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Nameless · 12-14-2004, 08:12 AM

Alright I'm back. I've been traveling, and in the hospital for awhile. Hopefully I can check this thread at least a bit more often. Thanks axe for the comments while I was gone.

Untitled:
________________________________________________

Disappointed.
Nicotine stained; My fingers.
Scars of, a hideous life;
A pitiful lack of healthy emotions...

Well, it's a matter of perspective;
These things take time...
So drown it out with disinfectant,
And learn to live a lie...

[Pray for me - I need something to believe]
[Nothing is sacred - Nothing is sacred to me]

Scrounging for cigarette butts,
To still my shaking hands;
Repress my abusive childhood;
Maintain my sanity...

Ignore the bitter evening air;
And stand,
Enraptured by the stars...

As if a change in constellation,
Could bring solace to my suffering...

Or pass a little time...

I'll close my eyes;
Breathe deep...

To suppress this old,
Disquieting...

Obsession of mine...

[Nothing's sacred]
[Nothing is sacred to me]
X5

...

Disappointed...

Nameless · 12-14-2004, 08:20 AM

Sometimes,
I see through,
The elements...

That combine,
And bind,
My flesh to this world...

The days...
...

They melt together...

My eyes...
...

Feel laced with sandpaper...

But sleep still seems,
A day away...
...

Maybe tomorrow...
...

Or the next day...
---------------------------------------------------------

Oayis · 12-14-2004, 04:57 PM

Wow, some of your poems brought me to tears! The movement of it all, just...wow.

alone_i_break · 12-15-2004, 02:57 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Nameless

Her Eyes
------------------------------------------------------------

He cries himself to sleep,
When he sleeps at all.
Beneath the darkest clouds, that hang, so heavy . . .

Over flat and dull expanses.

The colors seem, to fade to gray,
Without her here beside him.

The pleasure seems, to melt away;
The emptiness, inside his soul, seems so much larger . . .

So he cries himself to sleep.

And dreams of,
Her eyes . . .

So soft,
And warm,
And bright.

And hears in,
His mind,

'My love,'
'I miss you so.'

***

Awake again, to find his pain still lingers.
He feels so weak . . .
. . .

He scarcely finds his feet . . .

This is how he vents,
When he can't hold,
All that's inside him.

This is how he speaks to her,
When he finds, that words are frightening:

'I dream of,
Your eyes . . .'

'So soft,
And warm,
And bright.'

'You're here in,
My mind . . .'

'My love,
I need you so much.'

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

'You chase the darkness from my life'

this made me cry.its beautiful and touching. and its really hit home for me. i dont have time right now but i will read thru the rest of your poems tomorrow

sweetwater · 12-15-2004, 03:14 AM

beautiful pieces nameless...very touching stuff.

axeslinger0u812 · 12-15-2004, 06:36 AM

Quote:

Ignore the bitter evening air;
Stand, enraptured by the stars...
As if a change in constellation,
Could bring solace to my suffering...

This whole piece brought tears to my eyes. It's so pained.

Quote:

My eyes...
...

Feel laced with sandpaper...

That is an amazing line. I never even thought of that metaphor before, but I'm feeling it right now, and it fits perfectly,lol.
It's so nice to see your work again!

Nameless · 12-17-2004, 09:22 AM

Thanks everyone for the comments. It was really nice to get a few since I just got back. I'm working on a lot of stuff that is inspired by dreams, so they flow kind of wierd depending on what I'm talking about. Here's another one like that...

I hope you like this too.

---------------------------------------------------
Sententious - Subtly Changing
_____________________________________________

There’s not as much of you.
The air is weighted too...
The dew on the grass,
Like diamonds, lights your eyes.
...

The rain subsides,
Beneath, the sunrise...
...

And everything is new.

***
Stretching my arms, up and out,
I remember...
You lifting me out,
Like an old forgotten friend.

The days aren’t as long,
As they used to be.
...

At least,
...

That’s what it feels like to me...
***

The waste from the houses,
Washes into the streets...

Not purging the sickness,
But you still, sigh in relief...

When you were a child,
You had so much potential.

Well,
...
Now you mean nothing like me...

***
So stretching my thoughts,
Up and out, I remember...
...
You leaving me out,
Like an old forgotten friend....

The days just aren’t long,
Like they used to be.
...

