Music Box

These are a few random poems I wrote recently. I decided to put them in here basically because I am so tired of the other thread. I really am. I'm tired of looking at it. At the crap from the past. I'm trying to get over the past and looking at it more does nothing for me. You can close this one if you want. I just thought it might help me a little. Sorry.

The first one may be a bit confusing, but you'll catch on.
My passion

My sense of worth

...My anger

My fellings of hurt, my beatings, my brutal death...

So much gladdness that drips out of every pore

...It's wasted all of it, just gone...

...It feels so good...

but I know it's wrong

my flesh eating away at itself, pulling me down to the bone

...I'm, I'm cleanising myself, getting a new body, making it all better now;

renewal...

yes, yes, thats it

...self rewards, self pitty, acceptance, feels so nice...

it's wrong, it's not about me,

...but that knife looks nice, so beautiful...

yes, beautiful

...it doesn't matter anymore, I've tried, I've tried, I failed...

no, I haven't faied, lets keep trying; perseverance

... but, I deserve to die, the pain I put everyone through...

I do, I do deserve it

...yes...

I want to

...yes, I want to, I want to die...

Phone,

...don't answer it...

I have to

... no...

Hello

I love you Emmalee

... hell, no she doesn't love me. she doesn't love me...

*smiles* I love you too



and I wrote this one last night:

I think of you

Everyday I think of you

I dream of you

Everynight I dream of you

(can't get you out of my head)

I need you

I try to survive without you

I can't, I'm broken

I miss you, I can't even remember your voice

It's been so long...

(seems like forever now)

Though I've never seen your face

I imagine you, smiling

I hope to see that one day

I want you to smile

I need you to smile

I need you to laugh, no more tears

You deserve to laugh, to smile

believe it, it's true

Believe it or not,

I love you, I care about you

I'm sorry

I'm so sorry

alone_i_break

wow. i love how theyre both just written as streams of thought. theyre the most honest thing ive read in a while.

Music Box

I hope a few people take that last one as me being honest also, because meerly that what I am being. Thank you so much.

.:*Emmalee*:.

whisper_to_me

wow i have to agree with alone i break. those are great poems and yes the random thought effect is very original. i love it The last one describes almost perfectly something im going through right now so ive taking a liking to that one. nice work. keep writing!

Music Box

Thanks so so much....

Music Box

i'm starving
my own blood, has slipped away
so close to you
dirt and worms, the warmth of that blanket
i'm sorry i wasn't there to hold your hand


...


i can't write right now...*cries*




my great-grandmother passed away on Thursday
Her funeral was today...
My friend Matt, died in a car accident Last week
My friend Bryon, died in a car accident September 16th

I'm so broken I can't write...