My Poems... - EvBoard

єmo†i◦na| · 10-24-2005, 06:44 PM

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Troubled pain,
Slashed Veins,
Once again insane.

Bleeding heart,
Falling apart.

Hate collides with my reason for exsistence,
Uncling this tension.

Unclash your eyes,
For the staring weakens me.

Im overdosed by medicine that doesn't cure my pain,
So,
For that reason I cry tears of rain.

I sign my signature,
My signature of blood.
The blood I need to drip away.

It hurts me knowing,
No one understands.
Someone please understand...

The cuts that are scabbed under my blood of emotion,
Makes a picture,
That describes my Everlasting pain.

I am depressed and violently stressed.
I am beginning to think,
Life is nothing more than a test...

The impact is so unbearable,
I think I failed..

I'm Trapped in a cell,
A cell of force,
Someone please help...

I am defined as clinging remorse...

My Nightmare

Each day this nightmare
Clashes against my heart.

The feeling of being here,
Strangles me from the start.

Inside this hate,
I mourn by hiding these tears.

I close myself from people that Judge me.
Even though the hurt
Is only just weak words,
Mentally, I am being destroyed.

Everything you say floods
Through my undefined mined.
It builds from every laugh
That divides inside.

This pain tampers with my healing
Source.
Can you hear me scream of remorse?

I am the target you dis-pare...
How could you even once seem
To care?

The feeling of nothing runs
Through my crying veins.

It is your fault!
You made me this way!

I hate you for the way you make
Me feel,
And I hope to God
This will soon reveal.

This is my nightmare,
The nightmare I dread...

I am the definition of insanity,
But sadly this my reality...

About Amanda

No one knows her every thought.
No one understands the tears
She drops.

Alone in a room
With every scar hidden away,
Is life suppose to be this way?

Dark visions grow beneath
Her weak skin.
This pain seems to be a troubling
Sin.

She bleeds from the people
Who hurt her the most,
Forgiven them is what she lacks
The most.

She honestly is a good person
From the inside out,
But sometimes she feels
As though she is zoning out.

Tomorrow she will put on her
Swollen face,
And take zoloft to erase
Another day.

Your Secret Admirer

Since 8th grade you've been the only person Ive ever thought about. At first it was a simple crush, But since then, These feelings have grown dramatically...

My heart drops through beds of beautiful red roses every time you walk by. I cannot speak, think, all I can do is re-run these feelings through my torn heart.

Everything falls apart when I'm not able to see you, I can feel tears run through me, Your my healing source, and the sad part is.. You've never even said a complete sentence to me...

I'm so ashamed of myself...
I dread the thought of never being with you, but sadly its true. You could never love me, you deserve so much better.

I wonder if this love could ever melt away? Theres no point in me putting myself down, Worrying if there will ever be a chance, because deep down I know the truth, and I hate it so...

My heart mourns for your touch, your heart, anything that relates to you. I'm not obsessed, just in love.

I'm your secret admirer, The admirer who loves everything about you. I'm the person who only wishes you knew...

Should I give this letter to you? Could I even bare to handle the laugh you would make?

For me this isn't easy, I have to write my feelings on paper, because I'm afraid to tell you in person.

I'm a weak and troubled person who drowns my feelings of love in tears. If you only knew the way I felt... Would this make my life an easy way to get through? I wonder...

My heart cannot except this separation. I find it hard to believe my heart is able to continue beating and not stop for one second to mourn for your love...

I hope to one day have the courage to hand this letter to you in person, and it not end with sincerely your admirer... But to stand there in front of a beautiful person and say...

My names Amanda... And I'm in love with you...

10-24-2005, 06:44 PM	#1 (permalink)
єmo†i◦na\| n00blet Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: In You Pants... Age: 19 Posts: 8 Points: 0.56 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 0.56 Donate	Untitled Troubled pain, Slashed Veins, Once again insane. Bleeding heart, Falling apart. Hate collides with my reason for exsistence, Uncling this tension. Unclash your eyes, For the staring weakens me. Im overdosed by medicine that doesn't cure my pain, So, For that reason I cry tears of rain. I sign my signature, My signature of blood. The blood I need to drip away. It hurts me knowing, No one understands. Someone please understand... The cuts that are scabbed under my blood of emotion, Makes a picture, That describes my Everlasting pain. I am depressed and violently stressed. I am beginning to think, Life is nothing more than a test... The impact is so unbearable, I think I failed.. I'm Trapped in a cell, A cell of force, Someone please help... I am defined as clinging remorse... My Nightmare Each day this nightmare Clashes against my heart. The feeling of being here, Strangles me from the start. Inside this hate, I mourn by hiding these tears. I close myself from people that Judge me. Even though the hurt Is only just weak words, Mentally, I am being destroyed. Everything you say floods Through my undefined mined. It builds from every laugh That divides inside. This pain tampers with my healing Source. Can you hear me scream of remorse? I am the target you dis-pare... How could you even once seem To care? The feeling of nothing runs Through my crying veins. It is your fault! You made me this way! I hate you for the way you make Me feel, And I hope to God This will soon reveal. This is my nightmare, The nightmare I dread... I am the definition of insanity, But sadly this my reality... About Amanda No one knows her every thought. No one understands the tears She drops. Alone in a room With every scar hidden away, Is life suppose to be this way? Dark visions grow beneath Her weak skin. This pain seems to be a troubling Sin. She bleeds from the people Who hurt her the most, Forgiven them is what she lacks The most. She honestly is a good person From the inside out, But sometimes she feels As though she is zoning out. Tomorrow she will put on her Swollen face, And take zoloft to erase Another day. Your Secret Admirer Since 8th grade you've been the only person Ive ever thought about. At first it was a simple crush, But since then, These feelings have grown dramatically... My heart drops through beds of beautiful red roses every time you walk by. I cannot speak, think, all I can do is re-run these feelings through my torn heart. Everything falls apart when I'm not able to see you, I can feel tears run through me, Your my healing source, and the sad part is.. You've never even said a complete sentence to me... I'm so ashamed of myself... I dread the thought of never being with you, but sadly its true. You could never love me, you deserve so much better. I wonder if this love could ever melt away? Theres no point in me putting myself down, Worrying if there will ever be a chance, because deep down I know the truth, and I hate it so... My heart mourns for your touch, your heart, anything that relates to you. I'm not obsessed, just in love. I'm your secret admirer, The admirer who loves everything about you. I'm the person who only wishes you knew... Should I give this letter to you? Could I even bare to handle the laugh you would make? For me this isn't easy, I have to write my feelings on paper, because I'm afraid to tell you in person. I'm a weak and troubled person who drowns my feelings of love in tears. If you only knew the way I felt... Would this make my life an easy way to get through? I wonder... My heart cannot except this separation. I find it hard to believe my heart is able to continue beating and not stop for one second to mourn for your love... I hope to one day have the courage to hand this letter to you in person, and it not end with sincerely your admirer... But to stand there in front of a beautiful person and say... My names Amanda... And I'm in love with you... Last edited by єmo†i◦na\| : 10-25-2005 at 11:09 AM.

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