What are you thinking about at the moment? - Page 193 - EvBoard

Jane · 05-05-2008, 10:54 PM

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Originally Posted by just an illusion

[...] and don't worry that much, it's just school.

JUST school? JUST SCHOOL?!? Yeah, it's just my BAs on the line that I've been working my butt off for three years trying to get. Yeah, just my college degrees that I've spent thousands and thousands of dollars going to some "school" so I can get a "for real time" job. And it just so happens that BOTH of my degrees rely on me being able to do well on my finals/papers. So yeah... a lot on the line, considering if I eff it up, I won't GRADUATE. That would be terribly lame to have spent all that money and stress on NOTHING. I could always spend MORE money to finish the classes I don't pass, but honestly, I'd rather just be done now.

Sorry, but I'm real strung up at the moment, as I've spent my day glued to my computer screen typing papers. I just have two left now before my final at 8:30 am tomorrow. It just really matters considering I'm graduating and I have to do well on these so that I can get my degrees and get the hell away from school. I don't know about anyone else, but I CAN'T.STAND.SCHOOL. Worst place ever. On the planet. I've hated every minute I've ever spent in one.

Anyway, thanks for the best wishes. I've been coming real close to panicking again (I'm not retarded, I just have really bad anxiety), but I'm trying to just tell myself to take it one thing at a time, haha. It's not working, but I'm slowly getting things done, so that's a plus.

But yeah, I came in here because the right half of my right hand has been numb for over two hours. WTF? O.o; It's really weird. And kind of annoying considering it tingles every time I need to move it, which is constantly to type. -.- I'm just wondering what's up with it.

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Originally Posted by ~river~

jane i know how you feel... the last 4 nights i have had panic attacks and break downs while i try to sleep for some reason it seems worse at night or first thing in the morning, i have 6 assignments due in just over a month and im terrified everything seems to big and to much and there are times when i just want to pack it all in and i only have the rest of this year left.

You know, I have that problem at night with mine. Last night, I tried to get SOME sleep, but I just kept twitching and couldn't stay in any one place for more than a minute or I had the urge to throw up. I kept trying to calm myself down, but there was no way, so I had to get up and keep working. -.- I'd rather get something done if I'm going to be awake spazzing.

And yeah, the other night... I was just totally overwhelmed with everything, because I just lumped it all together and realized, "I.can't.do.this." and freaked. I've just had a lot of intense papers to write... ::counts again:: ah, five total are finished so far and I need to do two more. Then I'm done with the papers; also had an art assignment to finish up. And THEN I need to start studying for my finals, lol... which start tomorrow. -.- ::Sighs:: I'm just so tired, I can't wait until it's over.

**Sas** · 05-06-2008, 05:08 AM

damn heineken, damn hang over

**just an illusion** · 05-06-2008, 08:02 AM

Jane, don't get me wrong, I never said school was a trifle. I know what you feel (well, at least I can imagine it), I know what the pressure is, but thinking about the money, the time and so on you've spent on school is pointless. Stop being upset because of the things that haven't even happened. You're a smart person (I can see it from your messages), you're going to do well anyway. And I'm not saying it to encourage you, no. As experience has shown, only idiots don't graduate.
It's just about the way we perceive it. Just take it easier and try to pull out all the stops; I'm sure it'll be more helpful than panicing all the time.
Good luck, anyway.

Sweet Tigger · 05-06-2008, 12:05 PM

I am thinking about.....

Today is my dad's birthday!!

I cried this morning, just to myself...because I know he's sick, and
I just hope there will be so many more birthdays to come!
I'm trying so very hard to think possitive, and be strong, and think
that everything will turn out just the way it should, but I am so worried
as well.
But I will help him fight, and be there with him every single step of the
way.
<3 my Dad Always And Forever, and he will AWAYS
Be my Whole Heart,and Soul.

I dedicate This song to My Dad....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouECTjwhFQA
He is my Absolute EVERYTHING!!

Princess Mary · 05-06-2008, 09:08 PM

Thinking I have to see the hearing doctor to fix my hearing aids and she'll want me to have a new test but I will refuse because my faith in doctors has been ruined.

Sweet Tigger · 05-07-2008, 01:03 AM

How I fucking Just hate tension headaches.

As well, i hate taking anything for it, because I'm on enough meds as it
is, and I don't want to destroy my organs, anymore then they are now.

