Okay...I just wrote this a few minutes ago. I didn't revise it at all before posting...I didn't want to, as these are my feelings right now, my exact thoughts...and so...*cry*



[fade]Nightmare[/fade]


I go to sleep
in tears...
and I fall into another world,
I fall into the other side
of hell -
where hands are all over me,
feeling me,
dragging me down.

I hopelessly plead
(but silently pray)
that this is not
happening,
that you'll
come to your senses
and listen
when I tell you no.

But you slip through
my heart
(like you slip under
my clothes)
oh, how panicked
my insides have grown.
All my strength
turns to liquid,
as I can't get away...
I'm stuck in this
place,
underneath,
inside me.

Holding me down,
you cover my mouth,
leaving no air
to breathe...
and through
my own tears
I can't see-
only feel
burning pain
everywhere,
as exhaustion
takes over me...

I wake up in tears,
sweating,
shaking,
hurting just like
in the "dream".
I'm so afraid,
but I know -
although you have
taken
my body,
my soul is
out of reach.

I'm quite sure I know what nightmares is about, and it touched me. It is so sad when things like that happen, and it's just so wrong. I love the way you expressed it and the way you took it to another level. Great job.

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|but i need to survive.|
|tonight. tonight.|

for some reason, this stanza just hits me the right way. it floored me. i love it, and all your work!!!

Nothing more. Just that.
I :heart: you

Euge

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Thank you for your comments, everyone. : )

Little Fairy, I know you know where I am coming from...and I am sorry for that. I am in the process of healing, though...just sometimes I get overwhelmed, and that was one of those times. Writing helps, as does talking about it. Thank you for your kind words...

And Euge...I'm glad that when I wrote that (as upset as I was) I was still able to put a little hope into it...and I :heart: you too.

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could make me love you less...

wow.i just read every single one of your pieces and i love them all. its hard to distingush which is better than the others theyre all that amazing!! i really thinnk you have an amzing talent and really could get somewhere with your writing. keep up the amazing pieces.... and dont stop healing.....*hugs*

Somewhere

I lie inside
my body,
a salt-water soul
mingling
with tears
from the sky.

My flesh
is surrounding me
-so damaged,
so used-
a reflection
of what I feel
from within.

But neither rain
-nor the soothing liquid
from my eyes-
can ever wash
the filth away.

I just pray
that somewhere,
deep down,
I remain
ethereal...
and for that little part of me to
b r e a k
f r e e
and fly away.

I love that one. It describes exactly how I feel now. You're really good at capturing emotions... keep posting!

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(Avoid falling down.)
-The League of Bewildered Poets and Philosophers-

[fade]Beyond...[/fade]

You were the terror
in the sky that night,
to be reflected
for the rest
of my life.
In that one moment,
a rift occured...

-stabbing through my innocence-

...but my purity
you could not take.

It was because of you,
that such tears
(that I haven't learned to cry before)
now run down
into my image
on the floor.
But now I can separate
the darkness
from the light,
and have the glory
of mending
shredded
wings,
to make them
stronger
than they ever could have been before.

If it weren't for you,
I would now be able to be
-so close-
to the only man I've ever loved...
...without any thoughts
of it happening
again.

But as I take this pain
and push it into the dirt,
my eyes watering
the ugliness
away,
nothing
will grow out of it
but beauty.
I will scrape through the mud,
just to find the flowers...
and when I find them,
I will flourish with them,
flying beyond
any expectations...
even beyond
my own.

And that
is because of me.