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Raskull · 02-20-2006, 05:29 PM

no title.

All is well as well could be
So why does it feel like I should write?
Because my heart is worried
Because my mind is troubled

The time's approaching
Like a panther in the fog
My time for self sacrfice
Chance to make things right

I'm recovering from an attack of fate
But fact won't change
My damage was done
And the burning doesn't stop

Though I've broken away
I'm still a part of this endless cycle
The parasite of a human attraction
To painless harm

Next part
I'm at fault
Like so many
Times before my own

Why's he take the punishment?
Why not me?
Betrayed

Raskull · 02-27-2006, 12:02 AM

My thoughts have been a mess lately. Can you tell?

Willows
She's the puppet master
Her puppets fight and cry for her

I said I loved him
He said he didn't know me
Am I really so heartless?

She's like dried blood
Clinging to a wounded heart

We only sit and watch the waves crash
We all seek our own
Selfish pleasures

She's killing herself
And bringing everyone down with her

I'm a deciever and a liar
Like a lone wolf
Searching for a foolish pack

She's lost in a dark wood
Stuck in a vile trap with no creator

Wonder when she's gonna go mad
You tell me
I wonder
Hasn't she already?

Raskull · 03-05-2006, 06:09 PM

Really long, shitty, emo, and um... shitty. But worth reading I think.

Hurt
As I read through your thoughts
As you've once read though mine
Realization hits me and I can see
It's always been there but I've denied

I''ve soaked your thoughts with my tears
The dark blue ink runs and distorts
I've ruined the art of your mind
But I need you too much to care

I'd give anything to have you back
In this broken home
It's your home too
But now they say it's just mine

You're trying so hard
To leave it all behind and move on
I wish you could see you're leaving me
I wish you could even care

You left me here to die
Without even knowing
Oh god, I didn't even know
How much I need you

I decorated the walls with my blood
With my hatred I wrote you away
I'm sure you saw how much I hurt
I think you hurt too but you pushed it all on me

I'd give anything
Anything
Just to have you hit me
And tell me how worthless I am

I saw you were dying but I screamed at you
I told you I hated you and I wished you dead
Oh I am guilty but you hurt me too
Guess we just wanted to spread it around

How to say sorry?
Can't.
The hurt's still there

You used to dream all the time
But I was never in one of those dreams
Was I?
Always did leave me in the backround

I thought I liked it that way
I was so wrong
Now you're gone, like I wanted
You left me here but you took all I had with you

What's left now!?
Just me and the fading memories
Me and all the painful reminders
Just me and all the empty thoughts

I want you so badly
Just to hold me and kiss me
And tell me you love me
I need so badly to say I do too

But I'm too late
This fucking poem means nothing
Because it will never end in your hands
I wish you'd hit me for it

It hurts
That my pride won't let me say sorry
It hurts
That because I'm scared I can't say I love you
It hurts
That I'll never let you see how much I care
It hurts
That I have to write a poem about you
So I can forget you

Too late again
Look what I'm doing without you
You were always right
And now I'm lost without you

It hurts
It hurts
It hurts
It hurts

I want to hurt again
Not like this.

I love you
And now it means nothing.

Raskull · 03-17-2006, 09:51 PM

Pleasure and Distraction
What a place it is
Where blood is traded for oil
It's more common place of murder
For money more than justice
Pleasure and distraction

Don't expect a thing from me
My mind has weakness
I'm not as strong as my sword
And I'd love to let you down

What a place
Where blood is wasted for hate
It's more common place
For blood in the hand of innocence
People want vengence

What a place this is
Where you're recognized by a number
Built over top a fallen empire
Founded for love of bliss stupidity
Pleasure and distraction

**Melanie** · 03-17-2006, 09:59 PM

Sara, this is so very sad, yet so very beautiful. Thank you.

Wildangel · 03-17-2006, 10:46 PM

Hey you. Seems your stuff is getting deeper. I like that. I can tell that you are reaching into your emotions a bit more. It is showing in your writing. They flow very well. They are sad, like Melanie said. But they bring out true emotion. Keep writing, you have a good thing going here, it is also a very good emotional release.