At least,
...

That leaves, less time left for me...

(And I’m not sorry...)
(...)
(It’s not so painful anymore.)
(x3)

The world’s not beautiful...
...

It used to be,
...

At least,
...

That’s what it felt like to me...
...
***

The cold and lifeless air,
Feels flat around me.

The arms of my despair;
Shrouding...
My unguarded torso.
And pulling me down...
...

It’s late again,
My eyes are forming,
Mucus on the membrane;
Transposing my perception.

The walls don’t seem as thick,
As they used to.
...

I try to touch them;
(So subtly)
...

But,
My hands pass through...
...

- And into something new.

sweetwater · 12-18-2004, 01:34 AM

you have beautiful rhythm with your words...it just flows like nostlaga's wind.

Nameless · 01-13-2005, 07:13 PM

Thanks sweetwater for the comment. I'm glad you liked it.

Here's somthing a little different...
A trifle disturbing...

------------------------------------------------------------

Lovers Lullaby
__________________________________________________ __

Sleep…
Sleep…

Here in my arms…

Experience…
Doesn’t speak so highly of you…

Come a little closer my love…
Can’t you see, I need you so much?

I want to slip inside you…
(Wrap my hands around your throat)

Then fall asleep beside you…

Sleep…
Sleep…

Don’t try to run away…
You know I’ll catch you bitch…

Then spread you out…
Across the ground…
Pull your insides out…
…
And gag you when you try to shout...

As I send my spend inside you…
...

Close your eye’s my love…
...
You must be tired…
…

Try to get some sleep…
__________________________________________________ _

Kiel · 01-13-2005, 07:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Nameless

Hate myself,
Hate myself,
Loathe myself . . .

Hurt myself,
Sate myself,
. . .

Piss on myself . . .

Punish me.

***

Hear myself,
Hate myself,
. . .

Over nothing . . .

Nothing’s always something,
So . . .
Don’t pity me . . .

Punish me instead.

***

Backlit rooms;
Always alive with shadows . . .
. . .

Bristles on brooms;
Sweep away the broken fragments . . .
. . .

Of broken dreams.

Dried blood, and tortured screams.

------------------------------------------------------------

Discouraging:

I feel alive when I’m as,
Close as this . . .

Standing on the line,
Drawn between:,
The positive and negative.

Swirling in this chaos in,
Continuous circles.
Creating a pattern,
And following it . . .
. . .
Not straying very far from it.

Intoxicating myself, with the reasoning.
It’s so fucking,
Enlightening;
. . .

Discouraging . . .

------------------------------------------------------------

Chemical Nourisment:

I constantly, intoxicate myself.
Chemical nourishment;
To change everything . . .

Bobbing my head, to gentle rhythms . . .
Pulsating, vibrating,
Everything that makes me,
Me.
. . .

Swimming against the current.
Standing in torrential rain.
Saturating, my existence.
Blocking out,
All of my pain . . .
. . .

Struggling to stand again.
. . .

And failing . . .
. . .

Horribly.

I like it. It is very musical and for some reason exciting.

12-14-2004, 08:12 AM	#101 (permalink)
Nameless Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: ??? Age: 25 Posts: 215 Points: 4,209.88 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 4,209.88 Donate	Alright I'm back. I've been traveling, and in the hospital for awhile. Hopefully I can check this thread at least a bit more often. Thanks axe for the comments while I was gone. Untitled: ________________________________________________ Disappointed. Nicotine stained; My fingers. Scars of, a hideous life; A pitiful lack of healthy emotions... Well, it's a matter of perspective; These things take time... So drown it out with disinfectant, And learn to live a lie... [Pray for me - I need something to believe] [Nothing is sacred - Nothing is sacred to me] Scrounging for cigarette butts, To still my shaking hands; Repress my abusive childhood; Maintain my sanity... Ignore the bitter evening air; And stand, Enraptured by the stars... As if a change in constellation, Could bring solace to my suffering... Or pass a little time... I'll close my eyes; Breathe deep... To suppress this old, Disquieting... Obsession of mine... [Nothing's sacred] [Nothing is sacred to me] X5 ... Disappointed... __________________ Myspace - Sententious: Subtly Changing Licentious Poiesis - The Eyes of Calistori Share your poetry, music, and art at the Creative Underground Last edited by Nameless : 12-31-2004 at 07:12 PM.

