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music box · 04-22-2004, 07:49 AM

I'm sorry I am posting but, thats how I feel, you summed it all up those words, I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I love both you and Eugenia.

Euge · 04-22-2004, 04:56 PM

I want to tell you what it's needed to be done....
hang on
hang on to the good... and just keep on Steph...
Nothing will ever make any uglyness in your soul...because your soul is beautiful beyond anything... ethereal... and sweet.

And I want to tell you how to do to hang on
I guess just ... I don't know if it's right, or not... but be selfish... think only in you, in what you want, ... and as the ev song Steph... "who can decide what they dream"... you know what I dream, and well, even if I will forever dream with the same and it will never happen, I will still be dreaming about it.
And whatever is what you need now... I think that is a choice that you have to make... well, whatever that choice is... whatever you decide to continue with... is going to be okay. It really will. You don't worry about how, because it will be okay.

And Stephi, believe me that you deserve so much more of what you have. You are the most beautiful person... I wish everybody to know it... and you only deserve good things... but you have to learn (we all have I think) how to make the bad things that life has given you, and turn them into things with beauty.... no run away... please don't... because even without you noticing it, the bad will become beauty... for you, because of you.

**Kaydee** · 04-22-2004, 05:00 PM

Ive been away for awhile. WOW How much youve grown in your writing. Its unbelievable!!! :P i am really glad i stop in to read some of your current stuff

music box · 04-23-2004, 06:35 PM

I appologize for posting again, but Eugenia is right Steph... think of yourself, you have thought of Eugenia and I too much, and weither you think about me anymore I don't know... but I don't want you too, because I want you to think only of your self, just like Eugenia says. I agree with her, you are beautiful and you can turn all the bad in your life into something so beautiful, I am learning... but I love you and you are in my prayers.

Emmalee

Shivercide · 05-01-2004, 03:34 AM

Splitting cells of the mind,
thought patterns gone awry.

Rationality has passed,
here comes madness at last.

It's an emotional outbreak
caused by strenuous intake,
shredding all that is whole,
I'm losing total control...

Laughter escapes me,
tracing lines of irony.

Agreeing with this lunacy,
forgetting what I believe.

This emotive confusion,
this crazy illusion,
the way things have become -
it's leaving me numb.

Shivercide · 05-01-2004, 03:55 AM

It's funny how everyone asks,
"How are you?"
and never wait to really hear the answer.
Through the years I have grown into a condition...
Through the experiences I have grown into myself.
Long ago, I learned so well
to not let any of the trauma
(that's flourished like a plague inside my soul)
seep through my pores for the outside-world to see.
It's all I've ever known to do...
to stand silent or to lie,
knowing they would walk away before I speak.
On the outside, numb to reality,
while underneath the skin
my heart is screaming to be heard.
When out of the corner of my eye
the shadow of an angel appears,
I only manage to say, "I'm fine."
As deep down and invisible,
my dying spirit reaches out...

only can't seem to escape...

the prison of my body,
the prison of my mind.

alone_i_break · 05-01-2004, 06:49 AM

beautiful. as always. the last one was my favourite.

Quote:

(that's flourished like a plague inside my soul)

that is like one of the best lines ever.

hey if you ever want to talk to someone who will stop to listen..... pm me. or if youve got msn add me. i like to listen. and i know how hard it is to go through things alone. but by the looks of things on here youve got eugenia and emmalee there for you.
but still. my offer stands.

Shivercide · 05-12-2004, 02:38 AM

Reaching

Code:

exhausted
  aching comfort
of heart-worn leaves burning softly
		against the essence
			 of my soul
flames flicker
	-feather/edged-
	smolder slowly
licking		skin
 
shredded spirit's wings
	flapping weakly
	   in the wind
   slow,
	small
	   flutters
of my see-through feather tips
 
  reaching
  brushing the horizon
 
 
 
 
the stone-cold dreamland
		   of escape

alone_i_break · 05-12-2004, 05:35 PM

that is all.

Shivercide · 05-12-2004, 07:05 PM

Added the above poem to this picture I made a long time ago. I would have edited the above, but decided not to in case the words below are a bit hard to read for some.

*hopes it works this tiiiime*

04-22-2004, 07:49 AM	#151 (permalink)
music box .has sexy hair. Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Part time in Hell. Part time in your pants. Age: 20 Posts: 1,054 Points: 310,399.17 Bank: 6.20 Total Points: 310,405.38 Donate	I'm sorry I am posting but, thats how I feel, you summed it all up those words, I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I love both you and Eugenia. __________________ Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small, I'm needy. Warm me up, and breathe me.

