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~river~ · 09-02-2008, 08:17 PM

I looked to the stars
Hoping to see the constellations
Outline a future
Full of grace and
Full of beauty
Instead the night was cold
It was cloudy
No light from above
To show me the way
Left to wonder
I cannot put faith in the above
The invisible the intangible
Is hard to trust
I search for a sign
Of some stronger light
A golden face to smile on me
To light this path bathed in shadows
I could wait all night
For the chance to see clearly
Guided by fear of what could
Alarm me if I never move alone
I stumble into the dark
Blinded eyes no future foreseen
Each step in cautious but they take me forward
Accustomed to this blindness
I welcome the dark
As I continue towards tomorrow

~river~ · 10-06-2008, 04:44 AM

I will burn you with this candle light
Can you feel the undercurrent?
Is it so apparent I want you?
That the fire consumes

And I know I am selfish
Intolerably cruel
I do not kind
How can I play fair?
As you push me down
My face to the ground

I think it is time
The roles need to be reversed

I will make you scream my name
Can you call for mercy?
Will your lips shape the words?
I am forever crying

You push me down
My face to the ground
How can I play fair?
And I know I am selfish
Intolerably cruel
I do not do kind

I am starting to believe
That never truly cared
Convince me I am wrong
That you were mine all along

Tonight it ends
The pendulum has swung
For too long over my head
Counting the minutes
I stood and stayed
Waiting for your next move

I look at you now
Hidden within the flickering shadows
Afraid of warmth and light
The candle burns
And I cannot help but weep

Time stood still
And I know the roles are reversed

I am cruel
I was taught never to be kind
When you pushed me down
My face to ground
Time died
Now the clock moves again

Shivercide · 10-06-2008, 09:55 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~river~

I looked to the stars
Hoping to see the constellations
Outline a future
Full of grace and
Full of beauty
Instead the night was cold
It was cloudy
No light from above
To show me the way
Left to wonder
I cannot put faith in the above
The invisible the intangible
Is hard to trust
I search for a sign
Of some stronger light
A golden face to smile on me
To light this path bathed in shadows
I could wait all night
For the chance to see clearly
Guided by fear of what could
Alarm me if I never move alone
I stumble into the dark
Blinded eyes no future foreseen
Each step in cautious but they take me forward
Accustomed to this blindness
I welcome the dark
As I continue towards tomorrow

I really like this. It's so sad, but so beautiful, and easy for me to relate to as well. I love the beginning lines the most, as well as the ending, which is sad but somewhat calming in its acceptance.

I enjoyed your last one as well, I really love the metaphors of the burning candle and passing time throughout it.

~river~ · 10-08-2008, 04:08 AM

thanks steph....

One thousand people screaming
Falling down in pieces all around me
Why am I still standing?
The earth is breaking
My feet still rest on solid ground
I do not feel ok
Random thoughts are whispering
The end is near
Maybe my faults are taking over

My world collides
An inanimate object
My lost and numbing dreaming
Unfocused vision
Blurring the unclear edges
All I never saw
Makes more sense to me

I am scared that I cannot move
When it all falls apart
Why am I standing?
When you are all falling
No words are escaping my mouth
But one thousand people are screaming
My world is ending
As blurred visions collide

just some random ramblings that really i'm not sure what they mean but they just kind of flowed out and there you have it

~river~ · 10-17-2008, 02:14 AM

Is there anybody out there
Going to listen to my screaming?
Yes I am breaking down
And I know it is not for the first time
If I could hold the pain back
Keep the poison from spreading
Acid eating away the already hollowed remains
Of a body whose heart has stopped beating

Angry thoughts within my head
Swirl and swarm like angry bees
Stung
Each time I try to push away
Separation from this ache
Is not a state of mind
This fragile being can grasp

I crawl and I beg for someone to help
Continue this breaking process
Snap me in portions faster if you please
This process of rupturing
The progression of fracturing
Is taking to long
I’m already deteriorated
Too far too long gone
To be stitched up again
For this pain to continue

The rupturing of an unsound mind
And fracturing of a hollow body
Takes time to turn to sand
It passes slowly through your hands

music box · 10-17-2008, 02:25 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~river~

Is there anybody out there
Going to listen to my screaming?
Yes I am breaking down
And I know it is not for the first time
If I could hold the pain back
Keep the poison from spreading
Acid eating away the already hollowed remains
Of a body whose heart has stopped beating

Angry thoughts within my head
Swirl and swarm like angry bees
Stung
Each time I try to push away
Separation from this ache
Is not a state of mind
This fragile being can grasp

I crawl and I beg for someone to help
Continue this breaking process
Snap me in portions faster if you please
This process of rupturing
The progression of fracturing
Is taking to long
I’m already deteriorated
Too far too long gone
To be stitched up again
For this pain to continue

The rupturing of an unsound mind
And fracturing of a hollow body
Takes time to turn to sand
It passes slowly through your hands

I hear you crying out.
I sit here, helpless.
Wishing I had a hand that could reach across the ocean
Across the stars
and across time to get to you.
I wish I could make you better.

