Vampyric. - EvBoard

Apryl · 07-11-2004, 10:19 PM

Summer/Fall 2006

Something is lurking at an enchanted funeral
Ended long ago
Eroticism veiled as a shadow-draped being
He has long watched countless bodies rain grey ashes on the cemetery hill
Though it may have been a dream
As everything is at those times when nothing truly exists but mental torment

Now digging like a rabid animal through the sepulchral earth
With sharpened teeth gnawing her rusted coffin nails
To consume the thickened blood inside
Her graveflowers long withered in carrion
But the ravens carried her eyes back from Hell
Preserved

And now the church bell tolls for midnight - The Witching Hour
Beginning the overture of her awakening screams
Impaled by sin again and again, he's beaten inside
As the submissive one in a necrophiliac's long lovelorn bondage
Or desired rape of too soon parted lovers

Her sharpened nails still painted in sinister red; dripping down her corpselike fingers
Ten rapturing incisions deep in his flesh, fervorously bleeding

He recalls the night she last spoke
-My gift to you is eternal life through nothing holy
But of a draught of nectar inside your veins
To transcend in nocturnity and allow yourself the sacrifice of tragic human life
Never again, shall you breathe
Therefore never lingering in the world of the bereaved...

The fairytale of an ancient religion in the Pantheon of Evil

The suicide of a vampire
Where man-eating spiders form webs from razor wire
She whispers
-Until the Moon turns to blood and rains down upon us
On a Winter night where dusk is birthed endless
We will burn ten thousand candles
And write black books on our shameless bane of God

She choked
-Lucifer, my eyes are thine
And anything beyond thee is forever asleep
Take my soul and set it in the west
Your eyes burning their ageless Venus blue
They will be there with me to see the ancient ruins formed yet again
And the day that ice re-enslaves the world
Never doomed to wander the shores of Hell's River of Lamentation
For a thousand years, as I once did...

You have dreamt my waking silhouette in haunted castles
Though you never came to save me
Is it of hidden desire to see me taken from you
Or do you believe that I am safe in the darkness
By the sight of my soul seeping from my never healing wounds
Like life and sanity vanquished from a pellagraic
And becoming one with nothingness

The suicide of a vampire who knew
He would one day resurrect her
A promise made countless years ago by a wicked angel and his nocturnal snow white bride
At the dawn of his new nascent; the end of death's transient eqinoux
Days grew shorter
He brought her back to a different life
A sanguinary passion - all they breathe now
As they stare through black eyes with a faith-sworn cognition
-Die now for me, as I have for you
And evermore we shall both drink
From the bloody waters of the River of Amaranthine

She moans
-Lucifer, your seed grows inside me
But not in the form of a breathing human child
It will never be birthed from me unto the outside world
It will never be touched by another
Your spoken words are my razors, as are they are my stitches
Yes, it is your voice coagulated in my veins
And deep in my heart, it is still barely flowing
Dripping; whispering...
In life we crave for death; in death we are immortal....

My only love...

Evil descends on the realms of celestia
Of a slumber blessed by nightmare and pentagrams scrawled in lifeless flesh
Infected by the saving destiny of sin...

Just as we know the only beauty in the dawn is the darkened blood dried to chafing lips
From the sacrifices of the Night
Our own unholy, and vampyric communion
And so far away, in temples of Lies
Millions choke on the Wine of Christ
Nevermore, the chance for salvation...

But in a distant dream I saw a long, forgotten sight
Silver eyes sparkling, ceasing endless black and white
Yes, a truthful flower blooming and no longer mistaken
For the cauterizing coals and relentless flames
That have torched my heart in sleep and waking life
So many times before

A red rose of night symbolic of your love;
An advent of a winter beginning flowering freely under our own demonic moon...
And now the warmth of your breath carries life into my sallow body
At the end of each day of anguish stricken by the crimson Sun
And our Castle of Devotion burns so surpassingly
Perfuming dusk's air with the scent of flesh and two cherishing souls searing together
Bound by the opulent rapture of desire...

And from the crackling of bone and memories
Comes a requiem from the earth's hallowed Night
Haunting it's course through lacerations of deliverance
To the grave that we will one day share
Where the incantation of our sacred music carves
An epitaph of eternal love into a tranquil rock; bathing in the faith-lit rain
Washing away the scars of yesterday
That had preserved me
Until the Mephistophelian glimmer in your eyes
Became my only desire in life

A choice formed by fate in the first breath of time
The reason, as I've learned, I've seen these years of moons rise
Now in discernment with the paradoxical force that in torture, kept us both alive...
Wholly justifed, and I understand the reason why our hearts still beat
For all this time you were cascading in my jaded veins
And all those endless days when I scratched you to the surface
To pacify the yearning for your softly spoken words; I didn't know existed until now
...Until we wept, and whispered secrets in the garden of the night...

And over the years those ecclesiastical souls
That we once knew arrive
Enchained now, by the eclipse of depravity
Against their once virtuous souls
Remembering the unspoken premonitions they held in previous lives
Those voices of revelation whispering
That their god, too would forsake them
Now in Hell's lowest sepulchre with windows that show only
The sins staged on an empty world that they couldn't admit to him, forever
Tormented by the tainted Eyes of Gothia....
But we forged a different path
And still in death, their unknowing souls won't ever reach us
When we wake, the sun will bring dusk for us
We never could survive in the unforgiving light
And I know one day by the silently watchful ocean, you will swear to me again
And I'll draw my name on your belonging heart, as yours is etched on mine today
We will swim together in the starlit sea; sharing a vastness to that of our eternal love;
And your eyes enchant me
To depths of worship that only the godless Moon has ever reached before

Despite so many trees of earthly infatuation I've seen fall to nothing
Rotting in an indifferent forest, as so many others
I know this true love dawns once, and never sets with the sun
An endless bloom of magic radiating and exisiting throughout history
Between only you and I
And I believe now as I never have before
The spirit of everything you are
Has always lived within my heart.

