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Raskull · 07-09-2006, 01:21 AM

The original version was deleted because my computer sucks. It was much better and heartfelt than this one but oh well, what the hell? For the shittyness of this the poem will be know simply as version 2

Version 2
Empty words
Thoughtless actions
Becoming who
I am

Wounded, you
Wrote me a poem
And hid in the
Saftey of plastic shadows

Fallowing to watch this
Horror movie

Freezing tears flow down
Your beautified face
Cold pain for
Such cold words

Plucking tears
From pale cheeks
Smiling, softly
At me and my shock

Skilled, Expirenced finger
Making demented art
Slice, slice, slice, slice
Ice in your tender throat

Not over, not yet
Spilling from your veins
Into your hands
Dark sorrow and dying bliss

Skilled, expirenced fingers
Slip across my dumbstruck lips
Giving me a demented kiss
Leaving terror in it's wake

Disconnected, afraid
Eyes pleading for release
Shushed through the end
Agony smouldering

Unholy, unprotected
In my arms
Her corpse
Dreaming to wake up

Ashlee · 07-09-2006, 01:24 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Raskull

Wounded, you
Wrote me a poem
And hid in the
Saftey of plastic shadows

Unknowingly I fallow
To watch this
Horror movie

I really love these lines.

They're vivid, but there's still a sense of normality.

well done

Raskull · 07-09-2006, 03:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by MOLPtStW

hey, where's that hard core song from bleedingandscreaming site

...

Kittie - Do You Think Im A Whore.... I think I deleted it. I really want to change it.

Quote:

Hey whats that say, from Saturday, July 08, 2006.

Hey, hey. It's in code lol. You're supposed to figure it out... but cuz I love you I'll tell ya anyway. It says:
"Rapidly becoming obsessed with images of horror and gore." Something like that.

Quote:

hahe,well, if you dont want them to haunt you, you shall let them captivate you. that way, cant they haunt you longer, cuz you're captured. the haunt will be over.

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The haunt comes when the captivation is over, my friend.

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tell me about it. i guess the previous version was even much better then this one! if you deleted check the trash(

)

I didn't. WordPad wasn't working so I wrote it directly in the thread... and then the window closed out on me as I was making final edits

Quote:

'Empty words' are good

'Thoughless actions' are good

better empty and thoughtless then full and thoughfull

It's about saying upsetting things you don't mean.

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'Dreaming to wake up' and 'Her corpse'...
'Corpse dreaming to wake up in her arms'
CORPSE dreaming, to wake up. CORPSE dreaming!
Her 'dead' body/soul laying on the ground, waiting to wake up from
the neverending nightmare.

Pretty much.

Quote:

Close your eyes and put the My Immortal(piano vocal) on.haha
At least its nightmare, not darkness. Darkness' worse.
You know nightmares usually ends

Usually.

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If you think you dont have skills you're wrong

Haha so I keep being told. At least I'm to the point I can somewhat respect my work though. I'm not yet ready to say I have skills of any kind.

Raskull · 07-10-2006, 06:04 PM

Just a quickie and a fair warning: It deals with anorexicia/bulemia. I'll abmit this is not a great poem but about as blunt and true as it gets.

Sick
I feel gross
I look disguesting
Can't look in the mirror
Cause' that fat bitch is there

Would he hit me
If I were pretty?

Pretty
I want to be pretty
Need to be perfect
Want to see my ribs

Can't eat
Sick
Withering
Food in tubes

Make me eat
Barely able to stand
Staring at it
Shoving down my throat?

It's okay though
Stick bone down my throat
In the shower

Pain
Agonising pain
Deep within my empty stomach
Dying to be perfect

Sick
Anorexic
Bulemic

My eyes black
Skin and bones
Sick
I'm so sick

But not perfect
Never will be
I think I need
Surgery.

Raskull · 07-12-2006, 04:05 PM

Bewildered
Try to understand
Never wanted to

Ask God
WHY
But the night
Remains empty

Run to your knight
In shining armor
Answers recieved
Bellowed in rage

Only you don't want
His supposed truths
The confusion stays

Words leaking
Through thin binds of flesh
Brain straining to understand
You denie what you know

Choking for hope
Begging someone
Tell me
Does anyone love me?

