our meals or put my sisters talking to me while i am eatting it works...!

I know the feeling and its hard... Dont think about it...I will be over...I am still waiting for that time by trying!!! :)

p.s. sorry for my english

Just the fact that I always feel physically sick after I eat makes me wonder if it might be something else. I'm scared to see a doctor because EVERYTIME I go there for anything they somehow relate it to my bulimia in the past. And I know it isn't that.

It's really just the physically ill part that bothers me.
I've been tired an incessant amount lately as well...Which is very, very strange for me.

Does anyone know what it might be?

I've gone through that before, and it was because of stress and anxiety. I would go all day not even feeling hunger, and when I thought about eating my stomach just felt sick, so I wouldn't eat. Even chocolate wasn't appealing, which for me is bad. ;) I think not eating only made things worse though. If I were you I'd try just having regular, light meals even if you don't feel hungry. And even though this probably isn't what you want to hear, you should go to the doctor so you can find out what's really going on.

You'll be in my thoughts,
Kelsie <3

I used to have a similar thing ... kinda.

During the last part of college and for a year or so after, I had problems where my stomach would just revolt for no apparant reason. Sometimes it was easier not to eat than deal with the nausea.

In retrospect it was probably (at least partly) stress related.

What I found that helped me more than anything was to learn to eat really healthily. Once I layed off the junk food, greasy stuff, and convenience food (pasta-in-a-box type things), I started to feel much better.

I'll also echo everyone else who said you should talk to your doctor.

I did, just to make sure it wasn't allergies, or something more serious.


Hope you feel better!

About the being tired part, try to get your blood checked. It might be anemia. I have it, and I am devestated. Or Pfeiffer. Very tiring too.

I know I'm anemic. My stomach has a very, very hard time digesting red meat now because of the eating disorder, like I said. So it's difficult for me to eat it. I take iron supplements though. What's Pfeiffer though..? I've never heard of that. I should be getting my blood check next month sometime. (I have to get it every 2 months to see if my electrolytes are still balanced....They use that to tell if I'm throwing up again or not. It sucks.) Next month is my last month, though so I'll probably bring it up wiith them....Thanks Julie. <3


Jo...Thanks for the advice. I try and eat lots of fruit, but I'm one of those freaky people who doesn't eat bread haha. And I take all kinds of vitamins.

The drug with was quite frequent with me. I stoped taking m prescribed medication (I was on all kinds of anti-depressants, but I hate stuff like that. I feel like I'm strong enough to deal with things without something messing with my brain, you know?) I did have a little bit of a drug problem after I got out of the eating disorder...Ecstacy and cocaine mainly. I've pretty much quit that now though. I had had one little slip up the other night, and two weekends ago I did, E...But that's alot better considering it used to be almost a dail occurance. I've lost way too many friends and it's just not worth it. Drugs change you and you don't even realize that. I don't want that. But that was also somewhat prior to this, so I don't that that it is related.

I know I'm depressed..I can't deny that, but I still have hope. I know I'm a strong person and I know one day things will work out. Whether or not it is related I'm not sure.

It's just the problem with going to the doctor is they threaten to hospitalize me yet again. I was there for severe depression/ "self destructive behavior", etc" last year. I was a bad cutter (which is still EXCEEDINGLY hard for me sometimes, but I'm working on it) And I got out against their will....They do anything to get me back in. I used to be psychotic...Literally ;)

.So you shoud just eat small portion's of food to ease yourself into eating again ,AND LAY OF THE DRUGS,also take it easy and dont stress yourself out.That's my 2 cent's on the matter.Also if all of the above fail's go to you GP.

I've layed off the drugs, and I do m best not to stress haha...THere's a bunch of things going on right now. Custody battle over my younger sibilings with my fucked up parents...Suicide threats..The whole nine yards. OH, and people sending me endless amounts of nudges on MSN messenger. *winkwinknudgenudge* ...





Maybe we're all just psycho. Are you guys all at least trying to make sure you eat enough to get the proper nutrients and stuff? Everyone should try and make vitamins if they can and if you're a girl...Try and take something with iron. If you're not actually getting sick, and you're not purposely trying to starve yourself, I bet you'll grow out of it. It's just the feeling like shit part that's making me wonder.

Thanks for all the advice guys. You guys are wicked \m/

April <3

I know I'm anemic. My stomach has a very, very hard time digesting red meat now because of the eating disorder, like I said. So it's difficult for me to eat it. I take iron supplements though. What's Pfeiffer though..? I've never heard of that. I should be getting my blood check next month sometime. (I have to get it every 2 months to see if my electrolytes are still balanced....They use that to tell if I'm throwing up again or not. It sucks.) Next month is my last month, though so I'll probably bring it up wiith them....Thanks Julie. <3

You're welcome. So Pfeiffer is a disease that starts with fever, pain in the throat etc, it's a (funny word, sorry) "exhaustion disease". You feel nothing but tired for a few months. Mononucleosis, Pfeiffer, all the same. A blood check is enough to know if you have it. But I'd doubt it for some reason.

The annoying thing about both anemia and Pfeiffer is that it takes months before there's any improvement :(

I've layed off the drugs, and I do m best not to stress haha...THere's a bunch of things going on right now. Custody battle over my younger sibilings with my fucked up parents...Suicide threats..The whole nine yards. OH, and people sending me endless amounts of nudges on MSN messenger. *winkwinknudgenudge* ...

With all your problems you still have a sense of humor a true marter.Well
I would say it's 100% stress.So here is my advice for you try not to get
caught up in other people's problems even if it's a family siutation.Just
keep youself grounded and dont let people feed off you.Be around people with good vibes and tat give off posative energy.And hopefully you will be better soon.

JamesMcFenlon Has Just Sent You A Nudge:cool:

Honestly, going to a doctor and having things checked out is your best bet.

But from experience, it could possibly be an ulcer... which are due to stress.

Actually, now that I think about it, if it's especially humid where you live (I know it is here), that can affect you in all sorts of wonky ways and really mess up your eating habits.

April; stress is extremely debilitating as others and yourself have pointed out (I'm a highly anxious person by nature, which isn't much fun). Often people eat less in times of stress so it's not unusual in that aspect.

Another possibility is that your body is having difficulties coping with the drug abuse and your eating difficulties earlier; it has been known that the body can replicate previous experiences on occasion. Phantom limb sensations for people who've had a limb amputated and psychosomatic sensations associated with previous abuse of any kind can and do occur. I do suggest seeking medical attention if this continues. I know you don't like seeing a doctor because of your past experiences, but perhaps you should seek another opinion or see another health care worker like a dietician or a counsellor.

Perhaps you could try adapting your eating habits, such as having several small meals a day (assuming you don't do that already) or by temporarily avoiding the foods that make you seem the most nauseous.

Take care <3

You say you aren't doing "serious drugs." The so-called non-serious drugs are probably what's making you sick.

*Im sorry if some of this is gross, just a warning*

Okay, so I seem to have a bit of a problem. Ever since saturday, I havent been able to eat ANYTHING without getting severly sick to my stomach, sharp pains, headache or having to go to the bathroom 5 minutes later.
If Im sick to my stomach, I feel fine everywhere else, its always just one sypmtom. And its only when I eat or drink. Which I think kind of takes out the chances of flu. Its a real problem because I work at a barn 3 days a week, and its the worst in the morning when I wake up. I have to eat or else I will get sick from NOT eating. I work for 5 hours, and its manual labor, alot of lifting and just being a barn hand (for horses) So as im working im trying to fight off being sick to my stomach and what not.