Like Athena bound by her own plaguing wisdom
I see the tired ones swinging from redeeming nooses
In the azure castles of the sky
Clouds with shapeless, funereal faces
Bearing gazes portending what is below
All the water is running red
Bloody tides crashing on a burning shore

Sand melting into a memory tainted glass
Longing to be shattered
Begging the sun to end it’s pain
The scent of smoke was always a solace to me
As it reminds me that I will one day burn

If only you could see what I saw
My bloody handprints smeared down your chest
A sacrifice I have made in devotion
To the vows I swore to you in darkness
But the creatures of remembrance in your mind
Are crawling from the sockets of your eyes
To consume me

The wax drips on your skin
As my wrists have dripped upon your heart
Reality has scared me eternally
I hear the death-rattle from the photographs of our lives
Shadows hidden in everyone
Drained and broken-hearted
You realize too late, like me
That all the days that you spent dreaming have destroyed you

You were the single firefly who caused the inferno that burnt the forest down
And the ash lost on the way to Heaven was me
The autumn sky swallows – choking on the entanglement of my scars
And I fall broken the to earth once again

At the end of the world there will be nothing but silence
Absolute darkness
And a single black candle that burns where your heart once lay
You ghost now hides in ancient ruins
In timeless sands
Where flowers bloomed wilted, and already cracked
Just as we are born to be jaded and die

Your silhouette drowns deep in my eyes
And from your words has seeped my endless terror
Irises seething into the darkest of shipless oceans
Like a forgotten realm of madness
As you have tired to swim away, stranded deep in the liquid life of another
Of one you have loved, but who couldn’t stop bleeding
She still kneels and the wake of sanity…

Like the sounds of water was always a solace to be hidden in
Memoir of the times we filled the bathtub with red ink
And soaked in it in silence
To pretend that we had already been pushed over the edge
So still – so numb
Like time didn’t exist

Every second is the same when you’re not breathing

Like the screaming of life was so quickly ended
And replaced by the dripping of water from the tap
Now the only thing that’s weeping
Yes, I still recall those days
And the sound of water is still a solace to me
For it reminds me that life is not all I may drown in

12:34

The sky folds dark velvet into night
Always knowing and everlastingly younger than death
With a tear that traces lines drawn upon your face
Painted again as my once wept poetry

Another who breathes the fire of anguish
An inferno from a different world
That once stained me with guilt – latticed me with blood lines
Tortured me with senseless breath
And now, with dripping lacerations
He returns my life to me
And you have only ever loved my darkness on the outside

A frail crown of baby’s breath slips from my head, around my neck
Photographed lustfully by someone whom I once held so sacred
Resting on a painted mirror, nostalgic of all the times I gazed hatefully into its eyes and wept
Now lonely, as we’ve always been
With nothing to reflect

But apocrypha believes in us
Sang to us when we were so hungry, so pale and corpselike
And I see now that all your wounds inside have healed dynastically
Gateways to Hades as alters of seared flesh
Giving bloodless birth to pathways that lead only to beds of carrion from the creature of our mortal love
Where our memories vanished into endless slumbers
Where the nocturnal scent of Moonflowers has replaced my sobs
And your screams resonating in the breathing air of the shadows

You suffocate in a world where razors shape the only keys
Where once upon a time of torment you unlocked my flesh
But now I see the saving grace of the Night all over again

The Angel Paranoia sleeps not tonight
Woeful eyes drowning in sockets filled with the morbid cynicism
That you have made my faith in life
Though the ever vain words that you once tried to rot my heart with
Has now eclipsed into the silent realization
That I had begged you to see for so long

We now sail on different oceans, whose tides never again will meet
And the wind now whispers a different song

Love and loss
Love and loss

The night a darker saviour received your soul
Branded by three ancient numbers still burning in your eyes today
Where once a hopeless heart was ebony framed as your self portrait
But now a promised afterlife breeds your unholy salvation...

That inverted thing from the sky that lives like a noose around your neck
Hanging above your heart to remind you that evil has already saved you
Know that your endless suffering bears reason
And all the things that you have seen will exalt you on the other side
Where fire is our nocturnal light, and the truth of the past is forever shown in the smokey sky...
Somebody dies - Crucified
Another disobeys and destroys our chance to survive

...These are the reasons why we dwell here in pain...
But our Morning Star shines in that same celestial garden...

And I, too know the solitude of life's noctuary
Where the warm touch and scent of blood is the only solace
But I have discerned from the dripping lines it leaves upon me
Messages saying that there's something more
That the very life that I am watching escape
From wounds that break open like the sky's reddest dawn
Was created in Him, and birthed inside me
We were chosen for something greater...

A sacrosanct majesty of deserving vampyria
To take back all the blood that we have lost
To the silent rape of razors
We drink from a chalice poised on an altar below the wine red eyes of the Nazarene
Where the earth's forgotten children pour acid in the river of christian souls
...Let them see the other side...
...Be terrified by their own eyes...

Taint their dreams with the suffering of our lives
An affliction they could never perceive
But now they hear our wicked laughing
A Carnival of Deviltry at which they're locked inside
Our infernal madness is the orthodox here...

Where a horned angel soars in on searing metal wings
Raining nails and gasoline
And we worship a face painted the deepest black
Whose upturned wrists drip our scarlet hope
And we are on our knees below
With tongues longing to taste
There is a place for all of us here
He takes their whore because he knows
That deep inside she hates herself most
He rises, and she is blind...

And something slithers from the filth of the divine mouth
Left lonely in heaven
Like a nest of starving maggots infesting an entombed corpse
Embalmed for centuries by faith
And never knowing of it's true ugliness until you see what crawls in it's eyes

And in our Book of Hate, lies only one name
The fire licks at your skin, but you shall never burn.