12-14-2004, 08:20 AM	#102 (permalink)
Nameless Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: ??? Age: 25 Posts: 215 Points: 4,209.88 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 4,209.88 Donate	...sleepy... Sometimes, I see through, The elements... That combine, And bind, My flesh to this world... The days... ... They melt together... My eyes... ... Feel laced with sandpaper... But sleep still seems, A day away... ... Maybe tomorrow... ... Or the next day... --------------------------------------------------------- __________________ Myspace - Sententious: Subtly Changing Licentious Poiesis - The Eyes of Calistori Share your poetry, music, and art at the Creative Underground Last edited by Nameless : 01-06-2006 at 10:50 AM.

12-17-2004, 09:22 AM	#107 (permalink)
Nameless Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: ??? Age: 25 Posts: 215 Points: 4,209.88 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 4,209.88 Donate	Thanks everyone for the comments. It was really nice to get a few since I just got back. I'm working on a lot of stuff that is inspired by dreams, so they flow kind of wierd depending on what I'm talking about. Here's another one like that... I hope you like this too. --------------------------------------------------- Sententious - Subtly Changing _____________________________________________ There’s not as much of you. The air is weighted too... The dew on the grass, Like diamonds, lights your eyes. ... The rain subsides, Beneath, the sunrise... ... And everything is new. * Stretching my arms, up and out, I remember... You lifting me out, Like an old forgotten friend. The days aren’t as long, As they used to be. ... At least, ... That’s what it feels like to me... * The waste from the houses, Washes into the streets... Not purging the sickness, But you still, sigh in relief... When you were a child, You had so much potential. Well, ... Now you mean nothing like me... * So stretching my thoughts, Up and out, I remember... ... You leaving me out, Like an old forgotten friend.... The days just aren’t long, Like they used to be. ... At least, ... That leaves, less time left for me... (And I’m not sorry...) (...) (It’s not so painful anymore.) (x3) The world’s not beautiful... ... It used to be, ... At least, ... That’s what it felt like to me... ... * The cold and lifeless air, Feels flat around me. The arms of my despair; Shrouding... My unguarded torso. And pulling me down... ... It’s late again, My eyes are forming, Mucus on the membrane; Transposing my perception. The walls don’t seem as thick, As they used to. ... I try to touch them; (So subtly) ... But, My hands pass through... ... - And into something new. __________________ Myspace - Sententious: Subtly Changing Licentious Poiesis - The Eyes of Calistori Share your poetry, music, and art at the Creative Underground

01-13-2005, 07:13 PM	#109 (permalink)
Nameless Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: ??? Age: 25 Posts: 215 Points: 4,209.88 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 4,209.88 Donate	Thanks sweetwater for the comment. I'm glad you liked it. Here's somthing a little different... A trifle disturbing... ------------------------------------------------------------ Lovers Lullaby __________________________________________________ __ Sleep… Sleep… Here in my arms… Experience… Doesn’t speak so highly of you… Come a little closer my love… Can’t you see, I need you so much? I want to slip inside you… (Wrap my hands around your throat) Then fall asleep beside you… Sleep… Sleep… Don’t try to run away… You know I’ll catch you bitch… Then spread you out… Across the ground… Pull your insides out… … And gag you when you try to shout... As I send my spend inside you… ... Close your eye’s my love… ... You must be tired… … Try to get some sleep… __________________________________________________ _ __________________ Myspace - Sententious: Subtly Changing Licentious Poiesis - The Eyes of Calistori Share your poetry, music, and art at the Creative Underground Last edited by Nameless : 06-16-2005 at 12:21 PM.

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12-14-2004, 04:57 PM	#103 (permalink)
Oayis Fledgling Post Monkey Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Philly, yo. Age: 18 Posts: 1,493 Points: 1,750.00 Bank: 311,835.94 Total Points: 313,585.94 Donate	Wow, some of your poems brought me to tears! The movement of it all, just...wow.

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sweetwater Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Posts: 862 Points: 142.00 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 142.00 Donate	beautiful pieces nameless...very touching stuff.

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sweetwater Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Posts: 862 Points: 142.00 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 142.00 Donate	you have beautiful rhythm with your words...it just flows like nostlaga's wind.

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