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~river~ · 06-09-2008, 01:05 AM

One day i will wake to find myself dreaming
breathing will come easy and peace
will be more than just a wished for state of mind
until that day
until that sun rises
i will wait here and hold my peices together
so one day you can take me
make me whole
the pain i locked within me
is something i can no longer bear
no longer carry this weight alone
yet for myself i do not care
i will share your burden and
cry your tears
so you can dream so you can breathe
one day that peace will be mine
the dream of living will be real
tangible to open fingers
i will hold you hands and dream no more

~river~ · 06-11-2008, 11:18 PM

Rain

I let the rain come
the drops are cold
they leave me numb

I let you come
your kisses strong
they leave me numb

I await the storm to end
the quite calm
I know it is over

I await the anger to end
the quite remorse
I know it is over

the rain falling sounds
a steady pattern
one with my internal beat

I am numb I know its over
the pain you left me
the burn inside
washed away by ice cold rain

I let you come
your kisses strong
it leaves me numb

I let the rain fall
one with my internal beat
I await the storm to end

unwoven

Admit it,
You wanted me to fall
You wanted me to feel
And once I did
I stood alone

Alone I stand
And I wish to feel
Your arms around me
One more time
Safer there

Safer here
No pretty words
To be whispered
Falsely in my ear
Truths unspoken

Truths are never spoken
Yet I long the
Elaborately woven world
Where I was everything
Wanted more

I admit I wanted to fall
To believe I no longer stood alone
Safe in nonexistent arms
I stand alone
My elaborately woven world
It frays

Lost in another world wrapped tightly in your arms
You whisper to me that I would never be left alone
You promised me that I would always be safe
Never to be alone, yet here I am
Unsheltered, unaccompanied and lost
I was never safe within your arms
It was there I was most
vulnerable

~river~ · 06-11-2008, 11:45 PM

There is something about today
The sunlights rays
Through my gold gilded cage

Breakaway
Find away

A bare branched tree
Against the winter grey
Open lonesome

Nesting in
A hollow trunk
No song
No love
No one
Alone

Breakaway
Find away

And yet I will return
To you,

It is all I’ve ever known
in this cage
It feels like home

Shivercide · 06-12-2008, 12:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~river~

Rain

I let the rain come
the drops are cold
they leave me numb

I let you come
your kisses strong
they leave me numb

I await the storm to end
the quite calm
I know it is over

I await the anger to end
the quite remorse
I know it is over

the rain falling sounds
a steady pattern
one with my internal beat

I am numb I know its over
the pain you left me
the burn inside
washed away by ice cold rain

I let you come
your kisses strong
it leaves me numb

I let the rain fall
one with my internal beat
I await the storm to end

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~river~

There is something about today
The sunlights rays
Through my gold gilded cage

Breakaway
Find away

A bare branched tree
Against the winter grey
Open lonesome

Nesting in
A hollow trunk
No song
No love
No one
Alone

Breakaway
Find away

And yet I will return
To you,

It is all I’ve ever known
in this cage
It feels like home

Once again your use of beautiful wording formed together by slight rhymes and repetition floors me...

I'm not sure which one of those I love the most, but they are both so touching and very heartfelt.

~river~ · 06-13-2008, 12:47 AM

Can you fault me
Crystal tears
Can you blame me
Crystal fears

Falling softly
Captured light
Summer storm
No will to fight

Shadowed mask
Bejewelled face
Left to dangle
Indefinite space

Can you fault me
Crystal tears
Can you blame
Crystal fears

Precious I am fragile
Hidden beauty in my shame
The crystal tears
Of captured light
Bejewel a shadowed mask

Crystal tears my crystal fears
Splinter in an anguished cry
Again I call for
Advocacy

steph <3333333333333333333

~river~ · 06-13-2008, 12:57 AM

(another oldie but refreshed)

bright flashing lights
distinguished only from
the present night
bleeding into one

the merry-go-round I’m on
leaves me lost and lonely
disorientated
I wait for my ride to slow

the noises shatter silence
an angry buzz
a monotonous tone
rising above my
conscious form
blindly numb

the merry-go-round I’m on
leaves me hurt and cold
disorientated
i wait for my ride to slow

overwhelmed by i what face
I close my eyes against the glare
I try to stop
to scream
I wait for my ride to stop
I wait for you
for you to tell me
it is all right

(i'm reading my old stuff trying to find some motivation/ creativity)

music box · 06-13-2008, 01:15 AM

Quote:

overwhelmed by i what face
I close my eyes against the glare
I try to stop
to scream
I wait for my ride to stop
I wait for you
for you to tell me
it is all right

I love this. You write beautifully.

Raskull · 06-13-2008, 01:26 PM

I knew you had a thread! *feels really dumb.*

But you are an amazing write. I've read some of your older stuff and I can see how much your creativity has grown. I love Rain. It uses some of the most vivid imagry. (which I love about alot of your work.) And is brilliant and beautifully sad. Don't ever stop. You have a true talent here.