Like thorn to weeping petal you severed destiny
Though I once dreamt of our end together
Drowning as somnambulist feasting in devotion
On the poisoned wine of the Nightshade
I whispered that you’re killing me
And you told me that I’ll be so pretty dead

We crossed our sunken hearts that when I’m gone
You'll make me look just like I did the night we fell in love
And if they ever come to ask you’ll say
That she is not inside right now;
She has gone to play

Drain your regret and nostalgia in my requiem
So they may fly away together
Like autumn leaves asleep and sailing from sky to casket
Moving slowly, without sound
Like old film or a distant dream
Nearly forgotten at the passing of this reverie
You look through the weeping window and still see us holding hands
Running and laughing
As we did when we believed that time meant nothing
And now you place a single rose on the sombre earth
Where I’ll stay forever, in the trance of oblivion
Like the ashes of sorrow blowing across the desert, not a single tear shall fall
Though you once dreamt it had been you
Without the will to carry on
And I know that you once bled from my heart shattering in your hands

And when you’re the only one who remembers
You may untangle me from the soil and vines
And see the diamonds that you once gave me
Still in loyalty to you around my lifeless neck
And you will carve your name beside my epitaph, and lie down beside me
There will be nothing but the silence of your weary eyelids closing
And wistful swans who fly for a new beginning
When the morning comes breathing the teardrop dew of jewels
You will see
That so long we had fallen from abounding grace
Just to dream ourselves together again in those golden years of dusk

Do you remember how I once whispered
The day your lips part from mine brings death
That your waking eyes are the only light I need
In this darkened life...

Just as I once promised to save you
When the midnight tide rises
You will begin the dance of madness
And the nostalgia of your heart will draw you back to me

Remembering words that you once spoke, so deeply in love
As vividly as I remember the night you buried me
I laid beside you on the snow in a black lace gown
With dead flowers that you'd tied in my hair
To remind you that there is beauty left in death
While you dug a lonely hole and then slowly lowered me inside
I still remember the warmth of the only tears I've ever watched you cry

Yes, you made me beautiful
Showed me how to burn my wings into black ashes
All that long night I stood beside you
As I'd stood upon graves
In the time that blood still coursed through my veins

And now lunar flowers grow here upon me
Their roots eating away at me, as one with the Moon
Pollen fragrant with my withering flesh blows away with the wind
And sails in through your window at night, sleepless
Yes, I know you still feel me there

And when all those petals show that she loves you not
It will be my blood that drips from the severed stem
To remind you of our fate
In years you will learn that true love never withers
On the anniversary of my death
When your scars ache
You will return to me
As you knew I stood beside you all this time
I know you felt my heart beating next to you
Though I was not breathing

OLDER

Wrists torn by thorns
By Nemesis
I was there and it was the light that christened me unto your belief of mortal life
Eclectic like your hopeless mind that was there to breathe to me
Suicide
Beating from your heart
To the cold serrated metal placed upon mine
As I closed my eyes tightly and flew far away
To the trysting place
The Ivory Tower starred with salacious and bloody ice
Like the beloved from my nightmare
Where divinity rots
And love is lost to empty stares

From whence thy tears from the doctrine of glass
Somber Godlessness that fornicates the screams of realization
Your carnal knowledge that unleashed the terror
Bearaving you
My love within the dark
But you never truly touched me

Lacerta, how brightly shone your fire in the night
Like the Holy Ansata bears crucifiction to my eternal life

Funeral of my dissoluted heart
Licking at the corners of your sky
Bloodstained like the pervading ocean
Maimed like the breach from whence I first felt you
That longs for only you once again

I worshipped you like Athena
Unfailingly from the time your pain embraced me
And fingertips like tainted syringes danced into my skin
Vaccinated by your unparalleled beauty
Lips and hollowed eyes sewed brutally shut in euthanasia
So quickly I will pass
Unto the night, my unfeigned love
That shall never forsake me
As we masquerade away
In our veils of black
Spirits of the dark
And now truly invisible.

Death comes riding on a mare veiled by moonlight
Come to sever me from the torture and insanity
Inspired by the world in which your heart still beats

Just like death is the only promise that will never be broken
Let the angels fall with their last crystal tears tears
For none shall be forgiven
As they shatter upon your earth
And yes I'm nothing
In your cold soul burning
But yet I know you'll never see

My ocean eyed dream
From behind your archangelic wings
I will wait yet again and
Say hello to those who deserve you
While you watch me give what remains of my life to you
"Your little girl" just like you said
To me in so much despair
Unknowingly
Like like the fate of the roses
Drowning in bleach
Quietus, my oblivion

And again
I'm rotting deep inside
Nothing I can understand breathes now...
Bloody wrists, my murdered soul
Nothing you can understand will be now
But my silent and undying love for you

Like those times you can only pray that the bleeding doesn't stop
Weeping silently from a faith veiled by darkness
And the icy jade of your eyes is still so naive to sacrifice
Kill the sun
Like the mesmeric grasp of my heart's sepulchre
Breathing through cold, abandoned bars
And incised from the jagged window edges of glass
In somber attempt of a final escape
So it will bleed for the eternity of the pain that I've endured
Bloodshed upon the keyless locks from my promise of secrecy
Always asking where it hurts the most
Never hearing me whisper...
Inside

(whispered)

You'll never know what I'd give up for you
You'll never see how much I've loved you...

Her bloody hands tie ribbon in her hair
To face another day lost under hopelesness
Each voice she hears in her head
Brings sadist nails to her masochistic wrists
And bleed, bleed, bleed yet again.
The screams of pain are compulsive now

The words she eteched in her wall long ago
Still hidden under paint
Like the scars on the outside are hidden with time
A mannequin for death

Nothing like the rampant suicide calling
Of love she has faced before
Just silent longing
For what's been lost
A doll for loneliness
Only in the whispers of the night
In the fading of the light
Can she find peace within her solitude

The footprints of a lonely shadow drag through sand
Where a child's should have ran
Beside the ocean
Through pain and realization
The prints begin to grow more shallow
Her skin becomes more sallow
Until the waves sweep it all away
Drowning the memories that she held in life
An angel of darkness, she sails on broken wings
Far away into the night

Her voice echoes eternally in that valley...
Farewell to the walls of wisdom and inspiration
Hidden in that house of darkness
My heart will forever dwell in your memory.