Raskull · 03-18-2006, 12:39 AM

Thank you, you two. I can't even begin to explain how much even one little reply means to me. I know... I've been all emo lately lol

Raskull · 03-23-2006, 10:18 PM

Will
An ocean of red lights
Slung into and peircing
The night calm sky

Ash tipped fingers
Breaking through the boundries
Of what you all see as real
Into a guiltless greedy passion

So just pull the trigger
A gentle finger to release such power
Power to take life
And noone will know, noone

Glad I'm not God
Cause I wouldn't have the heart or will
To say No to anyone's wishes
I'd set fire to this little circus

I'm done but it's over
Pull the trigger
For the love of God
Just pull the trigger

Suffering is holy
But there is a load I can't bare
And noone else will take
So pull the trigger

Raskull · 03-24-2006, 08:51 PM

First of all I really can't thank you enough. For the time it takes to read everything, for the time to make such a large post, for even making a post, ect. So on to specifics

Quote:

Originally Posted by MOLPtStW

Literally! It’s above the Evanescence itself!

(But there’s no greater song then Bring Me To Life).

I wouldn't want to even be compared to such a band.

Quote:

Will (that one made me really laugh).

So I'm guessing you got that

Quote:

This thread saved my day. I was running out of inspiration to reply to some threads and then this one came up.

That is all I woulda needed to make my day.

Quote:

My favorite lines:

I feel your pain
Oh it tastes so good
To see another go insane
…

If you ever become invisable come down and see the people I see everyday... You'd see what I mean.

Quote:

Are you okay?
Sure I am
When no one knows I exist
Sin is my only friend now

I've always been asked that question... I sometimes want to tell people WTF do you think? People only notice the bad things I do so, for attention, I'd do more.

Quote:

This place I am now
It’s just a prison cell
Locked somewhere
In the depths of hell

I really don't remember

Quote:

From the shadow man
He made me filth like him
And he isn’t done yet
I can’t sleep in their so called safety
I’m already haunted
I’ve lost another fight to him

It's about an abusive prick of a boyfriend I used to have... I call him shadow man because I only saw him at night.

Quote:

Don agree. I would go and rewrite it to:
“Why’s everyone want to die
If when you’re dead all you want to do is live”

I would but that would totally change the meaning, my friend.

Quote:

It’s not so bad. Though, in a little while, around 3058 or so…

You can put a date on it, but don't be suprised if it comes much sooner.

Quote:

That’s a lie!

I'm emo enough to prove it

Quote:

Off you go my post.

I’ll go now to rest in peace for the rest of the day.

.....
Great song, great lyrics, great music!
..And then.. at the end, think, I’ll listen to some My Immortal..

You enjoy that

Thanks a ton.

There will be more, hopefully tonight.

02-20-2006, 05:29 PM	#111 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	no title. All is well as well could be So why does it feel like I should write? Because my heart is worried Because my mind is troubled The time's approaching Like a panther in the fog My time for self sacrfice Chance to make things right I'm recovering from an attack of fate But fact won't change My damage was done And the burning doesn't stop Though I've broken away I'm still a part of this endless cycle The parasite of a human attraction To painless harm Next part I'm at fault Like so many Times before my own Why's he take the punishment? Why not me? Betrayed __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

02-27-2006, 12:02 AM	#112 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	My thoughts have been a mess lately. Can you tell? Willows She's the puppet master Her puppets fight and cry for her I said I loved him He said he didn't know me Am I really so heartless? She's like dried blood Clinging to a wounded heart We only sit and watch the waves crash We all seek our own Selfish pleasures She's killing herself And bringing everyone down with her I'm a deciever and a liar Like a lone wolf Searching for a foolish pack She's lost in a dark wood Stuck in a vile trap with no creator Wonder when she's gonna go mad You tell me I wonder Hasn't she already? __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

