Haunted470

I know I don't show up here very often, but I did enjoy chatting with all of you when the chat was still alive, and now I really could use some advice or at least support. Well, a lot of you in chat have heard about my online relationship before when I was whining about him being away, if you remember back that far. Well, now I could really use some reassurance or some guidance about this..

Well, recently it has felt like he is pushing me away. This began after we started talking about how many is becoming more scarce and he wouldn't be able to go through with this original plans. I agreed, and said I would take care of it. Well, his "reason" for pushing me away is because I'm "sacrificing too much" for him. This makes me think though, and that keeps gnawing at me. He's said before he wants noone else and said he still loves me. This was after a discussion we had on Sunday about him pushing me away and how it's been making me feel. Well, there was also another girl around that started being friends with him, but I'm pretty much over my issues with that and aren't worried one bit.

My main concern though is.. After we had that talk Sunday, I haven't seen him since.. This really makes me wonder and the hours alone let paranoia free it seems.. I've been wondering if he's avoiding me or if he is pondering leaving me... I know a lot of you would argue that I'm not really in love, and that I'm too young, but I'm completely sure. I'm 100% sure. He's said before that he would give his life for me and that I was everything to him as well. He was sick about a week ago too and that really scared me.. He gets really bad respiratory things wrong with him and he gets just really bad with it. That leaves me really worried about him being sick... I just don't know, I just need some form of insight from my fellow evboarders. I'm just.. Scared and alone I suppose.