And your dreams flow into reality from the slits upon my wrists
And the ropey scars from wounds inside
So young;
So dead.
You'll never be here to see me pray, or watch me bleed, or know it's for you
Until you see me, insipid and pure
Lashes turned down forever more
Within a pine box seething with realization
Eternally surrounded by decaying earth.

And I wonder
if you could look at me
sleeping forever
pale, like snow
and think I'm ugly, and you never cared
But I'd like to find out.

And I still question
if you saw my heart,
writhed asunder
slashed, like incurable wrists
would you change your mind
But I know you wouldn't.

And in the wilted spring
or the vampyric winter nights
Would you come to my desolate and wasting grave
And place your senescent flowers of darkness
Above my heart, upon it's stillness
Tombstone inscribed with something I wrote for you
But now too worn to read
You never understood.

And everytime you feel the rain
and watch it's beauty and dance with it's life
Know that every drop is but a single tear
In what I once cried for you

Like empty eyes forgotten and lost
Within this eternal storm.

belen_whisper · 06-25-2005, 12:46 PM

they´re amazing!!!really,I love the atmosphere.I love them.Keep posting

Codger · 06-25-2005, 09:34 PM

Nice writing April, reminds me of Cradle Of Filth, which is a great thing

BiiTy · 06-25-2005, 10:05 PM

A-W-E-S-O-M-E, very impressive, Congratulations and keep the good work

Lunar Sky · 06-27-2005, 06:21 PM

Amazing. I love your vocabulary. It brings the point across very clearly and I love the way you portray images with that vocabulary. Very impressive, and I look forward to seeing more from you.

Apryl · 06-27-2005, 06:36 PM

And in the mornings of despair
Twilight is dreampt of, eternally
Like the vines that crawl upon the walls
And curl around what used to be
A voice echos silently across the ocean of midnight
Whispering for your return to me

An anachronistic life
That can never find reason
Or justification for unbearable pain
The things never said are like venom
Spat from fangs that will never end the torment fully
My only true preservation borne from what was never real
Bled from cruel, tortured ocean water
Nothingness
You've been here all along

It's okay that you can't forgive because I will never forget
That mysterious glimmer that once shone in your eyes
Like always, there was something in the touch of the blade
That I searched, but could never find
In your embrace
There's something about the hopelessness I now see from within you
That makes it kill to say good-bye

Now when I look to the sky at night
It's always without the guidance of stars
Eternity has dawned in charcoal black
You must be so tired
From your lack of breathing
My eyes are like thorns
Tearing you to shreads
But I can't see at all if you're not here
Come back to me

Back to the lillies beside the ocean
That once bled blue with magic and dreams
That once upon a time, felt so real to me
Like the music you could never hear
Calling always for my return
The music of imaginary creatures, and voices of wolves
In a far off Neverland
Where fairies danced and whispered into the the fog of night
Never leave me

Return with me to a place
That no one will ever know
Where love overshadows the destruction of this world
We shall never die.

Apryl · 06-28-2005, 10:45 PM

The dreary moonlight shines upon him, flesh gently weeping with tears of ever-parting
To him the silent crowing of the midnight raven
Is but a single voice in the majesty of slaughter
And the silent,
Silent,
Silence preserves his dreaming beside the river of lowliness

I escape from the lovelorn forest
Baring only similarity to me
The presence of my pinion, a premonition
To my sleeping love

And I begin to asphyxiate him with
The umbilical rope he sowed within me
But I was merely dreaming, dreaming

And yes, I breathed of solitude
And whispered of the voice
The noiseless schizophrenia he bore within my head
And yes, for a second he discerned my pain
As the river carried the heartbeat of my true love eternally away

So I held his hand, and with his razor nails
I engraved his song deeply in my veins, and upon the beauty of his face,
A carving of scarification, never to be healed
Our radiant flesh, now insipid with demise

And in the presence of decay, my only wish came true
And in the dampness of our own forlorn Hell
The beauty of the inevitable – love – murder – suicide
Was befallen to resurrection within my submission of carnage and sadism
Whilst we danced in the blood of our broken hearts
And the hemorrhage of battered wrists
While blood-play, and sodomy he sanctified to only me

And we danced,
Danced,
Danced
In circular motion
Like the wounds from the abortion
I cast around his neck
And we yearned, and burned our wounded souls from the rest

Stealing breath only from the creature of my loneliness…

~*Alicia*~ · 07-01-2005, 11:21 AM

Oh April I have said many of times, how much i love your words and the way you create this story, of emotion and how you make us drift from reality to another world. The world of your words.

Where do you get your insperation from? your life or do you just condure ideas and events up in your mind and write from it? It just amazes me how you can write with so much imagry and passion. It makes me ashamed of my work and i just envy ((in a good way)) the way you think.

There isn't one peice of writing i do not love. Your so talented.

<333
Lots of love

Apryl · 07-01-2005, 11:41 AM

Everything I write about it from experience. How I feel today, or memories of how I felt before. I've been through a lot of stuff...And I think a lot, so I always have something to write about.

Thanks Alicia. <3

Frozen · 07-02-2005, 12:34 PM

OMG,April,I've heard you were talented but now that I see it with my own eyes I'm stunned and speechless!!!
These are amazingly written!!
I like their 'mood",if you know what I mean

Great job!!Keep on!!

