Shawn8888

Endless noise in your mind

As the knife slides across the wall
Can you remember the night sky?
Does the rhythm still play in your mind?
Can you forget what I’ve done?
How my life had no meaning compared to hers
As your hear the metal against concrete
Its just so much that your still alive
I feel her holding me saying you suffered enough
Is it true have you learned what you’ve done was so wrong
Or all the lives you have taken to heavens above have no meaning to any one any more
Can you stop to think if I do it again to you would you stop
Or will the death still spill to the ground all over again
Taking your life might just be the better route
I will always protect her in the end

Apryl

That was amazing. I love the story that this poem portrays. That was very simple and short, but I'd honestly have to say it's one of my favorite things I have ever read on this board. I feel like I can relate to it a lot.
Do you have anything else you could post?

Shawn8888

Thanks Apryl. I have another one to post today.

Throw your self away

Is your haunted nightmares still there?
Is the bricks’ behind you still scratched?
Do you still scream and die like I see you
But your still here still alive
Does the knife you brought to me still scar you
Can you sleep at night and find peace in your dreams
Or was the life you going to take that worth it
Nightmares of your past wont ever leave what you’ve done
If your not gone you deserve to be
Can you here me scream just run
Were do you belong now
I am telling the truth of who you really are
She had my child in her but you could not left us alone
So instinct can not be stopped
Now who’s going to be alone
Now who’s deserves to die not I not I
Only you now

Shawn8888

Her rape and suicide

You see this boy gets shoved into a girls locker room after he gets trapped in-between a crowed of girls. Now he doesn’t realize it but he gets pushed into the locker room. Now the girls are like. You have seen me now lets look at you. They strip him down to nothing. He totally nude in front of these girls. The girls mention the fact he doesn’t have hair yet. Says that is not normal to! As he is getting dressed again about to leave they start to make fun of a girl that was taking a shower. For not looking what they consider normal too. There like why don’t you two freaks get together.. He wasn’t involved originally with the second girl. But they sort of shoved them together. They became very good friends in the end of it. In fact they made fun of the girl for being fat and stupid. That she was trying to make fun of them instead of admitting it was her who so very different. She runs out with a whole lot of swear words and leaves. Well even she thinks at 12 that this guy doesn’t have any kind of hair yet is weird. But she knew her father had taken testosterone and got a huge amount of hair for taking it. So started to take it so he wouldn’t be so different.

This would have been end of story happily ever after friends forever kind of story. Except on day he was left home alone. He wanted to have some on over cause some drunk guy in the parking lot next to his house was making noise. So he had her stay over to keep him company. She comes over they have a good time. They make some food and stuff watch movies. Then decide to go to bed together. Well this man no longer has any booze so he decides to either rob the house for money or booze which ever came first. Then the girl screams and shouts at the man. Who are you!. He just said nothing. She then shouts at him that he had no right to walk into other peoples houses like that. Then he says shut up little bitch. I can go into any house I want. She proceeds to argue with him some more. The boy with her is now trying to get her to stop. But she doesn’t she calls him bunch of names. Then he gets really angry and starts to rape her. The boy does everything to stop him. Then he pushes him to the floor and starts to rape him too! As she runs away. He says see what dumb bitches do. See that’s what they do for you they just run way and leave you die. To the boy he is raping. She comes back and screams as she pounds him with a wooden bat. She hits him all the way out the door with the bat and down the street. She later tells her parents they for some reason try to blame the boy. So then she is getting very frustrated now. Her parents don’t believe her that it was another man who did this. So she decides seeing no one is listening. She decides suicide is a easier way for both of them.

She brings some glasses filled with anything she could find around the house. Pills and everything even nail polish remover. She says in the bathroom in the bathroom at her school. How could you want to live any more after what you went through and me. How they are blaming you. Why would you want to stay around. So do want to do this then? He reluctantly says yes. Then he tries to put this stuff that smells horribly bad. Up to his mouth he just cant get it there. So she then pushes it into his mouth and he swallows. Some girl walks in now and finds them there. As she is doing this. Catches her doing it. Then quickly she takes the rest. They now are both on the floor dieing together just as she hopes. The new girl who walked in calls 911 but it was to late for the girl cause she dies on the way to the hospital. But the boy survives only to wake up with out a memory of the events that took place. Only a strange taste in his mouth and no recollection of any of it. Its sad when parents don’t listen to there children. Just cause of what some one else said or there own beliefs about who people are. Even children can fall under this. The boy fell under judgment that he was the one who did it. Just cause his family and he didn’t believe in everything they did. Cause just as her they didn’t like him. I guess they didn’t like him more. But strangely enough he is the one still alive.

FelicityS

Wow, your peices are so emotive and filled with a passionate resonance, good stuff!

Shawn8888

Thank you FelicityS I am so happy you liked them.

Here is the key the avatar
He says he knows him
He says he is one of them
The knifed man thinks he owns you
He can rape all he wants just cause he knows you
Is this why you killed them
Are these the reasons the lives are gone
Just so he can rape some more
Or take his life now and make him wrong
His name is bin bin But I don’t know the rest
He said he knew this man
For some reason I dont realy believe him
You complete the riddle his name should come to mind of the man he knew
He said he knew him
Does he know him just so he can die?
Or get away with raping her as he does.
Knife across the wall
Scars his face and body
Will his life ever leave this world for we all know what he has done

Shawn8888

Thunder

Does the thunder at night still cause nightmares for you
even though I appear callous I think I still feel some of this
I just wish I knew it was all ok
What we did the night we were made
Cause the thunder still rings in my ears doesn’t really go away
It just hides away in the dark cold corner in my mind
How do you cope with what you went through
Finding peace some were far from here I hope
I cheated on the one I loved
You lost something more then just your innocents
We couldn’t have done it any other way
Our lives were on the rope
Gently walking across so we don’t fall off
But then we find at the end as we laugh
That the cannon still goes off
Rings the sound that will never go away
We kept our life only to find ruins at least it appears that way

FelicityS

I really liked the emotion behind thunder, seems very personal and from the heart!

Shawn8888

Thanks FelicityS glad you liked it. I try my best.

Survived

These bandages across my head
I remember a moment in my past
That I can not seem to piece together
I find a car smashed I am inside
Drivers seat is now no longer
It seems no way no one else could have survived
But I don’t know were I am
I find a hospital but don’t know how I got home
Were is my ride
The bandages break from my head drop to the floor
I meet some one at home I knew
It seems she knows me better then I do
But I don’t know who she is
I know I wasn’t suppose to leave the hospital
I don’t know how I got home
A moment in my past now covers my eyes
I try to recover it all it just doesn’t go together
She holds my head up trying to help me out
But the pain is just to much
Memories just keep going through my mind
I don’t know when she left my side
I just know that I am home

Shawn8888

Enough

These scars on my hands just like yours
See the through the window as it records
But what you don’t know is what is worse
To kill her was his goal to kill a child was his other goal
I can’t believe I caught the knife on my arm and hands
But he didn’t accomplish everything he hopped for
She looked just like you its hard to believe its all true
I should have said something sooner or in a different way
But words are hard to work or come by when fear is all I ever seen
For me there is no mirror to look into just another stranger that I never really knew
Scars that are always to deep and never let go
I just know I have finally told the truth with out fear
Just don’t give up I know I never will
The mirror just doesn’t go away
Just that killer I hope to take far away
He killed the ones that helped him
Just so some more can fall for his cruel joke
As I catch his knife in my hands once more
I find that I am not alone as I once thought
I just hope this will be enough
Finally bring justice for all