03-05-2006, 06:09 PM	#113 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	Really long, shitty, emo, and um... shitty. But worth reading I think. Hurt As I read through your thoughts As you've once read though mine Realization hits me and I can see It's always been there but I've denied I''ve soaked your thoughts with my tears The dark blue ink runs and distorts I've ruined the art of your mind But I need you too much to care I'd give anything to have you back In this broken home It's your home too But now they say it's just mine You're trying so hard To leave it all behind and move on I wish you could see you're leaving me I wish you could even care You left me here to die Without even knowing Oh god, I didn't even know How much I need you I decorated the walls with my blood With my hatred I wrote you away I'm sure you saw how much I hurt I think you hurt too but you pushed it all on me I'd give anything Anything Just to have you hit me And tell me how worthless I am I saw you were dying but I screamed at you I told you I hated you and I wished you dead Oh I am guilty but you hurt me too Guess we just wanted to spread it around How to say sorry? Can't. The hurt's still there You used to dream all the time But I was never in one of those dreams Was I? Always did leave me in the backround I thought I liked it that way I was so wrong Now you're gone, like I wanted You left me here but you took all I had with you What's left now!? Just me and the fading memories Me and all the painful reminders Just me and all the empty thoughts I want you so badly Just to hold me and kiss me And tell me you love me I need so badly to say I do too But I'm too late This fucking poem means nothing Because it will never end in your hands I wish you'd hit me for it It hurts That my pride won't let me say sorry It hurts That because I'm scared I can't say I love you It hurts That I'll never let you see how much I care It hurts That I have to write a poem about you So I can forget you Too late again Look what I'm doing without you You were always right And now I'm lost without you It hurts It hurts It hurts It hurts I want to hurt again Not like this. I love you And now it means nothing. __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

03-17-2006, 09:51 PM	#114 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	Pleasure and Distraction What a place it is Where blood is traded for oil It's more common place of murder For money more than justice Pleasure and distraction Don't expect a thing from me My mind has weakness I'm not as strong as my sword And I'd love to let you down What a place Where blood is wasted for hate It's more common place For blood in the hand of innocence People want vengence What a place this is Where you're recognized by a number Built over top a fallen empire Founded for love of bliss stupidity Pleasure and distraction __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

03-17-2006, 09:59 PM	#115 (permalink)
Melanie Out of my hands Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Sunny Tampa Florida...aka...Hurricane Hotbed Age: 32 Posts: 1,612 Points: 1,767.11 Bank: 18,770,166.65 Total Points: 18,771,933.76 Donate	Sara, this is so very sad, yet so very beautiful. Thank you. __________________ “We expect our lives to be happy, trouble free and victorious. We forget that victories come only after we fight battles.” "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe

03-17-2006, 10:46 PM	#116 (permalink)
Wildangel Moderator Join Date: Jun 2005 Posts: 2,637 Points: 2,827.74 Bank: 13,966,606.43 Total Points: 13,969,434.17 Donate	Hey you. Seems your stuff is getting deeper. I like that. I can tell that you are reaching into your emotions a bit more. It is showing in your writing. They flow very well. They are sad, like Melanie said. But they bring out true emotion. Keep writing, you have a good thing going here, it is also a very good emotional release. __________________

03-18-2006, 12:39 AM	#117 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	Thank you, you two. I can't even begin to explain how much even one little reply means to me. I know... I've been all emo lately lol __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

03-23-2006, 10:18 PM	#118 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 18 Posts: 485 Points: 3,324.98 Bank: 8,356.43 Total Points: 11,681.41 Donate	Will An ocean of red lights Slung into and peircing The night calm sky Ash tipped fingers Breaking through the boundries Of what you all see as real Into a guiltless greedy passion So just pull the trigger A gentle finger to release such power Power to take life And noone will know, noone Glad I'm not God Cause I wouldn't have the heart or will To say No to anyone's wishes I'd set fire to this little circus I'm done but it's over Pull the trigger For the love of God Just pull the trigger Suffering is holy But there is a load I can't bare And noone else will take So pull the trigger __________________ Fuck you and your rules. Smile for me.

03-24-2006, 10:05 PM	#120 (permalink)
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