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Apryl FROGS FTW Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Edmonton, AB. Age: 21 Posts: 3,210 Points: 756.91 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 756.92 Donate	Vampyric. Summer/Fall 2006 Something is lurking at an enchanted funeral Ended long ago Eroticism veiled as a shadow-draped being He has long watched countless bodies rain grey ashes on the cemetery hill Though it may have been a dream As everything is at those times when nothing truly exists but mental torment Now digging like a rabid animal through the sepulchral earth With sharpened teeth gnawing her rusted coffin nails To consume the thickened blood inside Her graveflowers long withered in carrion But the ravens carried her eyes back from Hell Preserved And now the church bell tolls for midnight - The Witching Hour Beginning the overture of her awakening screams Impaled by sin again and again, he's beaten inside As the submissive one in a necrophiliac's long lovelorn bondage Or desired rape of too soon parted lovers Her sharpened nails still painted in sinister red; dripping down her corpselike fingers Ten rapturing incisions deep in his flesh, fervorously bleeding He recalls the night she last spoke -My gift to you is eternal life through nothing holy But of a draught of nectar inside your veins To transcend in nocturnity and allow yourself the sacrifice of tragic human life Never again, shall you breathe Therefore never lingering in the world of the bereaved... The fairytale of an ancient religion in the Pantheon of Evil The suicide of a vampire Where man-eating spiders form webs from razor wire She whispers -Until the Moon turns to blood and rains down upon us On a Winter night where dusk is birthed endless We will burn ten thousand candles And write black books on our shameless bane of God She choked -Lucifer, my eyes are thine And anything beyond thee is forever asleep Take my soul and set it in the west Your eyes burning their ageless Venus blue They will be there with me to see the ancient ruins formed yet again And the day that ice re-enslaves the world Never doomed to wander the shores of Hell's River of Lamentation For a thousand years, as I once did... You have dreamt my waking silhouette in haunted castles Though you never came to save me Is it of hidden desire to see me taken from you Or do you believe that I am safe in the darkness By the sight of my soul seeping from my never healing wounds Like life and sanity vanquished from a pellagraic And becoming one with nothingness The suicide of a vampire who knew He would one day resurrect her A promise made countless years ago by a wicked angel and his nocturnal snow white bride At the dawn of his new nascent; the end of death's transient eqinoux Days grew shorter He brought her back to a different life A sanguinary passion - all they breathe now As they stare through black eyes with a faith-sworn cognition -Die now for me, as I have for you And evermore we shall both drink From the bloody waters of the River of Amaranthine She moans -Lucifer, your seed grows inside me But not in the form of a breathing human child It will never be birthed from me unto the outside world It will never be touched by another Your spoken words are my razors, as are they are my stitches Yes, it is your voice coagulated in my veins And deep in my heart, it is still barely flowing Dripping; whispering... In life we crave for death; in death we are immortal.... My only love... Evil descends on the realms of celestia Of a slumber blessed by nightmare and pentagrams scrawled in lifeless flesh Infected by the saving destiny of sin... Just as we know the only beauty in the dawn is the darkened blood dried to chafing lips From the sacrifices of the Night Our own unholy, and vampyric communion And so far away, in temples of Lies Millions choke on the Wine of Christ Nevermore, the chance for salvation... But in a distant dream I saw a long, forgotten sight Silver eyes sparkling, ceasing endless black and white Yes, a truthful flower blooming and no longer mistaken For the cauterizing coals and relentless flames That have torched my heart in sleep and waking life So many times before A red rose of night symbolic of your love; An advent of a winter beginning flowering freely under our own demonic moon... And now the warmth of your breath carries life into my sallow body At the end of each day of anguish stricken by the crimson Sun And our Castle of Devotion burns so surpassingly Perfuming dusk's air with the scent of flesh and two cherishing souls searing together Bound by the opulent rapture of desire... And from the crackling of bone and memories Comes a requiem from the earth's hallowed Night Haunting it's course through lacerations of deliverance To the grave that we will one day share Where the incantation of our sacred music carves An epitaph of eternal love into a tranquil rock; bathing in the faith-lit rain Washing away the scars of yesterday That had preserved me Until the Mephistophelian glimmer in your eyes Became my only desire in life A choice formed by fate in the first breath of time The reason, as I've learned, I've seen these years of moons rise Now in discernment with the paradoxical force that in torture, kept us both alive... Wholly justifed, and I understand the reason why our hearts still beat For all this time you were cascading in my jaded veins And all those endless days when I scratched you to the surface To pacify the yearning for your softly spoken words; I didn't know existed until now ...Until we wept, and whispered secrets in the garden of the night... And over the years those ecclesiastical souls That we once knew arrive Enchained now, by the eclipse of depravity Against their once virtuous souls Remembering the unspoken premonitions they held in previous lives Those voices of revelation whispering That their god, too would forsake them Now in Hell's lowest sepulchre with windows that show only The sins staged on an empty world that they couldn't admit to him, forever Tormented by the tainted Eyes of Gothia.... But we forged a different path And still in death, their unknowing souls won't ever reach us When we wake, the sun will bring dusk for us We never could survive in the unforgiving light And I know one day by the silently watchful ocean, you will swear to me again And I'll draw my name on your belonging heart, as yours is etched on mine today We will swim together in the starlit sea; sharing a vastness to that of our eternal love; And your eyes enchant me To depths of worship that only the godless Moon has ever reached before Despite so many trees of earthly infatuation I've seen fall to nothing Rotting in an indifferent forest, as so many others I know this true love dawns once, and never sets with the sun An endless bloom of magic radiating and exisiting throughout history Between only you and I And I believe now as I never have before The spirit of everything you are Has always lived within my heart. Like Athena bound by her own plaguing wisdom I see the tired ones swinging from redeeming nooses In the azure castles of the sky Clouds with shapeless, funereal faces Bearing gazes portending what is below All the water is running red Bloody tides crashing on a burning shore Sand melting into a memory tainted glass Longing to be shattered Begging the sun to end it’s pain The scent of smoke was always a solace