Its becoming a real problem, because the more it happens the more Im afraid to eat because I know how crappy I feel afterwards.

Im starting to write down everything I eat now, and make notes of it so I know and maybe I can find out if its from my diet.

I just though maybe someone would know something or had somewhat of an explanation. Thanks

Evvy_shies, is there a chance that you may be pregnant?

Nope. Not a chance.

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i know this thread is kind of old...er. but i feel like its important to tell everyone that if youre having stomach problems for more than 2 weeks dont ignore it, see a doctor. and if you are sure(!!) its not an eating disorder or stress or some other problem, make sure you talk to your doctor, even if they dont believe you, even when its the biggest pain in the ass.
its so easy for people, even doctors to roll their eyes and brush off a problem.

i had serious stomach and other issues, big and small, for about 5 years and everyone kept saying it was insignificant. then last june i started loosing weight, fast. i was down to about 84 lb. (5'4) by november with still no answers, i was told i was depressed, anorexic, bulimic, bipolar, attention-craved...blah blah blah. finally in december i was hospitalized, my blood pressure was 62/43 over something and my heart rate was about 32 bpm, and i didnt even realize it. there i found a doctor who believed me, she talked to me for 5 minutes and was convinced that someone with so many emotional issues would not smile as much as i did. and in the week i was there she talked with my mom and i, and after some testing i was diagnosed with lupus.

i still cant go to school but im doing much better and i feel like telling everybody not to give up. no matter how much some doctors may SUCK, you could always find one to help. and even if its not physical, you can't always fix it by yourself

crap, that was really long;)

Well, while we're on the topic of eating issues, I've got some of my own.

I have a MAJOR fear of eating in front of people. Like I'll be around friends for a few days and whenever they mention food I'll get real quiet and refuse to eat anything. I'm not even sure why I do it, I just know that I get extremely afraid and it's like I can't really see straight and I'm in a daze.

It scares me because I'm at a very high risk for an eating disorder. I have the condition RND, and because of the already disturbed mind-body connection and high stress, you are at a much higher risk than the average person of developing an eating disorder. Also, there were some food-related issues with my dad in my childhood and my therapist was very surprised to hear that I had never developed an eating disorder due to them.

I confessed all this to my best friend about a month ago and she wasn't surprised. She said that she, most of my other friends, and even some of my friends' parents are concerned about my eating. This scared me a lot.

I DON'T want to head down this path. I fight it, but sometimes it's really hard because besides the anxiety I also have bipolar disorder and during my depressive phases I don't get hungry at all. Fighting is MUCH easier when I'm manic... much easier... but anyway, I am all into fighting eating disorders and stuff, I'm about the biggest mental health activist around. Sometimes I feel like such a hypocrite pushing all this anti-eating disorder stuff when I'm at such a high risk myself. On the other hand, I feel that I'm doing pretty good considering the odds against me.

Just to clarify, I'm not super skinny or anything. I'm a healthy wieght for my height, even on the higher side because I've got a lot of muscle due to 8 years of karate.

Well, maybe you should try and talk to a doctor, or professional about that. Tell them your worried about going down that road. Maybe they can help you.

I used to be like that with the eating in front of people thing. I still kind of am... It feels weird, but I do it anyway.

I'm on this medication now that makes me like not hungry at all. Ever. I have like zero appetite. I probably wouldn't eat at all if my boyfriend didn't freak out. As sick as it is, I really like the feeling.

I've never been anorexic before, but I was bulimic for three years, and my body is forever fucked up because of it.

I've lost a whole bunch of weight since I started this medication at the beginning of June. I'm 5'8 and about 110. I get in these extremely depressed phases that tend to last for a few days, and then I can barely choke food down.

But as they always say, eating disorders have always been because of a control issue for me. Also, it seems like a sick sense of punishing myself for things I do wrong.

i used too have a really bad habit of starving myself when i was 12 but that was a long time ago!!!it was hard too get over it but i did eventually and trust me starving yourself is not a good habit i lost over 52 or 57 pounds like that and i did it all too impress a boy and afterwards i still didn't impress him!! he said i was tooooooo skinny!!oh well just nobody ever get into that habit!!!!

I've lost a whole bunch of weight since I started this medication at the beginning of June. I'm 5'8 and about 110. I get in these extremely depressed phases that tend to last for a few days, and then I can barely choke food down.

But as they always say, eating disorders have always been because of a control issue for me. Also, it seems like a sick sense of punishing myself for things I do wrong.

I noticed from reading some of your previous posts that you lost weight. I know what it's like.. I had that about a year ago, I'm also 5'8" and went down to 110 pounds. I had both anorexic and bulimic tendencies but not as long lasting and severe as yours (considering the consequences..).

Right now I'm not sure about myself, I'm acting pretty fucked up about food and most of the time I find myself ignoring it. But it's not there enough (yet) for me to seek help, even though it's like I can see and feel it coming, so I'm still scared. Sorry if I don't make sense.

Right now I'm not sure about myself, I'm acting pretty fucked up about food and most of the time I find myself ignoring it. But it's not there enough (yet) for me to seek help, even though it's like I can see and feel it coming, so I'm still scared. Sorry if I don't make sense.
If you believe that you can see it and feel it coming, then there's an issue, because there's a good chance it will come, and you'll be even more scared when that happens.

Find people that you can trust. Your parents, adults, school officials, doctors, anyone that you can feel comfortable talking to about it. It's your responsibility to nip this in the butt before it becomes a full-on problem and you find yourself in a hospital, or dead. For real... don't wait for it to creep up on you, be proactive about your health and get it before it gets you.

Thank you. I'm a little more encouraged now to maybe tell my psychiatrist (I have an appointment on the 4th).. he usually asks about it anyway. I'm just not sure what to say.

Thank you. I'm a little more encouraged now to maybe tell my psychiatrist (I have an appointment on the 4th).. he usually asks about it anyway. I'm just not sure what to say.
Just be as honest as you can. If you find that you don't know how to answer, just say that you're not sure what to say, but you're concerned all the same. ^.^

I noticed from reading some of your previous posts that you lost weight. I know what it's like.. I had that about a year ago, I'm also 5'8" and went down to 110 pounds. I had both anorexic and bulimic tendencies but not as long lasting and severe as yours (considering the consequences..).

Right now I'm not sure about myself, I'm acting pretty fucked up about food and most of the time I find myself ignoring it. But it's not there enough (yet) for me to seek help, even though it's like I can see and feel it coming, so I'm still scared. Sorry if I don't make sense.


That made sense, because it's pretty much how I feel. It's almost like I'm on the verge of falling into a full blown eating disorder again. I can't let anything pass through my lips without thinking about weight. It's ridiculous. I don't really even consider myself fat, but god... It weighs so heavily on my mind. I'm still in the stupid mindset like "hey, maybe if I lose a few more pounds, I'll be happier and my boyfriend will love me more." ...and stuff like that. It's ridiculous, I know, but for some reason I think sometimes it might be true.

I wouldn't consider myself to have an eatin issue, i do eat, but i throw up sometime after almost every meal. it's not intentional or anythin, it's stress induced. so sometimes i just don't eat cause i think it's a waste of food since i'm goin to throw it up anyway. don't know if it's an actual problem or not. i don't consider it to be. but i guess some of you might.

i just thought i'd comment on that or whatever.

