*feels like i am repeating myself here* and it must seem that way to you. but steph i am speechless here i absolutely love your writing.
the italics and the smaller writing breaks it up and supports it beautifully.

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Today's the day when the dreaming ends...

Was there ever a wind
so cold,
so full of suffocating force?
...So cutting as it passes through the skin,
everlasting inside,
never disappating
in all its raging glory.

Could I forever stand up and endure,
cling only to the blessings
life has been so kind to hand to me,
and accept all the agonizing unfairness
as only what is due my way...

Is it selfish of me in this moment,
to cry so hard,
that it's hard to catch my breath...
or is it better yet to keep trying
to bite down on my skin
and stifle any painful sentiments
that may escape me?

Does heartbreak
like I've never understood before
make me any less grateful
for the things I thank repeatedly for
each and every day?

I know
that nothing will change
and I'll always be here,
by myself
under the driving force of this wind
for all my life...

(only able to surrender
to the breeze,
where it will have me captured
as all move on
and out of reach)

...and I can only silently wonder
if there's a place beyond my life,
beyond where my heart stops beating
and all breath ceases...

where things are different,
and soulmates
........do belong together.

I've found out
that there are not enough words
and no proper language,

no jar large enough
to capture sparks of fireflies,
and no amount of flowers
can console the pain
beneath.

Time passes slowly,
and ever so quickly,
and I am here in waiting
for it to pass me over;

to pass through me,
to open me,
to help me breathe when there is
no air.

...To help me cry
when there are no more tears.

To have no reflections
of a disjointed reality
in which I've seen so much,
slept so little,
and can never have
what I desire.

I ask for no more
cold fears of such a future
in which my heart may be fully yanked away,
never to return.

Sometimes I wish to pry
my soul from my skin and flee...
from all aspects
of me.

Other times,
I want only to curl up to myself
and escape

all the way inside
and stay there,
underneath.

Just WOW Steph.

That was very intence, so very deep, and with extreme power.
The way you express your self, and every word that is written,
I can like feel all that feeling and emotion, that is so very well
clear.
Your words are incredable, and really hits a person right in the heart.
You absolutely never fail to amaze me!
I love your stuff, and gosh, I always will!
<333

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Always Live Life To The Fullest,
And Never Take Anything For Granted!

Oh my Steph. Oh, my. I love this. I love you.

I think was my favorite part. I feel that way every night.

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What is this salt in my eyes...
this wetness, that's burning,

like this flame in my heart
that makes me so alive
but will always burn me badly
on the inside?

Why am I destined
to have to hurt so much
forever;

why am I asking questions
that don't even matter -

in the light of a fate,
where severed
is all
I can be.

it never ceases to amaze me steph how your resonate with me. this is just too beautiful too broken and i feel it 100% echoing in me.

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Today's the day when the dreaming ends...

Because sometimes it feels like you're cursed? Remembering everything forever.

The way you captivate feelings in words...you're so amazing.

Steph, you touch my soul.

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Thank you Steph for opening this back up. I love this thread with all my little bitty heart.

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