to me As it reminds me that I will one day burn If only you could see what I saw My bloody handprints smeared down your chest A sacrifice I have made in devotion To the vows I swore to you in darkness But the creatures of remembrance in your mind Are crawling from the sockets of your eyes To consume me The wax drips on your skin As my wrists have dripped upon your heart Reality has scared me eternally I hear the death-rattle from the photographs of our lives Shadows hidden in everyone Drained and broken-hearted You realize too late, like me That all the days that you spent dreaming have destroyed you You were the single firefly who caused the inferno that burnt the forest down And the ash lost on the way to Heaven was me The autumn sky swallows – choking on the entanglement of my scars And I fall broken the to earth once again At the end of the world there will be nothing but silence Absolute darkness And a single black candle that burns where your heart once lay You ghost now hides in ancient ruins In timeless sands Where flowers bloomed wilted, and already cracked Just as we are born to be jaded and die Your silhouette drowns deep in my eyes And from your words has seeped my endless terror Irises seething into the darkest of shipless oceans Like a forgotten realm of madness As you have tired to swim away, stranded deep in the liquid life of another Of one you have loved, but who couldn’t stop bleeding She still kneels and the wake of sanity… Like the sounds of water was always a solace to be hidden in Memoir of the times we filled the bathtub with red ink And soaked in it in silence To pretend that we had already been pushed over the edge So still – so numb Like time didn’t exist Every second is the same when you’re not breathing Like the screaming of life was so quickly ended And replaced by the dripping of water from the tap Now the only thing that’s weeping Yes, I still recall those days And the sound of water is still a solace to me For it reminds me that life is not all I may drown in 12:34 The sky folds dark velvet into night Always knowing and everlastingly younger than death With a tear that traces lines drawn upon your face Painted again as my once wept poetry Another who breathes the fire of anguish An inferno from a different world That once stained me with guilt – latticed me with blood lines Tortured me with senseless breath And now, with dripping lacerations He returns my life to me And you have only ever loved my darkness on the outside A frail crown of baby’s breath slips from my head, around my neck Photographed lustfully by someone whom I once held so sacred Resting on a painted mirror, nostalgic of all the times I gazed hatefully into its eyes and wept Now lonely, as we’ve always been With nothing to reflect But apocrypha believes in us Sang to us when we were so hungry, so pale and corpselike And I see now that all your wounds inside have healed dynastically Gateways to Hades as alters of seared flesh Giving bloodless birth to pathways that lead only to beds of carrion from the creature of our mortal love Where our memories vanished into endless slumbers Where the nocturnal scent of Moonflowers has replaced my sobs And your screams resonating in the breathing air of the shadows You suffocate in a world where razors shape the only keys Where once upon a time of torment you unlocked my flesh But now I see the saving grace of the Night all over again The Angel Paranoia sleeps not tonight Woeful eyes drowning in sockets filled with the morbid cynicism That you have made my faith in life Though the ever vain words that you once tried to rot my heart with Has now eclipsed into the silent realization That I had begged you to see for so long We now sail on different oceans, whose tides never again will meet And the wind now whispers a different song Love and loss Love and loss The night a darker saviour received your soul Branded by three ancient numbers still burning in your eyes today Where once a hopeless heart was ebony framed as your self portrait But now a promised afterlife breeds your unholy salvation... That inverted thing from the sky that lives like a noose around your neck Hanging above your heart to remind you that evil has already saved you Know that your endless suffering bears reason And all the things that you have seen will exalt you on the other side Where fire is our nocturnal light, and the truth of the past is forever shown in the smokey sky... Somebody dies - Crucified Another disobeys and destroys our chance to survive ...These are the reasons why we dwell here in pain... But our Morning Star shines in that same celestial garden... And I, too know the solitude of life's noctuary Where the warm touch and scent of blood is the only solace But I have discerned from the dripping lines it leaves upon me Messages saying that there's something more That the very life that I am watching escape From wounds that break open like the sky's reddest dawn Was created in Him, and birthed inside me We were chosen for something greater... A sacrosanct majesty of deserving vampyria To take back all the blood that we have lost To the silent rape of razors We drink from a chalice poised on an altar below the wine red eyes of the Nazarene Where the earth's forgotten children pour acid in the river of christian souls ...Let them see the other side... ...Be terrified by their own eyes... Taint their dreams with the suffering of our lives An affliction they could never perceive But now they hear our wicked laughing A Carnival of Deviltry at which they're locked inside Our infernal madness is the orthodox here... Where a horned angel soars in on searing metal wings Raining nails and gasoline And we worship a face painted the deepest black Whose upturned wrists drip our scarlet hope And we are on our knees below With tongues longing to taste There is a place for all of us here He takes their whore because he knows That deep inside she hates herself most He rises, and she is blind... And something slithers from the filth of the divine mouth Left lonely in heaven Like a nest of starving maggots infesting an entombed corpse Embalmed for centuries by faith And never knowing of it's true ugliness until you see what crawls in it's eyes And in our Book of Hate, lies only one name The fire licks at your skin, but you shall never burn. Like thorn to weeping petal you severed destiny Though I once dreamt of our end together Drowning as somnambulist feasting in devotion On the poisoned wine of the Nightshade I whispered that you’re killing me And you told me that I’ll be so pretty dead We crossed our sunken hearts that when I’m gone You'll make me look just like I did the night we fell in love And if they ever come to ask you’ll say That she is not inside right now; She has gone to play Drain your regret and nostalgia in my requiem So they may fly away together Like autumn leaves asleep and sailing from sky to casket Moving slowly, without sound Like old film or a distant dream Nearly forgotten at the passing of this reverie You look through the weeping window and still see us holding hands Running and laughing As we did when we believed that time meant nothing And now you place a single rose on the sombre earth Where I’ll stay forever, in the trance of oblivion Like the ashes of sorrow blowing across the desert, not a single tear shall fall Though you once dreamt it had been you Without the will to carry