Well in my life my major problem is eating... since i was a kid my parents were yelling at me during dinner time that i should eat more than i could eat so i could gain more weight. Food and weight were and are bothering me. Here i am after all those years i am still trying to put some weight. It is not that i dont want to eat, honestly i do, and when i am hungry i eat but i can not eat a lot of food. I may be hungry but I dont have the willingness or the desire to eat. I have many problems due to the fact that i am under weight. I face some problems with my period and my gynecologist said that i should put more than 10 Kg. I went to different doctors and i heard different things but all of them finished with the sentence "You should try to gain more weight". When i went to a dietician he gave me a diet that i had to follow. So for a week i did... The first day i threw up ... it was a lot of food for me and food that i didnt like...after the first week i felt lke i wanted to throw up after every meal i had...so i stopped the diet..i said that if i would eat and then throw up its like not eating so its better to eat less and not throwing up. My Economics' teacher saw that i wasn't very good psycologically because I had a lot of fights with my parents for this issue and talked to me...she told me that i should not give up and if i need anything to tell her... she then during her lesson let me eat if i was hungry :)

Now i am still skinny but i try to eat as much as i can even if i am not hungry but still i dont gain any weight. Also my genecologist told me that i will get more weight when i will stay pregnant ... and i am like okkkkkkk i am not ready for that yet....lol anw

Apryl, if in your previous avatar you had it was you and your boyfriend, i believe that you are not fat, not fat at all. In my opinion weight dont not increase or decrease the amount (?) that each person loves you. I always say if you love me...love me for what i am and not how i look.

p.s. i am so sorry if i made any grammar or something didnt make sence !

VoulaLoizou- have you ever had a check up of your digestive system? Perhaps there is a medical reason for your problem.

Apryl- if you feel like talking about it don't hesitate to send me a PM k? And I'm curious, don't answer if you don't want to.. does your boyfriend know about your problems with eating?

Apryl- if you feel like talking about it don't hesitate to send me a PM k? And I'm curious, don't answer if you don't want to.. does your boyfriend know about your problems with eating?


Yeah. He does. He gets really sad when I don't eat, so I always do just for him.

Apryl, if in your previous avatar you had it was you and your boyfriend, i believe that you are not fat, not fat at all.

Thanks, but all you could see is my face, lol.

Thanks, but all you could see is my face, lol.
Honey, your jawline said it all... no one with such a piercing jawline is anywhere close to being remotely fat. (For real.) Then again, you probably are some 400 lb. cow. ;) I think you just get embarrassed when people complement your looks.

And I wish you'd eat for yourself and not just your boyfriend. :( It's sad.

I never had anorexia, or bulemia, all I know is that for about 6 months, I ate virtually nothing, and lost 20 kilograms in less than three months.

It started one day with my waking up and not feeling hungry for breakfast, so I skipped it. After a few days, this progressed to not feeling hungry for lunch, so I would skip lunch also. Soon, I was eating half a slice of toast and a mouthful of water all day until dinner, of which I would take a few bites and feel full.

I became so thin, about 47 kilograms was my lowest. My hair was greasy all the time, no matter how many times I washed it. My ribs stuck out and I had no boobs, my hips also stuck out, and my clothes looked like sacks on me.

The sight of food made me feel ill, as did the smell. I just couldn't stomach it.

I became so ill that I collapsed one day. I had my period, and hadn't eaten all day, and the blood loss, combined with my lack of hydration and food, left me dehydrated.

I knew I was too thin, I knew I wasn't fat and I hated the way I looked, but it took me so long to start eating again. I started slowly, eating a dry buscuit here and there, until my stomach became larger and I was able to hold more food. I know weigh 53 kilograms, but still feel I am too thin. My goal weight is 60 kilograms.

Has anyone heard of an illness that makes a person lose their appetite suddenly? I'd really like to know, it might help me to know what it was I had, if it was anything, so I can deal with it should it arise once more.

Has anyone heard of an illness that makes a person lose their appetite suddenly? I'd really like to know, it might help me to know what it was I had, if it was anything, so I can deal with it should it arise once more.

Well, I'm not sure if this is what you might have had, but I know my appetite decreased dramatically when I got mono about a year and a half ago. Even after I recovered I still couldn't eat anywhere near as much as I used to. I think my appetite is just now beginning to go back to what it used to be because I can actually eat quite a bit more than like just one little thing without feeling full.

Has anyone heard of an illness that makes a person lose their appetite suddenly? I'd really like to know, it might help me to know what it was I had, if it was anything, so I can deal with it should it arise once more.
There's no specific condition that's characterized by such a thing; however, there are loads of reasons for your sudden loss of appetite. Loads. Could've been something work-related, stress, a bad bug or something just before... there are really so many possibilities.

If you were totally good and never saw it coming, then I'd have to be honest, I've never heard of such a thing. Loss of appetite can usually be traced back to some issue right before that was the trigger. Weird though.

Thanks, but all you could see is my face, lol.

Apryl... you are 5'8 and 110 lbs. I just happen to be 5'2 and I weigh 115 lbs. People say I look really skinny, but considering both of our BMIs, I'm literally fatter than you are. EAT!

Then again, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder two months ago: Bulimia. I've had Anorexia before, but that was a long time ago. I purposely make myself sick after either 1 or 2 meals a day, which has become a major habit and addiction. At the same time, though, I don't want to stop. However, the amount of throwing up I do now is not as bad as it was a month ago.

However, this is what I'd recommend to other people who either are bulimic or even fricken WANT to be bulimic: it's not worth the time or effort. It will affect your body and mind forever, and once you find out the consequences you didn't want to occur happen, there is sometimes no way to turn back. Your teeth will corode, and so will your esophogas lining. It's a nasty disease. I sometimes need to take that advice in for myself...

Apryl, I would like to tell you something. I am 5'7 1/4" and my waist measures just over 25" around. I am SKINNY AS CRAP (and I eat very well, thank you). And guess what? I weigh a little over 124 lbs. I haven't weighed 110 since I was in 7th grade, miss. So weighing 110 at 5'8" means that you are ridiculously thin. As in, model-size thin. Mmkay? :p

My advice to you is to take a good look at yourself and make a list of five things you love about your appearance (and then do it again but with how you are as a person). You SHOULD be able to say, "What?! Only five?!" and if you are, then make it ten. Learning how to distinguish what YOU think is really beautiful about yourself is a good way to improve your self image. I don't have an eating issue, but I used to have so many insecurities about myself that I didn't have much to say about what I liked, aside from my skinniness. So I started looking in the mirror and pointing out what I liked. Now, I look in the mirror and say, "Okay, my ears stick out a bit and my eyes are sometimes not completely straight, but you know what? I LOOK DAMN GOOD." ;) Haha. Sure, I still have issues with myself, but I think I'm a lot better than how I was. So, find stuff about yourself that you like and remind yourself about them every day...it will probably help in gaining your confidence back :)

Okay. I work at McDonald's. I was wondering if there was any way of resisting this wonderful place... wile working there of course.

Um. My self control sucks. I need help with it. PA-LEASE. I'm sick of being chubbeh.