<3

VampireMina · 10-17-2008, 02:28 AM

Wow, your writing is very euphoric. Heh, I love your style; especially your style in "Addiction,"

Keep up the good work! ;D

And don't forget to hang onto hope...

~river~ · 10-18-2008, 03:12 AM

Emmy much love as always
Mina many thanks and i am glad you enjoyed reading

a new one

There is nothing like loneliness to freeze a soul
When your shadow is gone
And you are left alone
The darkness whispers
Lies become truths
The conversation does not end
No sigh has sounded like a scream before
Prior to now
When every murmur breaks the silence
The humming sounds like beating drums
Panic floods your every sense
A frozen dear in hidden head lights
You want to scream but the sound cannot get out
Bottle the fear inside
Suffocate on the missing resonance of sound
An escape the does not let the darkness win

music box · 10-18-2008, 12:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~river~

There is nothing like loneliness to freeze a soul
When

09-02-2008, 08:17 PM	#111 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	Blind Tomorrow I looked to the stars Hoping to see the constellations Outline a future Full of grace and Full of beauty Instead the night was cold It was cloudy No light from above To show me the way Left to wonder I cannot put faith in the above The invisible the intangible Is hard to trust I search for a sign Of some stronger light A golden face to smile on me To light this path bathed in shadows I could wait all night For the chance to see clearly Guided by fear of what could Alarm me if I never move alone I stumble into the dark Blinded eyes no future foreseen Each step in cautious but they take me forward Accustomed to this blindness I welcome the dark As I continue towards tomorrow __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way

10-06-2008, 04:44 AM	#112 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	I will burn you with this candle light Can you feel the undercurrent? Is it so apparent I want you? That the fire consumes And I know I am selfish Intolerably cruel I do not kind How can I play fair? As you push me down My face to the ground I think it is time The roles need to be reversed I will make you scream my name Can you call for mercy? Will your lips shape the words? I am forever crying You push me down My face to the ground How can I play fair? And I know I am selfish Intolerably cruel I do not do kind I am starting to believe That never truly cared Convince me I am wrong That you were mine all along Tonight it ends The pendulum has swung For too long over my head Counting the minutes I stood and stayed Waiting for your next move I look at you now Hidden within the flickering shadows Afraid of warmth and light The candle burns And I cannot help but weep Time stood still And I know the roles are reversed I am cruel I was taught never to be kind When you pushed me down My face to ground Time died Now the clock moves again __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way

10-08-2008, 04:08 AM	#114 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	thanks steph.... One thousand people screaming Falling down in pieces all around me Why am I still standing? The earth is breaking My feet still rest on solid ground I do not feel ok Random thoughts are whispering The end is near Maybe my faults are taking over My world collides An inanimate object My lost and numbing dreaming Unfocused vision Blurring the unclear edges All I never saw Makes more sense to me I am scared that I cannot move When it all falls apart Why am I standing? When you are all falling No words are escaping my mouth But one thousand people are screaming My world is ending As blurred visions collide just some random ramblings that really i'm not sure what they mean but they just kind of flowed out and there you have it __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way

10-17-2008, 02:14 AM	#115 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	the process of rupturing Is there anybody out there Going to listen to my screaming? Yes I am breaking down And I know it is not for the first time If I could hold the pain back Keep the poison from spreading Acid eating away the already hollowed remains Of a body whose heart has stopped beating Angry thoughts within my head Swirl and swarm like angry bees Stung Each time I try to push away Separation from this ache Is not a state of mind This fragile being can grasp I crawl and I beg for someone to help Continue this breaking process Snap me in portions faster if you please This process of rupturing The progression of fracturing Is taking to long I’m already deteriorated Too far too long gone To be stitched up again For this pain to continue The rupturing of an unsound mind And fracturing of a hollow body Takes time to turn to sand It passes slowly through your hands __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way

10-17-2008, 02:28 AM	#117 (permalink)
VampireMina Caffeine Addict Join Date: Jun 2008 Age: 18 Posts: 513 Points: 925.43 Bank: 4,282.01 Total Points: 5,207.44 Donate	Wow, your writing is very euphoric. Heh, I love your style; especially your style in "Addiction," Keep up the good work! ;D And don't forget to hang onto hope... __________________ "No matter the power of sex, the power of true love is much greater."

10-18-2008, 03:12 AM	#118 (permalink)
~river~ Lips Like Morphine Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 2,004 Points: 729.61 Bank: 205,855.80 Total Points: 206,585.41 Donate	Panic Emmy much love as always Mina many thanks and i am glad you enjoyed reading a new one There is nothing like loneliness to freeze a soul When your shadow is gone And you are left alone The darkness whispers Lies become truths The conversation does not end No sigh has sounded like a scream before Prior to now When every murmur breaks the silence The humming sounds like beating drums Panic floods your every sense A frozen dear in hidden head lights You want to scream but the sound cannot get out Bottle the fear inside Suffocate on the missing resonance of sound An escape the does not let the darkness win __________________ Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe there's another way