Silence to your ears
If only you could hear
Why ask?

Raskull · 07-13-2006, 08:54 PM

Thanks man! You are seriously awesome

make me feel special. I'd answer all your questions but I simply don't have the energy. I'll pm you later.

I wish you'd just hit me
But you go at
Ripping apart my insides
Wish you'd just finish it

Say I lie
I hurt you, I hurt you
Say you'll die
If I go on

Mistake after mistake
How foolish could one be?
I warn you what you were getting into

But you remember
Your own words
Never mine
This is the way I am

I wish I could say sorry
But it's not enough
Destroying my mind
Wish I could just die

Pouring loathe down my throat
For once it does no good
Witch
You cursed me

I wish your beloved
Would fuck me already

Raskull · 07-29-2006, 11:58 PM

Down Final Part
Gulping open light with wide eyes
I see what I don't like
When feelings are real
And the angst is bleeding freely

Just one handful of words
From the ones
I wish to please most
Sends the whole world down

Never known what it's like
Not be able to say sorry
Suicide, a seduction
Of which I find no interest anymore

The wounds too deep to fix with words
Disappointment, betrayal
Disaster, distrust
Devastation

My heart was broken
I've broken even more
My heart is shattered
I kill the ones I would save

Woken from a nightmare
Only to find reality is worse
Than the drama filled dream
Oh God, can this be what is seen?

Time for me to grow up
I can't keep fooling myself or others
This rusty chain is separated
I can't put the piece back together

Trying to look at the sun
Yet it burned away my vision
Pulling me under the darkness

This is my problem
I'm ready to fix
But I want to drown
But I won't go down

Wake up or
Slip under
Go down
Go back to sleep

Raskull · 08-06-2006, 12:21 AM

Thank you as always man. Ohh and the neg rep is sexy

Pill popping
Drinking heavy
Ignoring

It's too late
Don't talk to me
It's too damn late
Your voice is a waste

Snorting
Bleeding
Forgetting

It's getting late
Can't erase
This dreadful mistake
It's getting too late

Laying down
No sound
Crying

Guess it's too late
To get on my knees
Guess it's too late
Please save me

Raskull · 08-20-2006, 04:18 AM

It sucks almost as bad as it's influences.

Curtains pulled down
Hiding everything off stage
Till it gets to large
And spills into their void

How could you do this to me?
After all the tears and trials
You tattoo me into a mist
Periced me within your wrist

The intoxicated rage
Dust sprinkled in a vial
Blowing ash into
A drowning heart

How could you do this to me?
After all the tears and love
You let her devour my young bride
Slashed my insides, ripped me wide

The envious pain
Rot dripping in a cup
Draining light out
A shattered window

How could you do this to me?
After all the tears and years
You burned my only friend
Pushed me down to cause the end

Curtains raises up
Actress goes on with the show
But her martyrdom flows outside
And spills into their void eyes

07-09-2006, 01:21 AM	#151 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	The original version was deleted because my computer sucks. It was much better and heartfelt than this one but oh well, what the hell? For the shittyness of this the poem will be know simply as version 2 Version 2 Empty words Thoughtless actions Becoming who I am Wounded, you Wrote me a poem And hid in the Saftey of plastic shadows Fallowing to watch this Horror movie Freezing tears flow down Your beautified face Cold pain for Such cold words Plucking tears From pale cheeks Smiling, softly At me and my shock Skilled, Expirenced finger Making demented art Slice, slice, slice, slice Ice in your tender throat Not over, not yet Spilling from your veins Into your hands Dark sorrow and dying bliss Skilled, expirenced fingers Slip across my dumbstruck lips Giving me a demented kiss Leaving terror in it's wake Disconnected, afraid Eyes pleading for release Shushed through the end Agony smouldering Unholy, unprotected In my arms Her corpse Dreaming to wake up __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me. Last edited by Raskull : 07-09-2006 at 03:39 AM.