Apryl, I would like to tell you something. I am 5'7 1/4" and my waist measures just over 25" around. I am SKINNY AS CRAP (and I eat very well, thank you). And guess what? I weigh a little over 124 lbs. I haven't weighed 110 since I was in 7th grade, miss. So weighing 110 at 5'8" means that you are ridiculously thin. As in, model-size thin. Mmkay? :p

My advice to you is to take a good look at yourself and make a list of five things you love about your appearance (and then do it again but with how you are as a person). You SHOULD be able to say, "What?! Only five?!" and if you are, then make it ten. Learning how to distinguish what YOU think is really beautiful about yourself is a good way to improve your self image. I don't have an eating issue, but I used to have so many insecurities about myself that I didn't have much to say about what I liked, aside from my skinniness. So I started looking in the mirror and pointing out what I liked. Now, I look in the mirror and say, "Okay, my ears stick out a bit and my eyes are sometimes not completely straight, but you know what? I LOOK DAMN GOOD." ;) Haha. Sure, I still have issues with myself, but I think I'm a lot better than how I was. So, find stuff about yourself that you like and remind yourself about them every day...it will probably help in gaining your confidence back :)


Thanks lol. I can actually name quite a few things I like about my self. I like my face, and my stomach, and my ass, and my hair. (Haha, sorry if that sounded really conceited). I don't think I look bad by any means... I mean everyday people tell me how beautiful I am. It was the first thing Shaun said to me when I met him (haha :rolleyes: ) but I guess it just seems like because people already think that about me, they're apt to judge me more because of it.

Eating really is a control thing for me. I actually like worrying about it. I don't think I'll ever completely give that up, and I don't think I really want to, to be honest.

I've recently fallen into an eating problem. Not that I've been diagnosed, just letting you know. But I guess you could say I had anorexic tendencies on and off for 3 years now. The summer before my freshman year (I'm a senior now) I went to Europe for three weeks and one, I was sick the whole time and two, I'm so picky that I barely ate at all on that trip. I don't know how many lbs I dropped but I do know that I lost two sizes in those three weeks. I even skipped my period during that time (not that I minded, lol). So when I came back I just wasn't hungry. But then I started purposely not eating and about a year ago it began to be a problem. I'm in band so from July-November I'm doing marching band which takes up like my whole life, lol. So I was down to eating just dinner (basically when I'm at home I HAVE to eat) and I was never eating dinner with my family so I was able to eat barely anything. Then when marching season ended I kept it up. Lunch is like non-existant now. Breakfast was eating only like a little bit of cereal that only has like 110 calories. Now I don't eat breakfast when I can get away with it. Dinner is eating the smallest amount I can. At the end of last school year and this past summer I was excercising all the time. As in playing DDR till I burned 900 calories (one time doing that on just a piece of toast). I ran everyday this summer and then played DDR and did sit ups and crap like that. Around April or May I started messing around with bullimia and now it's become a habit I do when I'm forced to eat or I feel like I ate too much (or ate the wrong thing) which happens a lot. I've lost almost 30 lbs now. I have periods of staying the same weight then I'll go through a period of losing pound after pound. I'm 5'1" and I weigh (atm) 120. Yea, disgusting isn't it? I have REALLY low self-esteem. I basically hate myself. But that's nothing new... And to make a long story short (ha too late) I ended up telling the wrong person about my problem so now I feel like they're taking my problem away but I don't want them to. I dunno if deep down inside it's always been a control thing for me or if this has just started but all I know is that I feel like they're taking my only control away. I don't wanna stop. I feel like I can't stop. And nobody understands. They act like they don't care. My parents act mad at me for it. It just makes it even worse and I hate it. So now I'm shutting myself out from everybody who knows about it. Except for my best friend. Ugh, I just want them to leave me alone and let me do what I want. I'm too fat to "eat normally". Whatever, I'm gonna stop now cause writing all of this is making me mad. Sorry for all who wasted their time reading this...

Okay. I work at McDonald's. I was wondering if there was any way of resisting this wonderful place... wile working there of course.

Um. My self control sucks. I need help with it. PA-LEASE. I'm sick of being chubbeh.

This probably isn't what you want to hear, but I honestly believe it's pretty much impossible to be in an environment like McDonald's and resist the constant temptation. Sure, there's a select few who have the self-control/will-power to pull it off, but for the rest of us...enviroment is the key. I'm an emotional eater, and for that reason I do not keep unhealthy foods in the house. If they were there then I would eat them in excess, and even though there may be moments when I have the will-power to resist temptation, I can't fight it all the time. In my opinion, that's one of the key's to healthy eating- setting up your environment for success. That being said, losing weight while working at McDonald's is probably a lost cause...at least it would be for me.

Has anyone heard of an illness that makes a person lose their appetite suddenly? I'd really like to know, it might help me to know what it was I had, if it was anything, so I can deal with it should it arise once more.
After reading what Princess Mary had to say, I am wondering the same thing. I have seen replies to this quote in particular, so that's why I am posting.

My problem is a little bit different, but generally it's about the same idea as what she said. Every few months (sometimes even every month) I will lose my appetite. I have no idea why, it just happens. This loss has happened when I'm perfectly happy, feeling down, or just feeling neutral. I don't know if that means it's psychological or not.

Once I feel as though I'm not hungry, it stays that way. Somehow my body can adapt though, and I'll still have the same amount of energy hardly eating any food just as I would having my two regular meals a day (I skip breakfast because I think I may have acid reflux- different story). Eventually after a few days leading to a week, the problem catches up with me. Then I have to start forcing myself to eat normally again, which takes a little while to get used to.

I have no eating disorders, and I never have. I actually eat more than most people do. This is probably because I am so skinny- I have a very high metabolism. I still want to figure out why this happens to me, because it is so irregular, and when it happens, it really disrupts my life.

Sorry for the rant, but I wanted to see if anyone else felt the way I do.

Eating really is a control thing for me. I actually like worrying about it. I don't think I'll ever completely give that up, and I don't think I really want to, to be honest.

I know exactly how you feel. I am a control freak. I like to control everything about myself - even other people (when I can, that is ;) ). Right now, I'm trying to control my dad to take me to the Ev concert in Montreal. Wish me luck, LOL.

I usually don't post in threads like this because it's so ... personal, and I'm not one to open up to anyone. But, hey, this is EvBoard. And for some reason, I feel I can trust you all. <3

I don't think I have a problem, not just yet. It was worse a couple months ago, but I'm doing not too bad now. I still have my days, but I try to put all the thoughts aside and just go ahead and eat before I change my mind. I don't know exactly how much I weigh - I haven't weighed myself in a couple years now - but I do know that I weigh more than what I look. I don't even know how my mind got wrapped around the idea that I had to weigh less ... I think it started something like what happened to Princess Mary - skipping a meal here and there until it got to be a habit. If I had breakfast, then I wouldn't eat until supper (by breakfast, I mean toast, or a couple Eggos or Toaster Strudels). I skipped lunch completely. If I woke up later in the morning (like past 9 am), then I would skip breakfast and just have something around noon-ish for lunch. Junk food doesn't really exist to me anymore - maybe a small treat once a day or something. I love sweets, I really do, but I just can't ... stand to eat them anymore.

I still usually don't have breakfast, but I do try to have a decent lunch. Because of what happened before, my stomach has gotten smaller, and I can't eat too much without feeling uncomfortably full or that I'm about to be sick. I don't really let it get to the point where my stomach is growling, but sometimes ... it just happens. Like this morning, but luckily my dad decided to pull into Tim Hortons. I got a bagel and Iced Capp (my favourite :D ). But other than that, I didn't have anything until supper, which we had after 8 pm tonight. Unusual time for us, but that's just how it worked out tonight. Actually, I shouldn't say I didn't have anything else ... I did have a sliver of pie around noon-ish at the restaurant my mom works at.