Princess Mary · 05-07-2008, 03:41 AM

Thinking my tea smells good

Selfish&Cold · 05-07-2008, 04:51 PM

I miss my puppy....

~river~ · 05-07-2008, 07:58 PM

^ what happened to the puppy?

manual handling training at work today 2 hours of absolute crap and my toe hurts

05-06-2008, 05:08 AM	#1922 (permalink)
Sas EvBoard Consultant Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Netherlands Age: 28 Posts: 2,669 Points: 79,142.66 Bank: 73,895.39 Total Points: 153,038.05 Donate	damn heineken, damn hang over __________________

05-06-2008, 08:02 AM	#1923 (permalink)
just an illusion self-destruction Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Moscow, Russia Age: 20 Posts: 2,090 Points: 1,570.75 Bank: 449,030.28 Total Points: 450,601.03 Donate	Jane, don't get me wrong, I never said school was a trifle. I know what you feel (well, at least I can imagine it), I know what the pressure is, but thinking about the money, the time and so on you've spent on school is pointless. Stop being upset because of the things that haven't even happened. You're a smart person (I can see it from your messages), you're going to do well anyway. And I'm not saying it to encourage you, no. As experience has shown, only idiots don't graduate. It's just about the way we perceive it. Just take it easier and try to pull out all the stops; I'm sure it'll be more helpful than panicing all the time. Good luck, anyway. __________________ stranded here on planet earth it's not too much but it could be worse

05-06-2008, 12:05 PM	#1924 (permalink)
Sweet Tigger Nothing Brings Me Down Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Over The Rainbow Age: 31 Posts: 2,856 Points: 8,097.95 Bank: 194,854.02 Total Points: 202,951.97 Donate $PIE. \m/ Heh, you're awesome. :D - CrownlessAgain$	I am thinking about..... Today is my dad's birthday!! I cried this morning, just to myself...because I know he's sick, and I just hope there will be so many more birthdays to come! I'm trying so very hard to think possitive, and be strong, and think that everything will turn out just the way it should, but I am so worried as well. But I will help him fight, and be there with him every single step of the way. <3 my Dad Always And Forever, and he will AWAYS Be my Whole Heart,and Soul. I dedicate This song to My Dad.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouECTjwhFQA He is my Absolute EVERYTHING!! __________________ Always Live Life To The Fullest, And Never Take Anything For Granted! Last edited by Sweet Tigger : 05-07-2008 at 07:24 PM.

05-06-2008, 09:08 PM	#1925 (permalink)
Princess Mary Mastah debatah! Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Pleasuring Tarja Under The Bedsheets And Watching Her Toes Curl Age: 25 Posts: 4,154 Points: 0.00 Bank: 638,711.94 Total Points: 638,711.94 Donate	Thinking I have to see the hearing doctor to fix my hearing aids and she'll want me to have a new test but I will refuse because my faith in doctors has been ruined. __________________ Made by "Sirens Melody"

05-07-2008, 01:03 AM	#1926 (permalink)
Sweet Tigger Nothing Brings Me Down Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Over The Rainbow Age: 31 Posts: 2,856 Points: 8,097.95 Bank: 194,854.02 Total Points: 202,951.97 Donate $PIE. \m/ Heh, you're awesome. :D - CrownlessAgain$	How I fucking Just hate tension headaches. As well, i hate taking anything for it, because I'm on enough meds as it is, and I don't want to destroy my organs, anymore then they are now. __________________ Always Live Life To The Fullest, And Never Take Anything For Granted!

05-07-2008, 03:41 AM	#1927 (permalink)
Princess Mary Mastah debatah! Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Pleasuring Tarja Under The Bedsheets And Watching Her Toes Curl Age: 25 Posts: 4,154 Points: 0.00 Bank: 638,711.94 Total Points: 638,711.94 Donate	Thinking my tea smells good __________________ Made by "Sirens Melody"

05-07-2008, 04:51 PM	#1928 (permalink)
Selfish&Cold Who's your daddy? Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: In a pineapple under the sea! Age: 24 Posts: 912 Points: 2,442.88 Bank: 32,799.92 Total Points: 35,242.80 Donate	I miss my puppy.... __________________ I took you home Set you on the glass I pulled off your wings Then I laughed.

05-07-2008, 07:58 PM	#1929 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	^ what happened to the puppy? manual handling training at work today 2 hours of absolute crap and my toe hurts __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way