CigaretteSpider

These are a few of my latest poems, all I could be bothered to dig up.
I havn't posted much.. I'm sort of new. I'd like any critisism, kind words, helping hands - anything really.
Includes swearing and possibly triggering topics.
Thanks,
Katt

Misery

Chain smoking cigarettes
Crying in a corner
Surviving on the edge
Threatening to crumble

Misery runs wild and free

Failed suicide
For you were mine
Creeping despair
It’s not fair

Don’t bother trying now
It’s too late
I can’t face the blame
Deaf to your comfort

Conceal yourself
When your heart is withering
The darkest clouds
Surrounding you

Misery runs wild and free

It’s just a fucking heartache
Nothing left to fucking break

Failed suicide, for you, were mine
Despair creeps from my soul
I have lost the will to live
For I can’t feel you there

Misery runs wild and free
No loneliness is worth you
I wish you ached as I do
I wish your dreams were like mine
I wish I could force you to stay
You took a part of me that day
No longer am I comforted
By your kind, pathetic, unintelligent words
Your dumb lying mother
Your abusive forgiven father
I tried for you, for what I knew
But I was never enough

Misery runs wild and free
You always thought I was crazy


Cutter

Look at me, I'm here again
There's so much I can't explain
It's dripping down like autumn rain
Once a cutter, always the same

Look at me, I'm back again
Once again I'm high on shame
I'm falling back into a daze
Once a cutter, always the same

Look at me, I'm real again
My old soul I'm here to claim
Don't say my name, so full of pain
Once a cutter always the same

I wish away the pain
But I still feel the same.

Cutters Life

Darkness surrounds me, it's all I feel
Like I'll drown in the air that I breathe, it's so real
Emotions they win but I don't feel the pain
The storm of my life, my tears are the rain

People surround me, all passing me by
While I'm stuck in this moment just waiting to die
The ones I love seem so far away
It's just not fair that I have to stay

Life's full of happiness, well that's what they say
But no one remember the corruption and the pain
If the world is so perfect, then why do I want to leave?
Why do I cover my arms with sleeves

Does it scare you to see the marks of my fears
When you see these cuts do you realise my tears
Just someone to tell me they really care
To say those words back; one love to share

I stand in a crowd, yet I am alone
I live in a house; it's not a home
No one could feel the way that I do
I love you so much but look what you do

I stand in the shower naked and free
As the boiling water surrounds me
It's burning my skin but I feel so cold
My soul has been taken, beaten and sould.

Untitled

You come to pry
You touch me again
When you're around
It's always the same

I'm always forced to fake
To laugh, to smile
Leave me alone
Fuck out of my face

Just let me relax
Swim into myself
Be who I am
I don't want help

Yes, it hurts inside my soul
Yes, this world is fucking cold
Yes, I'd die if I had the guts
Forget my pain, my fear, my cuts

Do I need help?
Am I even ill?
Am I overreacting?
Fuck it all to hell.

Abide

I feel so aweful
I could cry
Sold my soul
To a passer by

Seven days
Have come and gone
And in a way
I'm more alone

That I heard you
As you lied
To someone else
You shall abide

I'm obsessive
You are cold
Your confession
I want untold.

Apryl

Somebody has some SI issues. PM me if you need to talk about anything, okay? Trust me, I was there very, very badly for a very, very long time. I'd love to help you.

Anyway, I love this:

FelicityS

I relate to this on so many levels! I can feel your pain through your words.

just YOU

Hey, nice songs, I just want to say that I now how you feel,
that I´ve been trough all of that, and with one part of my soul
I´m still in it. I now how does it feels when you are, or you feel aloun,
if you ever need to talk with somebody, just PM me.

CigaretteSpider

Thank you so much.
All of you.