I don't think I really have anything else to say now. I feel that this issue is related to other ones I have and I AM a controlling person. I haven't told anyone about this (or anything else I feel) because I feel that they wouldn't understand, which is the pattern that seems to be consistant. Or I'll just push them away, which always happens. I'd never tell my parents - they'd just ship me off. I'm sure you feel the same way about telling people your true feelings, Apryl - you feel that it's better off to remain in secret (at least that's how I feel about my situation).

So, I'm going to keep reading this thread and hopefully continue feeling comfortable posting in it. I really hope that you, Apryl (and everyone else that posted in this thread), and I, can get around this ... addiction. It really does start to control you and take over. If you ever, ever need someone to talk to, or just need to yell or rant at someone, my PM box is always open. And that goes for everyone else too. <3

AmberLynn07-- Some things I wanted to say to you... first of all your weight is healthy right now. You have a BMI of 22.7 (healthy is between 18.5 and 25) which is considered close to ideal. I was reading your story and recognized myself so much in your feeling of not wanting people to know, just letting them do what you want. But I really want to ask you, why are you doing this? Do you think if you're thinner, you'll be better or hotter or more confident? Cause honestly... it's scary how you can lose your "goal" and completely lose yourself in an eating problem like yours. Believe me, I know. It looks like you have a busy life and you're exhausting your body by not eating.

And something I just wanted to say... maybe for those who want to try and break the spiral. If you eat breakfast, it gives your metabolism a start. If you skip breakfast, your metabolism will go slower. If you stop eating, your body will adjust by barely metabolizing at all. This is how several people I know lost a considerable amount of weight recently-- just by having a regular eating pattern. If you eat three meals a day and if you need more energy, two or three healthy snacks, it's most healthy for your metabolism and your body.


Oh and Apryl.. you can also set yourself a goal of a healthy diet (even if it's still minimal for the "standards") and worry about that. Or worry about staying the same weight, but put it a little higher. These are things I did for myself and they worked for quite a while. Cause your weight is really really low right now.. you have a BMI of 16.7. Minimum weight for a healthy BMI for a person your size is 122 pounds. I don't know if this would work for you but the last time I had eating problems and wanted to simply get out of the "danger zone", I set myself that goal. The minimum weight (which was exactly the same for me as it is for you cause I am 5'8" also). Maybe it'll work for you. I know you weighed 118 recently cause I saw it in one of your posts. Even that would be a lot better for you than 110.... which I assume you know damn well, too. But hey.

Gotta add.. I was really glad to read that like those things about yourself. That is really really a good thing. Thumbs up.

Detail.freak- I do it basically to feel better about myself. Like I said, I literally hate myself. Too much in fact. I think I'm enormous. I say that I'm too fat to be able to eat. All I see now are thin people. It's like normal or overweight people are ghosts to me and I just see right through them. Then I have my stupid band director who looks anorexic herself and I'm around her SOO much that it's killing me. Now it's becoming a control thing only cause people around me are telling me to eat and I'm like "No, it's my body. If I wanna hurt it with this then so be it. Just let me do what I want". A big problem I have is that it seems my family's life revolves around food and I HATE that. My parents are very overweight themselves so that doesn't help. But all they think about is food. "Have you eaten? When are you gonna eat? We need to eat at this time so we can all eat together." UGH! Just stop already!! My god... and this is my senior year which means next summer I'll be moving. So I'll be able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want. So yea, I'm doing it to lose weight, feel better about myself, and now it's almost a control thing.

I know exactly how you feel. I am a control freak. I like to control everything about myself - even other people (when I can, that is ;) ). Right now, I'm trying to control my dad to take me to the Ev concert in Montreal. Wish me luck, LOL.


Trying to get your dad to take you to a concert doesn't really classify as an extreme desire for control over your life, just to point that out. Also, it sounds like you could eat of eat enough, just not really healthy enough. Tim Hortons bagels + Iced Caps = about the most unhealthy thing ever. Same with those toaster strudel things you're talking about. It seems like you're trying to lose weight by eat small amounts of shitty foods. You should try and be healthy instead by eating lots of healthy foods. You don't sound too much like you have an eating disorder to me. You wouldn't be eating that stuff if you were anorexic, and you would be weighing yourself all the time. It sounds like you're at risk, so please, please don't go down that path. Be healthy. And eating disorder is not somewhere you want to go.
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Trying to get your dad to take you to a concert doesn't really classify as an extreme desire for control over your life, just to point that out. Also, it sounds like you could eat of eat enough, just not really healthy enough. Tim Hortons bagels + Iced Caps = about the most unhealthy thing ever. Same with those toaster strudel things you're talking about. It seems like you're trying to lose weight by eat small amounts of shitty foods. You should try and be healthy instead by eating lots of healthy foods. You don't sound too much like you have an eating disorder to me. You wouldn't be eating that stuff if you were anorexic, and you would be weighing yourself all the time. It sounds like you're at risk, so please, please don't go down that path. Be healthy. And eating disorder is not somewhere you want to go.
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It's most definitely a road that I do not want to go down.

It's not the fact that I don't eat. I do, but not nearly as much as I used to. Of course, my parents haven't noticed because I always have dinner with them. But if for some reason I'm home by myself for the day, I'll eat like I said in my last post, or not at all. I know eating disorders or problems are both physical and psychological, but it's more psychological for me. Like I'll think about the next meal and what I'm going to have, etc. It drives me nuts, it really does. I have enough thoughts floating around my brain without food thoughts too. I read on a website (a good, informative one - not one of those ones that are pro-anorexic and triggering) that a person can still have an eating disorder even if they are not showing it physically - according to them, just thinking about it all the time is classified as an eating disorder too. I'll try and dig up the website if I can later on, as I can't think of it at the top of my head in the early hours of the morning. And I'd probably be weighing myself all the time too, but we don't have a scale anymore. It broke a while ago and my mom hasn't gotten a new one. And I'm glad she hasn't because I'm afraid to look at it. When I used to babysit my little cousin back in March, I used to use my aunt's scale when I could - and was disappointed to see that the number didn't change. Oh, and I guess using my example of me being a control freak wasn't the greatest one, was it? Just trying to have a LOL moment, even though I should have been serious from the start. I'm just not used to be so honest, that's all. But, really, I'm a perfectionist, and no matter how hard I try, I can never meet my standards.

Anyhow, I've rambled on enough. It's really late and I'm probably going to begin not to make sense. But, I'm really going to try not to go down that path, Apryl, I really am. And I hope you can stay away from it too. You're a strong person and you can do it. <3

Detail.freak- I do it basically to feel better about myself. Like I said, I literally hate myself. Too much in fact. I think I'm enormous. I say that I'm too fat to be able to eat. All I see now are thin people. It's like normal or overweight people are ghosts to me and I just see right through them. Then I have my stupid band director who looks anorexic herself and I'm around her SOO much that it's killing me. Now it's becoming a control thing only cause people around me are telling me to eat and I'm like "No, it's my body. If I wanna hurt it with this then so be it. Just let me do what I want". A big problem I have is that it seems my family's life revolves around food and I HATE that. My parents are very overweight themselves so that doesn't help. But all they think about is food. "Have you eaten? When are you gonna eat? We need to eat at this time so we can all eat together." UGH! Just stop already!! My god... and this is my senior year which means next summer I'll be moving. So I'll be able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want. So yea, I'm doing it to lose weight, feel better about myself, and now it's almost a control thing.