04-22-2004, 04:56 PM	#152 (permalink)
Euge Koroleva Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Buenos Aires Posts: 8,443 Points: 26,144.54 Bank: 322,251.37 Total Points: 348,395.91 Donate	I want to tell you what it's needed to be done.... hang on hang on to the good... and just keep on Steph... Nothing will ever make any uglyness in your soul...because your soul is beautiful beyond anything... ethereal... and sweet. And I want to tell you how to do to hang on I guess just ... I don't know if it's right, or not... but be selfish... think only in you, in what you want, ... and as the ev song Steph... "who can decide what they dream"... you know what I dream, and well, even if I will forever dream with the same and it will never happen, I will still be dreaming about it. And whatever is what you need now... I think that is a choice that you have to make... well, whatever that choice is... whatever you decide to continue with... is going to be okay. It really will. You don't worry about how, because it will be okay. And Stephi, believe me that you deserve so much more of what you have. You are the most beautiful person... I wish everybody to know it... and you only deserve good things... but you have to learn (we all have I think) how to make the bad things that life has given you, and turn them into things with beauty.... no run away... please don't... because even without you noticing it, the bad will become beauty... for you, because of you. __________________ I believe this is heaven to no one else but me And I'll defend it as long as I can be left here to linger in silence If I choose to would you try to understand?

04-22-2004, 05:00 PM	#153 (permalink)
Kaydee Mommy 2 Be !! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Chesapeake, VA Age: 27 Posts: 1,547 Points: 6,703.75 Bank: 112,708.65 Total Points: 119,412.40 Donate	Ive been away for awhile. WOW How much youve grown in your writing. Its unbelievable!!! :P i am really glad i stop in to read some of your current stuff __________________ Space for rent!

04-23-2004, 06:35 PM	#154 (permalink)
music box .has sexy hair. Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Part time in Hell. Part time in your pants. Age: 20 Posts: 1,054 Points: 310,399.17 Bank: 6.20 Total Points: 310,405.38 Donate	I appologize for posting again, but Eugenia is right Steph... think of yourself, you have thought of Eugenia and I too much, and weither you think about me anymore I don't know... but I don't want you too, because I want you to think only of your self, just like Eugenia says. I agree with her, you are beautiful and you can turn all the bad in your life into something so beautiful, I am learning... but I love you and you are in my prayers. Emmalee __________________ Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small, I'm needy. Warm me up, and breathe me.

05-01-2004, 03:34 AM	#155 (permalink)
Shivercide burn my heart to dust Join Date: Jul 2003 Posts: 3,470 Points: 9,499.75 Bank: 18,771,948.56 Total Points: 18,781,448.31 Donate	Emotional Outbreak Splitting cells of the mind, thought patterns gone awry. Rationality has passed, here comes madness at last. It's an emotional outbreak caused by strenuous intake, shredding all that is whole, I'm losing total control... Laughter escapes me, tracing lines of irony. Agreeing with this lunacy, forgetting what I believe. This emotive confusion, this crazy illusion, the way things have become - it's leaving me numb.

05-01-2004, 03:55 AM	#156 (permalink)
Shivercide burn my heart to dust Join Date: Jul 2003 Posts: 3,470 Points: 9,499.75 Bank: 18,771,948.56 Total Points: 18,781,448.31 Donate	Prison It's funny how everyone asks, "How are you?" and never wait to really hear the answer. Through the years I have grown into a condition... Through the experiences I have grown into myself. Long ago, I learned so well to not let any of the trauma (that's flourished like a plague inside my soul) seep through my pores for the outside-world to see. It's all I've ever known to do... to stand silent or to lie, knowing they would walk away before I speak. On the outside, numb to reality, while underneath the skin my heart is screaming to be heard. When out of the corner of my eye the shadow of an angel appears, I only manage to say, "I'm fine." As deep down and invisible, my dying spirit reaches out... only can't seem to escape... the prison of my body, the prison of my mind.

05-12-2004, 05:35 PM	#159 (permalink)
alone_i_break Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: gone...always gone Age: 22 Posts: 734 Points: 779.55 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 779.55 Donate	that is all.

05-12-2004, 07:05 PM	#160 (permalink)
Shivercide burn my heart to dust Join Date: Jul 2003 Posts: 3,470 Points: 9,499.75 Bank: 18,771,948.56 Total Points: 18,781,448.31 Donate	Reaching Added the above poem to this picture I made a long time ago. I would have edited the above, but decided not to in case the words below are a bit hard to read for some. hopes it works this tiiiime Last edited by Shivercide : 05-12-2004 at 09:01 PM.

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