07-10-2006, 06:04 PM	#154 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	Just a quickie and a fair warning: It deals with anorexicia/bulemia. I'll abmit this is not a great poem but about as blunt and true as it gets. Sick I feel gross I look disguesting Can't look in the mirror Cause' that fat bitch is there Would he hit me If I were pretty? Pretty I want to be pretty Need to be perfect Want to see my ribs Can't eat Sick Withering Food in tubes Make me eat Barely able to stand Staring at it Shoving down my throat? It's okay though Stick bone down my throat In the shower Pain Agonising pain Deep within my empty stomach Dying to be perfect Sick Anorexic Bulemic My eyes black Skin and bones Sick I'm so sick But not perfect Never will be I think I need Surgery. __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

07-12-2006, 04:05 PM	#155 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	Bewildered Try to understand Never wanted to Ask God WHY But the night Remains empty Run to your knight In shining armor Answers recieved Bellowed in rage Only you don't want His supposed truths The confusion stays Words leaking Through thin binds of flesh Brain straining to understand You denie what you know Choking for hope Begging someone Tell me Does anyone love me? Silence to your ears If only you could hear Why ask? __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

07-13-2006, 08:54 PM	#156 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	Thanks man! You are seriously awesome make me feel special. I'd answer all your questions but I simply don't have the energy. I'll pm you later. I wish you'd just hit me But you go at Ripping apart my insides Wish you'd just finish it Say I lie I hurt you, I hurt you Say you'll die If I go on Mistake after mistake How foolish could one be? I warn you what you were getting into But you remember Your own words Never mine This is the way I am I wish I could say sorry But it's not enough Destroying my mind Wish I could just die Pouring loathe down my throat For once it does no good Witch You cursed me I wish your beloved Would fuck me already __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

07-29-2006, 11:58 PM	#157 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	Down Final Part Gulping open light with wide eyes I see what I don't like When feelings are real And the angst is bleeding freely Just one handful of words From the ones I wish to please most Sends the whole world down Never known what it's like Not be able to say sorry Suicide, a seduction Of which I find no interest anymore The wounds too deep to fix with words Disappointment, betrayal Disaster, distrust Devastation My heart was broken I've broken even more My heart is shattered I kill the ones I would save Woken from a nightmare Only to find reality is worse Than the drama filled dream Oh God, can this be what is seen? Time for me to grow up I can't keep fooling myself or others This rusty chain is separated I can't put the piece back together Trying to look at the sun Yet it burned away my vision Pulling me under the darkness This is my problem I'm ready to fix But I want to drown But I won't go down Wake up or Slip under Go down Go back to sleep __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

08-06-2006, 12:21 AM	#158 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	Thank you as always man. Ohh and the neg rep is sexy Pill popping Drinking heavy Ignoring It's too late Don't talk to me It's too damn late Your voice is a waste Snorting Bleeding Forgetting It's getting late Can't erase This dreadful mistake It's getting too late Laying down No sound Crying Guess it's too late To get on my knees Guess it's too late Please save me __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

08-20-2006, 04:18 AM	#159 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 484 Points: 2,316.21 Bank: 8,031.94 Total Points: 10,348.15 Donate	It sucks almost as bad as it's influences. Curtains pulled down Hiding everything off stage Till it gets to large And spills into their void How could you do this to me? After all the tears and trials You tattoo me into a mist Periced me within your wrist The intoxicated rage Dust sprinkled in a vial Blowing ash into A drowning heart How could you do this to me? After all the tears and love You let her devour my young bride Slashed my insides, ripped me wide The envious pain Rot dripping in a cup Draining light out A shattered window How could you do this to me? After all the tears and years You burned my only friend Pushed me down to cause the end Curtains raises up Actress goes on with the show But her martyrdom flows outside And spills into their void eyes __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

08-20-2006, 05:29 AM	#160 (permalink)
Ashlee THATSWHATSHESAID Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Edward's meadow Age: 19 Posts: 2,757 Points: 10,417.47 Bank: 18,565.29 Total Points: 28,982.76 Donate