I recognize myself in a lot of what you said. I ALWAYS notice thin people and I guess I envy them, too. I've been doing OK for a while but lately I find myself getting mad at myself for eating "too much" (which is actually considered "normal" by the standards).
Like Apryl suggested for Return To Chaos- maybe it's an idea to just eat healthy things for instance when your family wants you to eat. Vegetables, fruit and a bunch of other foods actually stimulate your metabolism and they can help you lose weight. I know it's a control issue as well as a looks issue, but there are other things you can control without hurting yourself. And I hope you can find something... because over time it will turn more and more into a control issue and a habit and it is REALLY hard to get back on a healthy path.

I need advice about this:
My mom and my dad had split up over a year ago, when my mom had left she hardly ate because she couldn't afford it. But now whenever she eats she gets sick and she said that she's gonna go back to not eating like she had in the beginning. Iv told her that this isn't a good thing and she should see someone like a doctor about it but she won't. Im really worried about my mom, she weighed 90 pounds when she stopped eating, and thats not a healthy weight seeing as shes 5 foot 4. I don't think she'll listen to me, but I don't want anything happening to her that would harm her in any way, anyone have any good advice to help me get through to her?

I need advice about this:
My mom and my dad had split up over a year ago, when my mom had left she hardly ate because she couldn't afford it. But now whenever she eats she gets sick and she said that she's gonna go back to not eating like she had in the beginning. Iv told her that this isn't a good thing and she should see someone like a doctor about it but she won't. Im really worried about my mom, she weighed 90 pounds when she stopped eating, and thats not a healthy weight seeing as shes 5 foot 4. I don't think she'll listen to me, but I don't want anything happening to her that would harm her in any way, anyone have any good advice to help me get through to her?


If this seems as if its going to persist, you need to talk to somebody you trust and she trusts to get her help. Maybe a little consouling?
The reason she is getting sick is because her body is not used to consistently consuming food, so its "rejecting" the food.
After recovering from the same problems, it took me almost 4 months to get back to normal consumption.The first time I did eat anything it wasnt pretty either. But its one of things you have to work through. Eating items that are a little salty and more towards bread are good. She just needs to literally work with her body to get it back. Drink gatorade and propel, things like that. I hope this helped.

I just read through this whole thread, and let me tell you, reading some of these posts was like reading my own diary.

I've always been really shy and self-conscious, but it's gotten worse as I get older. When I was 13, my self-image problems really kicked into high gear, and my desire to lose weight started shortly after that, even though I was only 96 lbs.

Up until February of 2005, my weight was never really something I thought about. There were a lot of things I didn't like about my physical appearance, but my weight wasn't one of them. I'm not really sure what caused me to change and start thinking differently, all I know is that I started eating less. Not significantly less, but like, having only one serving of pasta instead of two... stuff like that. If I had dessert, I'd have a piece of fruit, instead of my usual bowl of ice cream. I wasn't trying to be super-model thin, I just wanted to try to lose a little bit of chub here and there, y'know?

That kind of behavior went on and off for about a year, but it never got really bad until March of 2006.

The last time I had weighed myself was when I weighed 96 lbs. It had been over a year since then, so out of curiosity, I stepped onto the scale. When I saw that I weighed over 100 lbs., I freaked out. It sounds stupid that that would set me off... but it did. I've been really thin my entire life. I was used to being skin-and-bones, so when I hit puberty and started gaining weight like my body was supposed to do, I hated it. I wanted to stay skin-and-bones.

And that's when things really started to get worse. I started skipping lunch almost every day. Somtimes I would skip breakfast and eat an apple at 11:00 a.m. or so, and that would be both my breakfast and lunch. I ate as little as possible at dinner, but that was harder to do because my parents would have noticed. I also started exercising and dancing a lot. I started going to pro-ana websites that would motivate me to stop eating, and to get tips on things to do to take my mind off the feeling of hunger. I started collecting pictures of models and celebrities who were stick-thin, and I would look at them whenever I started to feel like I wanted to eat.

Things have died down a bit since then... I'm back to my typical on-and-off ways. I start to feel like I'll never lose weight, so I give up for a while... but losing weight is still always on my mind, and those thoughts are what causes me to continually fall back into it. Like Apryl said, every little bit of food that goes into my mouth, I think about it and what it will do to my body. I'm constantly wishing I had the will-power to just put the freaking fork down and stop eating.

I admit that at first, I made food, weight, etc. be on my mind all the time. I wanted to lose weight, but I knew I loved eating too much to be able to make myself stop. I figured the more I thought about losing weight, the more I'd hate myself. And the more I hated myself, the easier it would be to stop eating. So I made myself think about it constantly until it got to the point where I didn't have to make myself think about it anymore - the thoughts about my weight are just there, all the time.

As much as I'm sick of feeling like this, I don't want it to go away. My weight is the only thing about my body that I can change. Yeah, I can do my hair and wear make-up... but the fact is, if I'm just straight-up ugly, no amount of make-up is gonna change that. My weight is the only thing about my appearance that I can control. It's this "Maybe my face doesn't look so good, but atleast I'm thin" thing.

I don't feel like this is really that bad of a problem for me yet. I'm not so far down the road that I can't turn around. All I have to do is tell someone, and I can stop this before it even fully starts. But the thing is, I don't want help. I don't like the way I look, and this is something about myself that I can actually change. I don't want to have that taken away from me.

Thanks so much to anyone who actually read all this. I didn't intend to write out my whole life story. :rolleyes: Sorry I didn't even give anyone any advice or anything... I guess I just feel stupid giving people advice when I won't even follow the advice myself.

Thanks so much to anyone who actually read all this. I didn't intend to write out my whole life story. :rolleyes: Sorry I didn't even give anyone any advice or anything... I guess I just feel stupid giving people advice when I won't even follow the advice myself.

I read all of it. And don't worry... that is one of my biggest problems in life. I can give advice, but I can never follow it.



As much as I'm sick of feeling like this, I don't want it to go away. My weight is the only thing about my body that I can change. Yeah, I can do my hair and wear make-up... but the fact is, if I'm just straight-up ugly, no amount of make-up is gonna change that. My weight is the only thing about my appearance that I can control. It's this "Maybe my face doesn't look so good, but atleast I'm thin" thing.

I feel the same way. Except for I think my face looks way better than my body, so it's more a case of "People can't love the inside of me, so I should at least make sure they can love the outside."

Eating disorders are hard, and even harder to get rid of because it's almost like it's something that's always there for you. Even on pro anorexia sites (like you mentioned), they even refer to "Ana" as a being. Almost like a God. It makes you feel like 'she's' always there when nothing else is. The idea like "I'm so alone, but as long as I keep starving/keep plaguing my mind with this, I'll always have 'her.'"

That's how it was when I was bulimic. I always though "there's nothing I can do about this/that/whatever, but throwing up is something I can do."


I suck at giving advice on this topic, because it is still something I struggle with everyday of my life. I have to fight so hard not to fall into it again, and it's very difficult, because I am highly paranoid and nearly destroy myself with thoughts that no one cares about me.

The best advice I can offer is try your hardest to think logically. No one who really cares about you is going to love you anymore if you're sick, and skin and bones. It may get them to pay more attention to you, but it will really, really hurt them, and if that's the goal you wish to obtain, then you're selfish.

If it's about weight loss, then just think... you cannot stay sick with an eating disorder forever. No one here sounds like they're ready and willing to die from one (if anyone is, let me know, because I've been there, and I understand), or else you'd probably not be posting in this thread.

FYI, people with eating disorders don't openly discuss it unless they at least want to try to get better.