on And I know that you once bled from my heart shattering in your hands And when you’re the only one who remembers You may untangle me from the soil and vines And see the diamonds that you once gave me Still in loyalty to you around my lifeless neck And you will carve your name beside my epitaph, and lie down beside me There will be nothing but the silence of your weary eyelids closing And wistful swans who fly for a new beginning When the morning comes breathing the teardrop dew of jewels You will see That so long we had fallen from abounding grace Just to dream ourselves together again in those golden years of dusk Do you remember how I once whispered The day your lips part from mine brings death That your waking eyes are the only light I need In this darkened life... Just as I once promised to save you When the midnight tide rises You will begin the dance of madness And the nostalgia of your heart will draw you back to me Remembering words that you once spoke, so deeply in love As vividly as I remember the night you buried me I laid beside you on the snow in a black lace gown With dead flowers that you'd tied in my hair To remind you that there is beauty left in death While you dug a lonely hole and then slowly lowered me inside I still remember the warmth of the only tears I've ever watched you cry Yes, you made me beautiful Showed me how to burn my wings into black ashes All that long night I stood beside you As I'd stood upon graves In the time that blood still coursed through my veins And now lunar flowers grow here upon me Their roots eating away at me, as one with the Moon Pollen fragrant with my withering flesh blows away with the wind And sails in through your window at night, sleepless Yes, I know you still feel me there And when all those petals show that she loves you not It will be my blood that drips from the severed stem To remind you of our fate In years you will learn that true love never withers On the anniversary of my death When your scars ache You will return to me As you knew I stood beside you all this time I know you felt my heart beating next to you Though I was not breathing OLDER Wrists torn by thorns By Nemesis I was there and it was the light that christened me unto your belief of mortal life Eclectic like your hopeless mind that was there to breathe to me Suicide Beating from your heart To the cold serrated metal placed upon mine As I closed my eyes tightly and flew far away To the trysting place The Ivory Tower starred with salacious and bloody ice Like the beloved from my nightmare Where divinity rots And love is lost to empty stares From whence thy tears from the doctrine of glass Somber Godlessness that fornicates the screams of realization Your carnal knowledge that unleashed the terror Bearaving you My love within the dark But you never truly touched me Lacerta, how brightly shone your fire in the night Like the Holy Ansata bears crucifiction to my eternal life Funeral of my dissoluted heart Licking at the corners of your sky Bloodstained like the pervading ocean Maimed like the breach from whence I first felt you That longs for only you once again I worshipped you like Athena Unfailingly from the time your pain embraced me And fingertips like tainted syringes danced into my skin Vaccinated by your unparalleled beauty Lips and hollowed eyes sewed brutally shut in euthanasia So quickly I will pass Unto the night, my unfeigned love That shall never forsake me As we masquerade away In our veils of black Spirits of the dark And now truly invisible. Death comes riding on a mare veiled by moonlight Come to sever me from the torture and insanity Inspired by the world in which your heart still beats Just like death is the only promise that will never be broken Let the angels fall with their last crystal tears tears For none shall be forgiven As they shatter upon your earth And yes I'm nothing In your cold soul burning But yet I know you'll never see My ocean eyed dream From behind your archangelic wings I will wait yet again and Say hello to those who deserve you While you watch me give what remains of my life to you "Your little girl" just like you said To me in so much despair Unknowingly Like like the fate of the roses Drowning in bleach Quietus, my oblivion And again I'm rotting deep inside Nothing I can understand breathes now... Bloody wrists, my murdered soul Nothing you can understand will be now But my silent and undying love for you Like those times you can only pray that the bleeding doesn't stop Weeping silently from a faith veiled by darkness And the icy jade of your eyes is still so naive to sacrifice Kill the sun Like the mesmeric grasp of my heart's sepulchre Breathing through cold, abandoned bars And incised from the jagged window edges of glass In somber attempt of a final escape So it will bleed for the eternity of the pain that I've endured Bloodshed upon the keyless locks from my promise of secrecy Always asking where it hurts the most Never hearing me whisper... Inside (whispered) You'll never know what I'd give up for you You'll never see how much I've loved you... Her bloody hands tie ribbon in her hair To face another day lost under hopelesness Each voice she hears in her head Brings sadist nails to her masochistic wrists And bleed, bleed, bleed yet again. The screams of pain are compulsive now The words she eteched in her wall long ago Still hidden under paint Like the scars on the outside are hidden with time A mannequin for death Nothing like the rampant suicide calling Of love she has faced before Just silent longing For what's been lost A doll for loneliness Only in the whispers of the night In the fading of the light Can she find peace within her solitude The footprints of a lonely shadow drag through sand Where a child's should have ran Beside the ocean Through pain and realization The prints begin to grow more shallow Her skin becomes more sallow Until the waves sweep it all away Drowning the memories that she held in life An angel of darkness, she sails on broken wings Far away into the night Her voice echoes eternally in that valley... Farewell to the walls of wisdom and inspiration Hidden in that house of darkness My heart will forever dwell in your memory. And your dreams flow into reality from the slits upon my wrists And the ropey scars from wounds inside So young; So dead. You'll never be here to see me pray, or watch me bleed, or know it's for you Until you see me, insipid and pure Lashes turned down forever more Within a pine box seething with realization Eternally surrounded by decaying earth. And I wonder if you could look at me sleeping forever pale, like snow and think I'm ugly, and you never cared But I'd like to find out. And I still question if you saw my heart, writhed asunder slashed, like incurable wrists would you change your mind But I know you wouldn't. And in the wilted spring or the vampyric winter nights Would you come to my desolate and wasting grave And place your senescent flowers of darkness Above my heart, upon it's stillness Tombstone inscribed with something I wrote for you But now too worn to read You never understood. And everytime you feel the rain and watch it's beauty and dance with it's life Know that every drop is but a single tear In what I once cried for you Like empty eyes forgotten and lost Within this eternal storm. __________________ ...i can't breathe... Last edited by Apryl : 09-03-2006 at 06:48 PM.