~river~ · 06-15-2008, 08:19 PM

the cold breeze blows
it whips right through
insubstantial thoughts
like flowers fall
leaving knowledge, stark behind
a bare tree with no defense
the place to hide
which I liked best
at once destroyed by simple truths
take me away from this place
the grave for invalid dreams
out my reach i could never grasp
or hold onto something that
offered me an escape
bound inside
trapped by errant thoughts
a fragile mind constructs a prision
my garden will grow
inside i can hide
mourn impossible dreams
where i run free

just some words i had running wild around my head

raskul and music box thanks for taking the time to read and comment i really appreicate it

06-09-2008, 01:05 AM	#61 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	one day One day i will wake to find myself dreaming breathing will come easy and peace will be more than just a wished for state of mind until that day until that sun rises i will wait here and hold my peices together so one day you can take me make me whole the pain i locked within me is something i can no longer bear no longer carry this weight alone yet for myself i do not care i will share your burden and cry your tears so you can dream so you can breathe one day that peace will be mine the dream of living will be real tangible to open fingers i will hold you hands and dream no more __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind

06-11-2008, 11:18 PM	#62 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	Some Oldies re-done Rain I let the rain come the drops are cold they leave me numb I let you come your kisses strong they leave me numb I await the storm to end the quite calm I know it is over I await the anger to end the quite remorse I know it is over the rain falling sounds a steady pattern one with my internal beat I am numb I know its over the pain you left me the burn inside washed away by ice cold rain I let you come your kisses strong it leaves me numb I let the rain fall one with my internal beat I await the storm to end unwoven Admit it, You wanted me to fall You wanted me to feel And once I did I stood alone Alone I stand And I wish to feel Your arms around me One more time Safer there Safer here No pretty words To be whispered Falsely in my ear Truths unspoken Truths are never spoken Yet I long the Elaborately woven world Where I was everything Wanted more I admit I wanted to fall To believe I no longer stood alone Safe in nonexistent arms I stand alone My elaborately woven world It frays Lost in another world wrapped tightly in your arms You whisper to me that I would never be left alone You promised me that I would always be safe Never to be alone, yet here I am Unsheltered, unaccompanied and lost I was never safe within your arms It was there I was most vulnerable __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind

06-11-2008, 11:45 PM	#63 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	Like Home There is something about today The sunlights rays Through my gold gilded cage Breakaway Find away A bare branched tree Against the winter grey Open lonesome Nesting in A hollow trunk No song No love No one Alone Breakaway Find away And yet I will return To you, It is all I’ve ever known in this cage It feels like home __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind

06-13-2008, 12:47 AM	#65 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	crystal tears Can you fault me Crystal tears Can you blame me Crystal fears Falling softly Captured light Summer storm No will to fight Shadowed mask Bejewelled face Left to dangle Indefinite space Can you fault me Crystal tears Can you blame Crystal fears Precious I am fragile Hidden beauty in my shame The crystal tears Of captured light Bejewel a shadowed mask Crystal tears my crystal fears Splinter in an anguished cry Again I call for Advocacy steph <3333333333333333333 __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind

06-13-2008, 12:57 AM	#66 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	merry-go-round (another oldie but refreshed) bright flashing lights distinguished only from the present night bleeding into one the merry-go-round I’m on leaves me lost and lonely disorientated I wait for my ride to slow the noises shatter silence an angry buzz a monotonous tone rising above my conscious form blindly numb the merry-go-round I’m on leaves me hurt and cold disorientated i wait for my ride to slow overwhelmed by i what face I close my eyes against the glare I try to stop to scream I wait for my ride to stop I wait for you for you to tell me it is all right (i'm reading my old stuff trying to find some motivation/ creativity) __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind

06-13-2008, 01:26 PM	#68 (permalink)
Raskull So Tired Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Where? Age: 17 Posts: 478 Points: 5,322.52 Bank: 4,108.78 Total Points: 9,431.30 Donate	I knew you had a thread! feels really dumb. But you are an amazing write. I've read some of your older stuff and I can see how much your creativity has grown. I love Rain. It uses some of the most vivid imagry. (which I love about alot of your work.) And is brilliant and beautifully sad. Don't ever stop. You have a true talent here. __________________ Anger. The emotion of change. Kill for me.

06-15-2008, 08:19 PM	#69 (permalink)
~river~ Likes Stilts! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: at the heart of your darkest nightmares and deepest desires Age: 20 Posts: 1,785 Points: 860.85 Bank: 113,665.59 Total Points: 114,526.44 Donate	invalid dreaming the cold breeze blows it whips right through insubstantial thoughts like flowers fall leaving knowledge, stark behind a bare tree with no defense the place to hide which I liked best at once destroyed by simple truths take me away from this place the grave for invalid dreams out my reach i could never grasp or hold onto something that offered me an escape bound inside trapped by errant thoughts a fragile mind constructs a prision my garden will grow inside i can hide mourn impossible dreams where i run free just some words i had running wild around my head raskul and music box thanks for taking the time to read and comment i really appreicate it __________________ There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness, truth, beauty and a picture of you. Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of Joy are drifting thorough my open mind