Anyway though, if it is about weight loss, one day you'll have to give it up, and by that point your metabolism (not to mention your bones, heart, etc) is going to be so fucked up, it will actually be WAY harder for you to lose weight than it would if you just ate a proper, healthy diet today and exercized a lot.

Another FYI... one of the major personality characteristics doctors see in anorectics is immaturity. So if you feel like you just need to grow the fuck up a little, and you might be able to get out of the sick head space that you're in right now, I'd seriously recommend it to all of you.

I suck at giving advice on this topic, because it is still something I struggle with everyday of my life.

Well obviously it doesn't matter when it comes to giving advice cause your advice is brilliant. Seriously. It's good. You know how it works and those are facts that a lot of people need to hear. The only thing is that you have to hear it yourself also.. but you are. So you're one step closer already.

Eating disorders are hard, and even harder to get rid of because it's almost like it's something that's always there for you. Even on pro anorexia sites (like you mentioned), they even refer to "Ana" as a being. Almost like a God. It makes you feel like 'she's' always there when nothing else is. The idea like "I'm so alone, but as long as I keep starving/keep plaguing my mind with this, I'll always have 'her.'"

That's how it was when I was bulimic. I always though "there's nothing I can do about this/that/whatever, but throwing up is something I can do."
Exactly. No matter how sucky life gets, I can always just stop eating, and in some weird way, that makes me feel happy. That's part of what makes it so addicting.

The best advice I can offer is try your hardest to think logically. No one who really cares about you is going to love you anymore if you're sick, and skin and bones. It may get them to pay more attention to you, but it will really, really hurt them, and if that's the goal you wish to obtain, then you're selfish.

If it's about weight loss, then just think... you cannot stay sick with an eating disorder forever. No one here sounds like they're ready and willing to die from one (if anyone is, let me know, because I've been there, and I understand), or else you'd probably not be posting in this thread.

FYI, people with eating disorders don't openly discuss it unless they at least want to try to get better.
I agree completely. I wouldn't have posted in this thread if I really wanted to kill myself with an eating disorder. I do try to think logically, and when that happens, that's when I stop and think "Why am I doing this to myself?!" I need to learn to start acting on those logical thoughts while they're there, because they usually don't last very long.

Thanks for the advice. I'll definitely be thinking about everything you said. The fact that you've struggled with this yourself makes your advice even better, because you're speaking from experience.

...One more thing. You've talked about your boyfriend a lot in this thread, Apryl, and how much he's helping you get past your bulimia. You are SO lucky to have that kind of support from him! Just a word of warning, though... make sure you aren't placing all your self-worth and security in him. I have a friend who had a horrible eating disorder and drug addiction. When she was in a relationship, her boyfriend helped her through so many of her problems. She was doing great and recovering so well, until he broke up with her. Almost instantly, she fell back into an eating disorder, drug addiction, alcoholism... she placed everything she had in this guy, so when he was gone, she felt like she had nothing left except for her old addictions. It sounds like you have a great relationship with your boyfriend, and I really hope things work out for you guys. Just make sure you aren't putting too much emphasis on your relationship, because it sounds like you've been working really hard towards recovery, and I'd hate to see you throw it all away if your relationship takes a turn for the worse.

Sorry if you feel like that ^ isn't any of my business. I just really felt like I should mention it, because it almost destroyed my friend, and I'd hate for that to happen to someone else. :)

... I'm back to my typical on-and-off ways. I start to feel like I'll never lose weight, so I give up for a while... but losing weight is still always on my mind, and those thoughts are what causes me to continually fall back into it. Like Apryl said, every little bit of food that goes into my mouth, I think about it and what it will do to my body. I'm constantly wishing I had the will-power to just put the fucking fork down and stop eating.

I admit that at first, I made food, weight, etc. be on my mind all the time. I wanted to lose weight, but I knew I loved eating too much to be able to make myself stop. I figured the more I thought about losing weight, the more I'd hate myself. And the more I hated myself, the easier it would be to stop eating. So I made myself think about it constantly until it got to the point where I didn't have to make myself think about it anymore - the thoughts about my weight are just there, all the time.

As much as I'm sick of feeling like this, I don't want it to go away. My weight is the only thing about my body that I can change. Yeah, I can do my hair and wear make-up... but the fact is, if I'm just straight-up ugly, no amount of make-up is gonna change that. My weight is the only thing about my appearance that I can control. It's this "Maybe my face doesn't look so good, but atleast I'm thin" thing.

I don't feel like this is really that bad of a problem for me yet. I'm not so far down the road that I can't turn around. All I have to do is tell someone, and I can stop this before it even fully starts. But the thing is, I don't want help. I don't like the way I look, and this is something about myself that I can actually change. I don't want to have that taken away from me.

Thanks so much to anyone who actually read all this. I didn't intend to write out my whole life story. :rolleyes: Sorry I didn't even give anyone any advice or anything... I guess I just feel stupid giving people advice when I won't even follow the advice myself.

Thats alot like how I feel currently, Ive been feeling like that since the beginning of this year. I've got really bad self esteem issues and stuff now and weight/eating is something i constantly worry about. it sucks
i have a question, is it unhealthy to weigh yourself everyday?

My current problem is a little different from everyone elses, but I'll give it a go, because this is scaring me a bit.

For the past two weeks or so, I've been exceptionally happy. My mom and I are getting along well, shes moving to first shift so I can see her more, my friends are great, and this guy I have strong feelings for admitting to feeling the same for me. The thing is, ever since this abudence of happiness occurred, I'm never hungry. Litterally, I cannot feel hunger at all. I wake up every morning and push myself to eat a small bowl of special k with fat free skim milk and a fat free yogurt. Though I am by no means fat in the slighest, I always get everything fat free because I'm very paranoid of gaining weight, and exercise alot as well. By lunch, I'm not hungry at all, though I'll eat just a little, like litterally two bites of something, and then I'm completely stuffed, and thats it for the day. I havent told my mom, boyfriend, or friends, because I'm so afraid all of them will worry to death, especially my boyfriend. Its just so hard for me, because everytime I eat, I feel like it'll come up again, but I know not eating is wrong. Should I see a doctor?
-Jessica

Thats alot like how I feel currently, Ive been feeling like that since the beginning of this year. I've got really bad self esteem issues and stuff now and weight/eating is something i constantly worry about. it sucks
i have a question, is it unhealthy to weigh yourself everyday?
From personal experience, I definitely think weighing yourself every day is a bad idea. If you're not losing weight, weighing yourself every day will make you feel like crap. And if you ARE losing weight, watching the number on the scale get lower and lower will only make you want to lose more weight. Either way, it just makes you think about your weight even more, and adds fuel to the flame.

yeah. well, i do it every day and i try to get myself away from the scale for a while but its hard to do because ill just keep telling myself that it needs to be done. yesterday didnt help either because my boyfriend decided he wanted to tell me about a picture of one of his ex coworkers om her bikini on her myspace. i just went anf looked at it right now and feel really horrible. im a moose compared to her. i hate to say it but i dont even feel like eating at all, and thats bad because its gonna be time to go to work in a few hours.
i dont know if that made any sense :confused:

My current problem is a little different from everyone elses, but I'll give it a go, because this is scaring me a bit.