06-25-2005, 09:34 PM	#3 (permalink)
Codger Post Monkey Join Date: May 2004 Location: England Age: 20 Posts: 2,289 Points: 2,276.54 Bank: 0.01 Total Points: 2,276.55 Donate	Nice writing April, reminds me of Cradle Of Filth, which is a great thing __________________ . Myspace April 24th 2007...

06-27-2005, 06:21 PM	#5 (permalink)
Lunar Sky Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Somewhere that only the truly inspired can appreciate Age: 22 Posts: 265 Points: 322.58 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 322.58 Donate	Amazing. I love your vocabulary. It brings the point across very clearly and I love the way you portray images with that vocabulary. Very impressive, and I look forward to seeing more from you. __________________ They say it's my fault But I want her so much x3

06-27-2005, 06:36 PM	#6 (permalink)
Apryl FROGS FTW Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Edmonton, AB. Age: 21 Posts: 3,210 Points: 756.91 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 756.92 Donate	And in the mornings of despair Twilight is dreampt of, eternally Like the vines that crawl upon the walls And curl around what used to be A voice echos silently across the ocean of midnight Whispering for your return to me An anachronistic life That can never find reason Or justification for unbearable pain The things never said are like venom Spat from fangs that will never end the torment fully My only true preservation borne from what was never real Bled from cruel, tortured ocean water Nothingness You've been here all along It's okay that you can't forgive because I will never forget That mysterious glimmer that once shone in your eyes Like always, there was something in the touch of the blade That I searched, but could never find In your embrace There's something about the hopelessness I now see from within you That makes it kill to say good-bye Now when I look to the sky at night It's always without the guidance of stars Eternity has dawned in charcoal black You must be so tired From your lack of breathing My eyes are like thorns Tearing you to shreads But I can't see at all if you're not here Come back to me Back to the lillies beside the ocean That once bled blue with magic and dreams That once upon a time, felt so real to me Like the music you could never hear Calling always for my return The music of imaginary creatures, and voices of wolves In a far off Neverland Where fairies danced and whispered into the the fog of night Never leave me Return with me to a place That no one will ever know Where love overshadows the destruction of this world We shall never die. __________________ ...i can't breathe...

06-28-2005, 10:45 PM	#7 (permalink)
Apryl FROGS FTW Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Edmonton, AB. Age: 21 Posts: 3,210 Points: 756.91 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 756.92 Donate	The dreary moonlight shines upon him, flesh gently weeping with tears of ever-parting To him the silent crowing of the midnight raven Is but a single voice in the majesty of slaughter And the silent, Silent, Silence preserves his dreaming beside the river of lowliness I escape from the lovelorn forest Baring only similarity to me The presence of my pinion, a premonition To my sleeping love And I begin to asphyxiate him with The umbilical rope he sowed within me But I was merely dreaming, dreaming And yes, I breathed of solitude And whispered of the voice The noiseless schizophrenia he bore within my head And yes, for a second he discerned my pain As the river carried the heartbeat of my true love eternally away So I held his hand, and with his razor nails I engraved his song deeply in my veins, and upon the beauty of his face, A carving of scarification, never to be healed Our radiant flesh, now insipid with demise And in the presence of decay, my only wish came true And in the dampness of our own forlorn Hell The beauty of the inevitable – love – murder – suicide Was befallen to resurrection within my submission of carnage and sadism Whilst we danced in the blood of our broken hearts And the hemorrhage of battered wrists While blood-play, and sodomy he sanctified to only me And we danced, Danced, Danced In circular motion Like the wounds from the abortion I cast around his neck And we yearned, and burned our wounded souls from the rest Stealing breath only from the creature of my loneliness… __________________ ...i can't breathe...

06-25-2005, 12:46 PM	#2 (permalink)
belen_whisper n00blet Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Spain Age: 20 Posts: 13 Points: 100.00 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 100.00 Donate	they´re amazing!!!really,I love the atmosphere.I love them.Keep posting

06-25-2005, 10:05 PM	#4 (permalink)
BiiTy Jello Addicted Join Date: Jun 2004 Age: 19 Posts: 224 Points: 42.77 Bank: 159.24 Total Points: 202.01 Donate	A-W-E-S-O-M-E, very impressive, Congratulations and keep the good work

07-01-2005, 11:21 AM	#8 (permalink)
~Alicia~ Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Your Shadow Age: 20 Posts: 815 Points: 554.20 Bank: 466.46 Total Points: 1,020.66 Donate	Oh April I have said many of times, how much i love your words and the way you create this story, of emotion and how you make us drift from reality to another world. The world of your words. Where do you get your insperation from? your life or do you just condure ideas and events up in your mind and write from it? It just amazes me how you can write with so much imagry and passion. It makes me ashamed of my work and i just envy ((in a good way)) the way you think. There isn't one peice of writing i do not love. Your so talented. <333 Lots of love __________________

07-01-2005, 11:41 AM	#9 (permalink)
Apryl FROGS FTW Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Edmonton, AB. Age: 21 Posts: 3,210 Points: 756.91 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 756.92 Donate	Everything I write about it from experience. How I feel today, or memories of how I felt before. I've been through a lot of stuff...And I think a lot, so I always have something to write about. Thanks Alicia. <3 __________________ ...i can't breathe...

07-02-2005, 12:34 PM	#10 (permalink)
Frozen Member of the Banned PERMA BANNED Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Athens, Greece Age: 20 Posts: 1,595 Points: 2,626.06 Bank: 8.53 Total Points: 2,634.59 Donate	OMG,April,I've heard you were talented but now that I see it with my own eyes I'm stunned and speechless!!! These are amazingly written!! I like their 'mood",if you know what I mean Great job!!Keep on!!

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