For the past two weeks or so, I've been exceptionally happy. My mom and I are getting along well, shes moving to first shift so I can see her more, my friends are great, and this guy I have strong feelings for admitting to feeling the same for me. The thing is, ever since this abudence of happiness occurred, I'm never hungry. Litterally, I cannot feel hunger at all. I wake up every morning and push myself to eat a small bowl of special k with fat free skim milk and a fat free yogurt. Though I am by no means fat in the slighest, I always get everything fat free because I'm very paranoid of gaining weight, and exercise alot as well. By lunch, I'm not hungry at all, though I'll eat just a little, like litterally two bites of something, and then I'm completely stuffed, and thats it for the day. I havent told my mom, boyfriend, or friends, because I'm so afraid all of them will worry to death, especially my boyfriend. Its just so hard for me, because everytime I eat, I feel like it'll come up again, but I know not eating is wrong. Should I see a doctor?
-Jessica


Just a health tip: Things that are fat free (especially things like yogurt) are absolutely loaded with sugar and carbs (look at the nutritional label, and you'll see). Stuff like that is way more likely to make you gain weight. Sugar is bad.

And no, I don't think you should see a doctor. Not yet anyway. I've seen your pictures lots.... you look healthy. I know you walk everyday. and what you're eating for breakfast is quite healthy. This is probably just a phase.... if you've been really happy there's a good chance you're just not eating out of emotion or sadness anymore (most people do that), so your body is beginning to regulate itself.

You're smart... I know you know the difference between healthy and stupid, lol. Don't go down a road you can prevent yourself from.

Great. Well this is just absolutely WONDERFUL. I have a literal addiction to chocolate. I'm not kidding around and saying things like, "Ooh chocolate all girls love that!". This is quite serious- I see chocolate, I have to have it, hands down. I used to be able to guzzle down tons of chocolate every single day. I mean, we're talking an unusual amount of chocolate.

But now that I've got acid reflux, I'm not supposed to eat it. For some reason I had this weird idea that maybe my pulmonologist was wrong, and that I could still eat chocolate. But lately even one little piece can cause big problems for me. I don't know how this happened, but it is. Even chocolate drinks can cause problems for me hours later.

I went on to WebMD a few minutes ago (I'm sick so I'm not in school right now), and I looked up the problem-foods for people with acid reflux, and there it was at the number one of the list- chocolate.

So now I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate this. I've got my Prevacid which seems to be helping, but today I still feel sick. Oh boy. So that's my rant, I really wanted to get my frustration out there.

Great. Well this is just absolutely WONDERFUL. I have a literal addiction to chocolate. I'm not kidding around and saying things like, "Ooh chocolate all girls love that!". This is quite serious- I see chocolate, I have to have it, hands down. I used to be able to guzzle down tons of chocolate every single day. I mean, we're talking an unusual amount of chocolate.

But now that I've got acid reflux, I'm not supposed to eat it. For some reason I had this weird idea that maybe my pulmonologist was wrong, and that I could still eat chocolate. But lately even one little piece can cause big problems for me. I don't know how this happened, but it is. Even chocolate drinks can cause problems for me hours later.

I went on to WebMD a few minutes ago (I'm sick so I'm not in school right now), and I looked up the problem-foods for people with acid reflux, and there it was at the number one of the list- chocolate.

So now I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate this. I've got my Prevacid which seems to be helping, but today I still feel sick. Oh boy. So that's my rant, I really wanted to get my frustration out there.


Look on the bright side... All that chocolate really is not good for you, so this is probably a good thing. It's like me and ice cream haha. I love ice cream more than anything, but I can't eat it barely ever because I'm really, really lactose intolerant.

It's pretty much literally impossible to be THAT addicted to something with almost no addictive properties (unless you're eating so much you've actually developed a caffine addiction), so I bet you could teach yourself to stop pretty fast. It's most likely just a carbohydrate/dugar addiction which will make you fat one day lol.

I've been avoiding this thread like the plague! Just don't want to fall back to old habits. Anyways i was just sorting through the mountains of school stuff from the last couple of years, that I don't need anymore as I don't do those subjects at the moment. And i found my old old journal, and I got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaked out, i mean it, i was completely obsessed, there isn't a single sentence that doesn't include some reference to weight, exercise and the regimes i used to do are written in more detail than my A'Level homework! should really switch that.

honestly though, i am so much well not happier now, i've got a long way to go before that, but it feels so good not to worry about my weight as i walk down the corridor, and when i'm sitting in lunch. do people talk about the fact i now eat, bitch about me, tell me i'm getting fat? of course, but it's pathetic, the girls who say it are about 6 stone and 6ft, and they look terrible!

but i've learnt that NO ONE can change your views except you, but it always helps to have someone to lean on who you DO listen to, because they can help and you just never know...

and finally so many people and modeling agencys are now turning against those who are too skinny, or underweight- it was on the news less than half an hour ago. look at amy lee, she's perfect the way she is, and i doubt one of you would change her!

love vicki

xx

canadianfire: it's so inspirational to hear a story like yours of someone who overcame an (i'm assuming from the way you were talking about it) eating disorder, and can now distinguish from healthy and sickly. you very rarely hear that, and even though i don't know you.. i'm proud! haha go you!

as for me.. i'll wait all day to eat until about 8 (i work the late shift so that's normal for me) and eat like everything i missed and be completely full for the rest of the day. and neglect to eat anything else. it's such a bad habit, and i need to start actually taking the time to schedule mealtimes or something from now on. *sigh*

as for me.. i'll wait all day to eat until about 8 (i work the late shift so that's normal for me) and eat like everything i missed and be completely full for the rest of the day. and neglect to eat anything else. it's such a bad habit, and i need to start actually taking the time to schedule mealtimes or something from now on. *sigh*

That actually is really bad for you. Do you have sleeping problems? If you do, it's probably related to that? You should always try to eat something in the morning... Even if it's just something small like a piece of fruit or toast or something. It helps your metabolism. Start trying to do that, and you might find that with your increased metabolism, you're hungry again around lunch time. That way you kind of... force your body into eating at proper meal times and stuff.

Also, with the way you're eating right now, you might not be getting all the nutrients and vitamins that you need. Your body can only take in a little bit of them at a time, so if you're eating everything at once, it will only take in the little bit it can accept right then, and the rest with go to waste. That's especially true for things like calcium.

Hope that helps. <3

Awhile ago I was really afraid I was developing an eating disorder, but I think I have it beat. For now, anyway.

I used to think it was fun to not eat for long periods of time, sometimes a few days. It was really bad because I'm hypoglycemic and I would start passing out after a few hours. Somehow I couldn't stop myself from doing it.

Now I'm much more in control. I realize that I need to eat often to keep my blood sugar up and so I do. I eat breakfast in the morning, which I used to skip sometimes, I sneak a snack in second period, which I never used to do, I eat lunch, which I also used to skip all the time, I have a snack when I get home and I eat dinner. I find that I'm not so tired all the time and my sugar and iron levels turn up normal on blood tests now. Also I've lost about 10 pounds (FYI, starving yourself just lowers your metabolism), but I don't really care about my wieght anymore because I'm healthy, I look fine, and the numbers of it don't really matter. I still have anxiety about eating in front of people sometimes, but I'm fighting through that too.

Now I'd say my only real eating issues are the physical ones- the hypoglycemia like I mentioned and the way I can't digest anything with a lot of fat (I'll be sick for DAYS.) So actually low fat or fat free foods are good for me cause I can always use some extra sugar. Seriously, my blood sugar will drop to the level of a person on a 24 hour fast in about an hour. That's why not eating was especially bad for me.

that definitely does help! i do know it's bad, i take lots of vitamins but i often have trouble sleeping and my metabolism is definitely slow. i'll try your suggestion :)